It's cold outside.
The bustling marriage of two beautiful brides, people chanted, also somewhere there were glances full of disdain, also sighs of disappointment. Raising a glass of strong wine, people look around and see people of different levels everywhere. Some are presidents of corporations, some are directors of large companies, and some are just low-level employees in a small office.
This world is always divided into classes. Rich people naturally play with the rich, the average often plays with the average, and the poor can only play with the poor. Class discrimination is ubiquitous, whether manifest or not. So when looking at people can also distinguish their level like.
Where all the middle-aged people sit down to drink a glass of wine to celebrate, some people come to bring their children and grandchildren to say hello, some people leave with some joy. The place that is the least visited, but the most respected, is the remote and quiet place. Couples of middle-aged parents sit together and talk about everything in heaven and earth, laughing and teasing each other.
Mai Lam Bang is very good today, he no longer coughs and coughs like a few days ago, so he is very happy. It is said that as long as he is 50 years old, he will not be sick anymore and will live healthy for the rest of his life. However, he is sick more than a person's life, so he is used to it, it doesn't matter whether he is sick or not. However, his old husband was worried, and his three small children were all worried.
He smiled and leaned against Lam Hoang Nguyen pretending to be a little drunk, but closed his eyes to rest, the familiar big hand seemed to be too familiar to rest on his hair, gently caressed it, he opened his eyes and looked at him with a smile, saying: "Happy haha?" ?"
"Yes." Hoang Nguyen said softly, his age is already grown, wrinkles have also begun to appear. He looked at his mate, the gentleness in his eyes adding to the sweetness of both of them.
In the distance, the children ran around, the girl in the lead ran ahead, the little ones ran after. Tho is sitting next to the cake, eating and drinking, it is wearing a red and pink dress that she sews by herself, with a simple and delicate border. Silky silver hair flowing down, soft as clouds. It sits and watches people play, and it stays silent and eats.
"Aren't you going to play with your friends? If you eat them all the time, you'll get fat." A boy about 16 - 17 years old walked up to him, very naturally sitting opposite, looked at him with a very gentle smile. It was too familiar to him to bother looking. Ly Kien laughed, even though he said that he still took another cake for her, watching this child eat it all the time but not grow up, his heartfelt so sweet.
Ly Kien is the grandson of several generations of the Ly family, a bit familiar with Hoang Nguyen, his age is almost the same as his father's, but he went to different schools, so he didn't play together. She has known him for more than a few months, can't remember how, but she remembers his name Ly Kien, she used to call him Bi Bo, and why anyone remembers.
It's not that she hates him so she talks, it seems that every day when he comes home from school, he stops by his house to give him some candies or cakes and then leaves, Soc said it didn't matter so he didn't notice. very. Taking the plate of cake he just took, it narrowed its eyes and asked:
"Why are you running over here? Or do you have no friends?"
Ly Kien saw the unpleasant face being disturbed while eating and found it even more adorable. Today it is even more lovely, like a doll, not an angel. Small heaven with silver wings made him flutter. Ly Kien sometimes thinks he is Lolicon, but he is very pure, just likes to look at this lovely baby, he still doesn't dare to rub his head. Partly because he was afraid that his two brothers would cut off his hands, but most importantly, he respected her.
Li Kien made a pitiful face and replied, "That's right, no one wants to play with you."
"Bi Bo liar." Tho laughed but still gave him a small plate of cake, "Eat it, no one plays with you Tho plays with Bi Bo."
Li Kien also laughed and took it and started eating.
All of those actions were captured in the eyes of his father, Hoang Nguyen squinted at some boy who dared to flirt with his daughter. It's so disgusting, I want to beat it so bad. The laughter was slit, Lam Bang also saw it, he laughed very excitedly.
Pinching someone's nose, Hoang Nguyen helplessly asked: "What are you laughing at?"
Lam Bang shook her head: "No, no. I feel that my children's lives are very good, peach flowers but no silver space."
"I've heard that Vuong Minh talk nonsense again."
"Hmm, he said something wrong."
"Say what?"
"Speaking of three children, each of them has a smooth life, a straight line to the end of life." Another sentence, he kept for himself, looked up at Hoang Nguyen and smiled happily. The three of them all enjoyed the sweet fruit because it was salty and bitter, and they all took it all...
However, twenty years have passed. The dust has also covered, the stone is also worn. Everything is over.
Hoang Nguyen looked into his eyes, worried and tender, hugging him, the familiar action he had done for many years. He didn't know what he was thinking but could tell its contents. He understood him too well, too understanding like two but one. Youth has passed, but there are wounds left in it that even time accidentally can not fade. It's his fault, but the person who bears it is y, the pain and suffering are both of them.
He let go of the past, but it still haunts him. With each dreamy dream, sometimes he dreamed, sometimes he panicked, and at those times he could only hold him in his arms and say, sorry.
