Feng remembered the time he first met Jia. it was not a good one but later on they themselves don't know what little connection started to grew between them.
~Jia's POV~
life is full of surprises and I always gets late in it. The surprises I've got till now are very few, that broke me into pieces.
Feng sat on his chair and Risa sat beside me.
"It so much enhances affection, that after absence, one wonders how one has able to stay away from them so long." Feng said and a smile appears on my face from sadness Inside me .
"Yeah... it has been terrific." I said and Feng looked at me not saying anything. after a moment he again spoke.
" How are you two ?"
I'm– good. Risa said still not knowing how to react. So I covered her up.
"As you can see totally fine Piggy Bank." I replied cause this question doesn't suits him. But I know, time has changed everything. He is not the childish boy who used to fought with me always. He is more mature now, just look at him all dressed up like a man. And I'm afraid to take the conversation further. I just want to leave this place.
"Why it doesn't seem to me." Feng said.
"cause you are blind, and if you don't have anything to say we are leaving." I stood up from the chair. but I heard the next word of Feng that keep me stay there.
"How much are you going to run away from the situation. it's been four years that you are running away from the situation and also from yourself. " And that's it...and it hit me hard. The words I don't want to hear from anyone has spoken by him now.
regardless of the feeling of tightness, I compose myself and turn towards him and face him. " I'm very busy in my life. I'm not free like you knew in university. And I never ran away from anything." I spoke out the words to him to prove him wrong. He looked at me for a moment and opened his mouth to say
"... You are running from your life. Jia, it's been 6 years I've known you. You didn't say a word to me when you leave z city. was I nothing to you?" asked Feng standing up too. Emotions were seen in his eyes. ' stop it man. I'm having enough, don't add more.' The inner me said.
I was out of words. The past is playing in my head like hell... the past never left me but I did. I left the country cause I can't see myself getting more hurt. I can't see him, i can't see him with someone else. if I would have lived there then my life would have been a more miserable one than it is right now.
"What you want?" I asked him cause I don't want to play word games with him. I don't want him to think that I'm still that same girl from University.
"I want you to go back with me to country z."
"That's not gonna happen." I said as I heard him.
"Then I'm making it through profession." Feng said. i looked at him in disbelief.
" I know you are under Mr. Samuel who is a manager from Ju Corps. And guess what Ju Corps it the company of a friend of mine. "
I looked at him and he changed his expression. "Feng don't do anythi–– . I was cut off by him .
"Get your bag pack ready we are leaving tomorrow morning." Feng said it loud and clear.
"You know I don't need a manager if you really want to do things that way." I too said loudly, and he looked so indifferent to my words.
"But Risa need a manager and a company like Ju corporation." He said and made his way to the exit of the room. He is really the same Feng I knew. He haven't changed a bit. Risa came to the side of me and said.....
"Jia.. let's go back now."
" What does he want. Does he wants me to suffer more. I just told him I'm not same anymore."
"Let's talk at home " With that we leave the building.
We arrived at our house. We enter Inside and sat on the couch. "i should talk with Samuel." Risa said and i nodded.
She called Samuel and he picked it up and she put it on speaker. Before She could speak any word he said... "Your all documents are ready. We are leaving tomorrow morning. I'm coming with you" when he finished his sentence Risa said.
"What is happening Samuel. You are my manager I can't just leave this country like that. We can't just ..."
She said patiently to hear his answer.
" I'm just your manager not the Boss of Ju Corps. Boss told me everything, He said he has set up a new company in z city. And wants you there. And i can't say anything about it. "
"Samuel please.. You know everything." She begged him but I know he can't do anything.
"Sorry" he said and hang up the call.
I was in dilemma. I don't know what to think. The thing I feared is coming back. I don't have any choice but to go back. once, I had left that country with so much heart break and now I'm going there again.
Risa looked at me hopelessly. We just sat there for like an hour without talking.
.
.
"I'm going to pack the things." Risa said and went to the room. " Don't worry we can make it there. It's your love Jia... you have been tolerating so much and this is nothing compares to what you have already been through." I nodded and she went to pack the things.
The scene from the past is playing Inside my mind. The scene of Finn and his girlfriend Emi.... I really hate the girlfriend of Finn, but never able to hate Emi. She is beautiful from inside and outside both. with figure of A class model & actress and also with character of sweet women. She is really so humble and kind. I would have broken Finn's relationship if it's not with Emi. But I can't do that with Emi. Finn loves her and vice versa. I can't possibly force my love on someone, but the stupid me can't give up on her love , I always wanted to prove my feelings to Finn but he never listen to me. I don't know but I still want him to listen to me atleast once. And I know I will never do that, he is already someone's man, someone's boyfriend. I don't want to show this side of me to anyone. I can't be more selfish to take someone's love from them. But I can't forget too...
I still remember the time When Emi invited me and Risa to her birthday party. That day I saw how Finn didn't blink his eyes for 15 second straight. He was wearing a beautiful smile while looking at her. As she walk towards him and they hugged and everyone claps for them. Obviously who wouldn't.... After all their relationship is known by everyone. A well known couple. Each step Emi takes, it pierced a pin in my heart. It's not easy to see your love looking so lovingly at his love. It's terrible I'm telling you.
My breath was getting heavier as I remember everything. My hand formed a fist and pressed more into the couch. I don't want to see that scene. I don't want to remember him with someone else. But what can I do, she is always with him in every memories of mine. I just don't want to....
Now that the color has touched me your color.
The color of love is so deep,
it's begun to dissolve in my soul.
It's mark doesn't get removed..