For several days, Yuana could not contact Bobby. She felt so strange. Why was Bobby's number suddenly unreachable? She asked Manfred, but the guy said maybe Bobby was still busy. But it didn't make sense. Bobby was busy, the number was not active. How could?
It was been four days. And Manfred came to see Yuana with a letter from Bobby. It was getting weirder, wasn't it? Why did Bobby write all the letters? This was a modern era!
Wearily Yuana entered her room and opened the letter. There was Bobby's neat writing on it. Yuana started reading.
**
My dearest Yuan,
I'm writing this letter a few days before I left. Something happened and it forced me to leave, more than just changing college I want to continue my study.
And, I, with a heavy heart, I want to end our relationship. I'm sorry, Yuan. From the bottom of my heart, I'm so sorry.
**
Yuana couldn't believe reading that sentence. Her hands started shaking. Her whole body felt hot. She didn't misread, did she?
Yuana continued reading.
**
One thing you must know, you must believe. I love you so much. I don't want to hurt you. But we can't continue our relationship.
Be angry, hate me. I'm ready with that. What we've been through together, I'm sure, will make you strong.
Goodbye, Yuan. Do your best. And be happy with your life. Never forget that there is God who is always faithful to take care of you.
**
Yuana didn't blink. Right. Bobby broke their relationship. Why? Did she do something wrong? Or Bobby had another girlfriend? Yuana started to panic. Her tears came out uncontrollably. Her heart was a little tight. Confused, angry, disappointed, mixed in her heart.
"Manfred . . . Manfred know what happens. I have to see Manfred," she said.
Yuana went to Manfred's house on Yoel's motorbike. She went straight into the house as soon as he got there. Marieta was in the living room.
"Rieta, is Manfred here?" asked Yuana.
"Yup. Come and sit down. I'll wake him up. He's sleeping." Marieta went to Manfred's room, waking her brother up.
Soon Manfred came out. He knew what Yuana wanted to talk about. It must be about Bobby. Seeing the worried and confused look on the beautiful girl, Manfred had to prepare to answer.
Manfred sat next to Yuana.
"Do you know what happen to Bobby?" Yuana looked at Manfred nervously.
"About what?" Manfred pretended not to understand the meaning of the question.
"He broke me up, Fred. The letter you gave from him. He left me, he broke our relationship. He didn't say why. He just said he had to do it. Fred, you know something, don't you?" Yuana's face reddened. She wanted to cry saying those words.
Manfred was silent. He couldn't lie, he was still thinking of the right words to answer.
"What happens? The real. What did I do wrong? He knows I love him so much. He knows I need him by my side. Why, Fred?" Yuana was already crying. Her heart felt full and heavy.
"Yu, Bobby loves you very much too. He has reasons for doing this. You know what Bobby is like." This sentence Manfred said, he knew would not give Yuana any relief.
"You know the reason, don't you?" Yuana looked back at Manfred, her cheeks were still wet.
Manfred didn't answer. He just looked back at Yuana.
"You know why, I am sure. Why don't you tell me?" Yuan started to get annoyed.
"I can't." Manfred felt his throat tighten slightly. Feeling guilty for choosing silence, but it was impossible to say what happened without Bobby's permission.
"Why?" Yuana's voice was angry. "Please ..."
"I think Bobby himself is the best one at saying it all. You must be strong enough to face this." Heavy, but this was all Manfred could say.
"Come on, Fred. I'm trying to understand why he left me. I don't wanna hate him. Tell me, Fred ..." Yuana's voice turned sad.
"I had promised. I can't tell you." Manfred shook his head, his heart also aching. He couldn't understand why Yuana and Bobby had to arrive at this hard situation.
"Oh ..." Yuana sighed. "You guys, always have one voice, right? Now who wants to care about my feelings? Who wants to understand me?"
"Yuan, I'm still here. I'll still be with you," said Manfred. "We may have plans. But God can allow things will happen, althoguh it can be like we expect or not. He may have different plans. We just have to surrender, trusting God will give our best."
"Family ruined, boyfriend left me ... Do you think those are my best?" Yuana's voice snapped. Anger and disappointment overflowed again.
"Yuan, our lives are not over yet. We still face tomorrow, we still have a hope ..."
"With all this going on, I just know that no one loves me." Yuana couldn't seem to trust anyone with everything she was been through.
"You're wrong. Bobby loves you. I love you. God also loves you. Whatever happens can't be an excuse for you to say there is no love for you," said Manfred.
Yuana looked down. She didn't know what she could talk anymore. Bobby was gone. He had to go. He had no choice ... It hurt so bad ...
*****
Yuana returned home with a confused heart. She was so sad. She still couldn't believe it, Bobby who was so sweet and full of love, until the last days before he went to college to Surabaya, suddenly broke her up.
"What did you go to Surabaya for, Bob? Right for college?" Yuana's heart began to ask. Her mind was walking farther and thinking many possiblities about what Bobby would do.
Lying limp on the big bed in her room, Yuana was carried away by all the times she spent with Bobby. Her boy was handsome and kind. He always brought joy to her. Bobby had all kinds of ways to make Yuana smile.
Bobby was also the one who taught Yuana to be close to God, convinced that everything that happened was not a coincidence. God allowed many things happened to teach them becoming mature. Everything Bobby said seemed to come in turns in Yuana's head.
"How can you do this to me, Bob ...? How can you …?" softly with tears still in her eyes, Yuana repeatedly said that sentence.
Yuana's room door opened, Yuana turned to see. Ira walked in and stood on the side of the bed. Yuana sat down and wiped her eyes, drying the tears on her cheeks. Ira was surprised. Yuana's face was red, her eyes were slightly puffy.
"Miss Yuan? What happened?" Ira immediately sat on the bed and looked at Yuana with a confused look.
"Ira ..." Yuana shifted her body, drew closer to Ira and hugged her. Again, she burst into tears. This time, she even burst into tears.
Ira was confused, but she let Yuana cry in her arms. She rubbed Yuana's back to calm her down. While sobbing, Yuana stammered saying Bobby broke their relationship.
Ira was even more surprised by the news Yuana said. How could it be? A few days ago, Bobby came to see Yuana. They were so sweet and affectionate. Ira's heart was sliced. Yuana was so sad and hurt. Ira couldn't say anything but her heart was bitter with what Yuana was going through.