I wasn't one who'd use sneak attacks to gain an advantage over my opponent, especially when they're of the opposite sex. But it's just like Emily and Blake said. As long as I get the desired outcome, the methods are irrelevant. Do I support it? No. Am I against it? Not entirely.
It's the entire concept of Vegans, and people who just eat meat. If you're going the vegan path to save animal cruelty or to improve your health because you're allergic to meat or whatever reason it is, that's upon you, and it's a commendable effort. But that's where you draw the line. If you're going to spread awareness of why taking the path of vegans is beneficial, that's alright.
But if it's at a stage where you reject one's choice and entirely force your ideologies onto them, that's when you lose all the credibility you've possessed, till that very moment. I hope you get it, right? I'm not sure what's right and wrong. And I won't try to contradict my statement I've made earlier, about there's no such thing as a right answer or a wrong answer.
What's right, and what's wrong entirely depends on the individual's ideals, and how close it is to the norms that are expected by society. With that said, it doesn't correlate to the fact that you have to follow what's defined right and wrong but that's as long as no harm is inflicted on anyone, and no life is taken away. At least, that's what I'd like to believe in.
The smoke was starting to settle down. Honestly speaking, I wasn't expecting much from what I just did. I'd be surprised that she'd stay intact in one place. The most feasible option would be for her to let the smoke settle down, and then show no trace of her, only to attack me from behind, again. Not that I'm expecting her to make the same move twice since that would be absolutely foolish of her.
The dust had indeed settled down, long after the explosives set were set off. Enough time for me to have an internal monologue, and I used it well. When it came to a complete halt, the scenery I was met with sent shockwaves down to the very last nerve of my spine. What stood in front of me was a girl, who took multiple blasts head-on, and was now bleeding, and yet, she was waiting for the dust to settle so that she could hit me with her special move.
She unleashed a sort of bubble, and before I knew what it was, I was entrapped inside it. I feel like this space is quite new, and yet, quite warm like I'm used to it being here.
"It's your fault, Axel!" I heard a voice. A voice that I could never forget even if I wanted to. There were tremors within my body. "It's your fault, that things ended up like this." Stop it! Don't. I know what's going on. I was there. Stop it! Stop hurting and agonizing with yourself. "Tell me, Axel, why didn't you save me?" That's my first love.
"So, you've abandoned me just like mom and dad, uh? Some big brother you are. Why? Was I a bother to you, brother? Answer me. Why have I left alone?" Even if you ask me that now, there's nothing I can offer to share that'd lighten your burden. "You've should've died, just like them." That's my brother.
A classroom? Ah! I remember...All the eyes were cast on me like I was some teenage Hollywood sensation that just came back to school.
"Hey, it's that punk!"
"You got some nerve showing up here after what you've pulled out."
"How can you just be like nothing's happened." The slamming of my desk echoed across the classroom. These faces which were my friends were now strangers to me. Every single one of them. "Why are you looking at my face like that?"
"You've should've just died." Oh! That's the girl I had a crush on some time ago. Well, at least one of us was able to express our honest feelings.
"Yeah, you're just a despicable man. Your existence itself is quite....uuh! I don't even have words for it. Just die." Hmm, that guy's my neighbor. Welp! Your plight is understandable.
The reasons varied for each individual. But there was one feeling that resonated louder than the spitfire jets from the air force.
"Die!"
"Die!"
"Die!"
"Die!"
"Die!"
I vividly remembered this day. The day that forged me into the human who I am today.
Huh? Why am I here? "Axel...What...what do I do?" Why am I with her again? Oi, stop this! This is enough! "Axel, help me! I don't want to do this! Please! Sve me!" I reached out my hand to her but I fell short. No, my hand just went through her hand. I could see the little hope that she had within me fade away from her eyes. She just dropped her hand.
I was helpless again huh. Haha! HAHA! HAHAHA! HAHAHAHA! HAHAHAHA...ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! Why am I so hopeless?! WHY? JUST WHY IS IT THAT I'M STILL ALIVE?
Here I am, back in my deplorable state. So this is who I am, still, the same old kid coweing away from accepting his shortcomings, and yet to claim responsibility for the misfortunes caused due to his very existence.
Innocents suffered. The guilty prospered. Triumpanthly they walked around the streets free. While the victim locked herself inside her room.
Relationship? Shattered!
Bonds? Collapsed.
Spirit? Crushed.
My entire purpose of existence? None.
There I lay, helpless. Crying out to get me out of this nightmare. I hate you all. All of you. The strangers from my past, and the ones who're present right now. I hate you, Marcus! I hate you, Emily! I hate you, Blake! But more than that, the one person I hate the most, it's you.
AXEL!
I HATE YOU, AXEL!!!