When Kayla woke up she found herself in someone else's bed. She didn't know where she was and when she stood up she felt a sharp pain in her head. It was as if someone was hammering her head but even if it pained alot she just stood up and walked outside of the room to find Parker and Cosmos smiling sweetly at her. "Hello! Good morning!" Cosmos said in a happy tone. "You sure don't rest enough cause you slept around 1 last night and you're waking up at 5 in the morning." Parker said while he ruffled her hair. "I need to leave." Kayla replied while still clutching her head. "Why? Because someone might figure out that you're not home?" Cosmos worriedly asked. "Nice one but today I don't have the energy to laugh at your jokes" and with that she ran towards her house and quietly sneaked inside the house.
She quickly took a shower and took some pills to help her with the headache. After she was done with dressing up she quickly prepared breakfast for everyone and then left the house. "Morning!" Parker cheerfully began. Kayla just nodded as response and walked faster compared to the other two, to school. During class Kayla was was so drained out that she couldn't even lift her finger without feeling nauseous.
Kayla was just lying her head on the table during the recess when four girls approached her table. "Hey?" Kayla knew those girls, they were once her friends but somehow they had drifted apart. "Yes?" "Why are you acting this way? Don't pretend like this. You might think you look cool for doing this but you just look really annoying in our eyes. Are you trying to get attention from others?" Tina said harshly. Kayla didn't know what to say so she just froze there and kept quiet with her head down. They left after a few minutes while Kayla stayed still while biting her lips to prevent herself from crying.
Kayla stood up when the recess was over and went to meet her homeroom teacher who was arranging her papers in the office. "Mrs. Emma?" "Yes dear?" "Can I leave the school right now?" "Why hon? Is something wrong?" " Yes mam I don't feel really good." "Won't you be able to stay in the nurse's office?" "I think it will be better if I just leave." "We can't help it if you're seriously ill now, can we? Well it's the last day of school today so I don't think it will be a big deal. I hope you can still take your tests tomorrow." "Yes mam" "You may leave then.Take care of your health dear." Kayla nodded as a response and took her bag from the class and left while Parker and Cosmos kept on staring at her.
"Albany High School? When will I be able to leave you?" Kayla thought to herself while she blankly stared at the school's name written in big bold words. After few more minutes of staring Kayla finally left for her house and when she reached her home she quickly went to her room and slept there peacefully. It was 5 in the evening when her sister woke her up. "Yes?" "What are you doing? Aren't you going to study?" "I feel sick." "I'm so done with you and your lies. Why are you so pretentious? I know you aren't sick so don't try to act that way cause you aren't going to earn any sympathy from me that way. Now quit your acting and get up and do something productive." Kayla was really hurt by this. She did know that she had created this mess for herself but she really was sick so why did everyone just disregarded that fact and chose to be mean.
Was she really that annoying that even her presence was intolerable. Was she not allowed to be sick? Was she always this worthless to everyone? Was her value no more than that of a stray dog? Kayla couldn't bear the pain so she took out the sharp blade that she was always hiding between her books. She took it out and started cutting herself until blood was dripping like water from her wrist. After she was done she kept the blade back in it's place while she cleaned the dried blood from her wrist in the bathroom. Kayla then left for her room and started studying for her test.
The next day at school she kept on avoiding Parker and Cosmos not because she was angry at them but instead because she didn't wanted them to ask about the awkward situation that occurred yesterday during the recess. She wasn't sure if they had witnessed the scene or not but she sure wasn't risking it to ask them. It went that way for a week until all the students were send off for the winter break.
Kayla stayed inside her room during the whole break and tried building some confidence. She also wanted to achieve her ideal body so she had started a bad habit of smoking more than 10 piece of cigarettes everyday. But she was so determined about it that she didn't even stop when she started puking whenever she smoked and since there was nothing but water inside her she would always puke out liquid which would leave her with a bad stomach later on. She kept on building her confidence through dancing and practicing her actions infront of the mirror which would seem crazy and idiotic but she was willing to risk everything to gain confidence. She didn't wanted to be treated like a pushover anymore.She wanted to voice out her feelings loudly and not feel guilty about it later onwards.
But little did she knew that she was killing her real self little by little. She was creating a whole new persona which was really different from who she really was. She was hurting herself so badly that she would not be able to return back from that point. But hey! She was young and gullible so she believed every word that people said about her.