Class ended and I got my stuff together ready to leave Drew after spending a whole class with him with an unsettling atmosphere around us. I mean, sure, before I wanted to be with him but only to ask him a question. Now I'm not so sure I want to know the answer to that question. To what he meant.
Like he said before, things would get weird between us and honestly I didn't want that. I mean, it already was a little weird but if I were to find out things I probably didn't want the answers to it would only get worse with us.
I really didn't want that.
In all honesty, Drew kind of was my only friend and I didn't want to loose him.
I sighed as I started leaving the school gates and turned to walk home.
That's when I noticed him.
"Hey, Samantha. Did everything turn out all right?"
I looked over at Sebastian shocked as to why he was even here.
"Why are you here?" I asked in a sort of whisper yell grabbing his arm.
"I wanted to walk you home."
I rolled my eyes.
"Why?"
"Do I really have to explain?"
He looked at me with a devil of a smirk and roamed his eyes all over my face sending many signals to my brian. I crossed my arms and looked away starting to feel uncomfortable.
I started walking away feeling a blush creep to my cheeks anyway.
"Yeah, yeah just stay at arms length away."
He started walking next to me at my wanted distance with his hands n his pockets as if to help control himself.
But it didn't stop there.
"What are you doing here?"
I turned around to see Drew behind me, anger oozing out of his face as he looked at Sebastian. Sebastian, on the other hand, kept it the way it was before. With a smug smile from being able to be with me.
"What do you mean? We live together, right? So why can't I walk her home?"
"Because," Drew walked over to me and grabbed my arm and pulled me over to him, "she's mine."
Sebastian didn't flinch.
"I don't remember her saying that."
Oh no.
"She doesn't need to."
No.
"Why?"
Please stop.
"Because we haven't broken up."
Oh great.
I pushed Drew off of me and walked a few steps back trying to get some distance between us.
"Drew. For the millionth time, we broke up." I turned to look over at Sebastian. "Sebastian, don't egg him on."
They both ignored me staring at each other ready to start fighting.
"Guys."
Sebastian looked at me but Drew kept his stare hard on Sebastian as if waiting for an opportunity.
"We should get going. Christopher wants to talk with you."
I refocused my stare from Drew to Sebastian as he looked at me with some kind of want. A want to be alone with me.
"Christopher? What does he want?"
Christopher wasn't the type to want to talk with me about something this seriouslty. And from the looks of it, it seemed to be an alone topic.
"Beats me. All I know is that he wants to talk to you."
I tried to think about what he would want to ask when Drew grabbed my arm.
"Well, Samantha and I have a project to work on," Drew said while yanking me over to him making me stumble into his chest. "And she doesn't want to see whoever that guy is. She prefers me over anyone anytime of the day."
Drew was holding me down to him making it hard for me to move away.
"Oh my god how annoying are you? Why would she choose you over someone like me? Besides, I think she's wearing off of you. Just last night she and Jake were in her room enjoying some alone time together. Right, Samantha?"
Shit.
Drew's grip on me tightened as he listened to Sebastian's words.
This isn't good.
Drew kept me close but lifted my head a little forcing me to lock eyes with him.
Oh no.
Not the eyes.
He looked hurt. Really hurt. I couldn't not see it. But I could also see a glimpse of hope in them.
"Is this true, Samantha? Is what he said true?"
"Uh, I, um..."
What do I say?! I can't say yes because that would hurt Drew and Sebastian would like that. But I also can't say no because that would be wrong and only cause more trouble.Well, either way will bring nothing but trouble.
Before I could say anything, Sebastian beat me to it.
"It's true. She even had to get Christopher to get him off of her. See Jake doesn't know boundaries but then again, I think Samantha let him get away with it."
Drew's eyes got even hard to look at but I couldn't focus on anything else.
I tried pushing Drew off of me needing to get away. I didn't care if that's running away from the situation. It's all I could think of doing.
"Samantha. Answer me. Is this true?"
I kept trying to push him off.
His grip tightened on me yet again and I winced at the pain. Tears threatened to fall.
No. Not yet. Not now. Not here.
"Samantha!"
I finally pushed him off and went straight to running. I ran past Sebastian ignoring his face and the expression it held.
I ran as fast as I could. I saw my house in sight but turned and headed to the park. My tree. I stopped for a second to catch my breath. That is until I heard Sebastian call out to me not to far away.
No. Not here. I need to get farther away.
I continued off running away from my tree.
Why was I running? Really? Why couldn't I just answer him?
Was I scared? But scared of what? His reaction? Rejection?
Change?
I felt the tears slide down my cheeks as I kept running. I had no idea where I was. I didn't really care.
I started to slow down getting tired and walked over to some bench.
My breath was heavy and my tears stained my face cold.
I wish I could be at my tree but they know about that place and would do anything to get me to go back with them.
I looked around and saw no one around me.
I was safe.
Maybe.
I didn't know where I was and this place didn't look too friendly but what did I care? I'm far away from the problem at hand.
I was away.
I graoned.
What is wrong with me? Running? Why couldn't I just answer him like any other normal person?
I am a major idiot.
I heard my phone ring and looked at it seeing Drew's number. I ignored it then put my phone on silence and shoved it deep in my bag.
I rubbed my eyes getting rid of any extra tears I had.
I laughed laughed little.
What would Justin do if he was here?
Guess I'd never know.
I laid back on the bench I was on ands looked at the sky as it started to change to night. The sun slowly fell down bringing a mix of colors to the sky giving it an interesting view.
I yawned as I looked at it starting to get tired. I laughed at the thought.
For oversleeping today I thought I wouldn't get tired.
I looked around the area once again.
I should get back home.
Even though the thought wasn't exactly one I wanted to go with I decided to anyway. Christopher did want to talk to me. About what though, I didn't know.
But Sebastian would be there. And what about Drew? He'd be a big pain in my ass. And there's also everyone else. They'd be mad at me for running and mom would ask questions.
I groaned and slouched on the bench.
Maybe going home isn't the best idea.
I looked at the sky and watched as the sunset was bigenning to finish. But I also saw raincloauds forming.
Rain.
I've never liked rain. It always meant something bad was going to happen to me.
It rained shortly after they left...
A drop fell and more came afterwards. They were little and for the most part far apart.
If I didn't keep them home longer then they needed to be they could have made it before it started raining.
The rain got more continuous and I felt the water hit me and slide down where my skin was exposed.
If I didn't...
Thunder.
It's all my fault.