It's over, he used to say.
But, he couldn't forget.
Lam Bang patted him on the back, he understood him, but don't be sad. The two have three children, the story has passed for more than 20 long years. Maybe because of him, his psychology is too weak, sometimes he will remember, but it will pass quickly, without thinking about it, he will still be happy. He accepts it, accepts the past, he accepts it as a part of him, not an escape, like everyone else.
But Hoang Nguyen spent 20 years making up for it, hugging him every time he dreamed about that time, always saying, sorry. It was over, but he couldn't be relieved, the pain still tormented him, tormenting him bit by bit, maybe for the rest of his life he still had to endure it.
"It's okay, I said it's okay, don't think too much, sweetie." Lam Bang said softly.
"I'm sorry."
"What's wrong? How dare you hide something from me?"
He smiled, simply laughed. He sometimes didn't know if he was consoling him or it was he who comforted him. Rubbing that handsome face, is he still so handsome when he's old? His forehead met, he hugged his neck, kissed him lightly on the lips, and said: "Don't think about the past anymore, I dare to face it, you should let it go. Right? Must think of the future, must remember that And tomorrow, don't forget about yesterday. You know what?"
"Yes." Hoang Nguyen also answered after a long time.
This matter, he really can't let go, but in the future, he can't forget it, also because he doesn't know what he will be like in the future.
In the future, Hoang Nguyen looks at Lam Bang, holding his thin body, carrying a bit of stubbornness and a lot of love.
In the distance, in that bustling wedding, Bang Du pulled his brother's shirt to prepare to fight outside. He glanced at the young men and scared them so much that they didn't dare to cough. Nguyen Ha looked at his brother with displeasure, folded his arms, and turned his face away without looking. Bang Du was helpless with his brother, he asked:
"What's the fight?"
Nguyen Ha has a rather overbearing personality, he glanced at the idiots over there and replied, "Because they made fun of me."
Pulled young brother down, reached out to smooth the Soc's standing hair, looked at the pitiful face, and couldn't help but knock: "You messed up a lot and blamed it? Who's free? What are you teasing me for?"
Nguyen Ha mumbled disapprovingly: "Hmm, they hate it."
Bang Du shook his head: "Come on, you're old, don't think about causing trouble all day. Find a friend to play with."
Nguyen Ha was like a child who was wronged, her eyes glittering at him: "My brother made fun of me."
"You think I can't see? Don't worry, An Binh has already 'talked' to them. I'm not young anymore, how can I do such shocking actions."
"Hmm... I know." Even though they had no interest in them, they dared to say something insulting to him. Nguyen Ha hates anyone who dares to tease him and wants to say some lowly words. Cut tongue said. Angry, angry, he looked over at the group of people being 'taken care of' by An Binh, and now his face is pale and he can't stand anymore.
How dare those people make fun of you?
Because very few people know his background, like Bang Du back in the day. Only a few people close to him know the family background of his three brothers, his father said that living comfortably but being afraid of people all day is no longer fun. Because of that, Bang Du or Nguyen Ha often go through such obnoxious things, Van Mai is too young and is a girl, so her father and father pay more attention to them, but no one dares to come.
Dizzy looking at the other group of people who were cowering in fear, An Binh raised his hand to signal to finish the job, Bang Du nodded to let him leave. Today is someone's wedding day, he doesn't want to make a mess, so he handles everything gently. Dragging his brother who is still frustrated and has nowhere to go to find a friend to play with, he sits stupidly looking at his watch and remembers the other person.
To tell the truth, he and Dien Ky did not do anything, he did not want to force him. Sometimes it's a fleeting kiss, a tight fist in the dark, or just looking at each other and smiling. Simple but he's so good, he doesn't want to hurt you, he doesn't want him to be like him.
Looking at their two fathers, the two of them are still as sweet as ever, but who knows the deep hurt in both of their souls can't be so sweet, so bitter, lasting until now and forever after, will not be forgotten.
Sighing, looking up at the sky, he looked at the faint sunlight above. If he didn't want the person he loved to cry, then he had to respect that person first.
Pick up the phone, make a phone call to that person: "...Have you eaten yet?... Eat what are you waiting for?... It's okay, remember to take a short nap to get healthy...Yes. .."
Nguyen Ha ran everywhere at the party, he looked at the two beautiful brides over there waving him and ran to take a few pictures. make memories. Looking far away, there was a figure hurrying through the stream of people, the figure was quite familiar, I can't remember where I've seen it before. He did not pay too much attention to the other person, looking over to the other side to see a very interesting scene, three men surrounding a cute short boy.
Bao Hieu looked at the other three people with disgust, he wanted to leave, but the other three men were covered in thick cement and scared. Following along, even making a disgruntled face. Bao Hieu didn't want to talk to them, so he ran towards his sister in anger, not forgetting to glare at the other three with disgust, the three of them could only scratch their heads and laugh.
Nguyen Ha is not clear about the relationship of her brothers, but guessing can also understand a bit. Bao Hieu grabbed her sister's skirt, pouted her lips, and told her that she had been bullied, so pitifully made the two brides laugh and poked a few more sentences. Bao Hieu wanted to cry on his face, hated his two sisters, and ran to his friends to tell him.
Just ran down to see in the distance, Dinh Tu is very romantic but with Cat Vy sitting across from each other talking about something looks very happy. Bao Hieu stood leaning against a tree looking at the two of them, only smiling and shaking his head:
"Has Tu started to attack?" I don't know where Bang Du came from, still holding a suspicious box in his hand. He also leaned back against the tree and looked to the other side.
Bao Hieu nodded: "It's been ten years anyway."
"Have you liked it for so long?" Nguyen Ha didn't know when he always ran over, he looked at his two brothers and asked: "But does Vy like brother Tu?"
Both of them just shrugged and shook their heads. It's not new that Dinh Tu likes Cat Vy, but only the four of them know. Liked for a long time, since elementary school, when children were new to each other, Bang Du remembers that he only had Canh Yen next to his twin sister Cat Vy as a friend. Dinh Tu played with them until the end of first grade, and why, I don't remember.
When children liked each other, it was just a simple emotion, but some people are very stubborn with that feeling, for example, this Dinh Tu. I don't remember when he said he liked Cat Vy, it seems to be in 9th grade. But if he likes it, he likes it, Dinh Tu doesn't dare to say it, afraid, afraid that he won't be able to be friends after saying it. This love does not dare to show, only dares to show some gentle caring actions from time to time, sincere questions.
Dinh Tu is very loyal, just like his mother. His father died when his mother was less than three months pregnant with him, but she has been single until now, never thinking about remarrying or talking about love with anyone. Her love is only for her late husband, and this only son.
Canh Yen knew, so he supported them.
But going nowhere. Cat Vy is open-minded, Dinh Tu is a bit shy with love stories. So a long time passed, nothing happened.
That's why the three friends always have to sigh for the brother.
Nguyen Ha looked at the other two for a while, then looked at her brother, seeing him holding a small bag, looking in, there were some pretty cookies from nowhere. Squinting at him, he was not afraid to say:
"Who are you buying bread for again?"
Bang Du was not afraid to answer: "My brother-in-law."
"Ah... my father, my second brother has a lover..." Nguyen Ha ran while shouting and making everyone laugh at him. Bang Du narrowed his eyes at his brother but did not comment or disagree with this act of hate. He only pointed out a few small words to Bao Hieu:
"I see, the other three are very good, give it a try."
Bao Hieu was disgusted and slapped him: "Add you again." Saying that he also turned his head to look at the other three once, the three of them went in three different directions talking to all kinds of people, but of course, he didn't ignore his other eyes, they shared a genuine smile from the grass. heart to respond.
Suddenly feeling chilled, Bao Hieu shivered and began to feel bewildered about his dark future.
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Quickly running back, Dong Khanh looked at his watch and narrowed his eyes. He attended Bao Hieu's wedding today but left very quickly, also because it was quite annoying there, he felt worried about him. Canh Yen was just hanging around the house recently, he said to take him somewhere far away so he could go for a walk without fear of anyone noticing, but he didn't want to.
Perhaps, fear of being too familiar.
He didn't know why he was avoiding him, he tried searching but couldn't find an answer. Maybe it's because you can't accept strangers like him, it's okay, he'll become an acquaintance. Or are you afraid, afraid of a certain scenario like the 9 o'clock movies on TV that you watch every day?
He didn't know, but he saw, you didn't want to be familiar with him. He created a cocoon for himself and then crawled into it, not daring to face it. There is fear, there is nostalgia.
Dong Khanh tried to ask why, Dinh Tu looked at him and answered, because he had been hurt, very badly. In the past, there was a student who secretly loved her classmate, devoted her heart and soul to love, but her friend liked a bad guy, in the end, she took away her right to live.
Bao Hieu said: "At that time, he was very shocked, he almost come and kill that guy."
The other girl committed suicide partly because of the other guy, partly because the pressure of life was too heavy. But the unacceptably inexperienced teenager was mad, in pain, then scared. Some people are betrayed by their lover and begin to fear love, but some people just see the person they love getting hurt, but they can't do it because they are also seriously hurt.
Canh Yen is afraid, afraid that he will fall in love like the other person, blink and disappear again. Fear of feeling lonely and helpless.
Stopping the car in front of his house, he looked inside the house, Canh Yen was sitting under a tree reading a book about newborn babies, her eyes were a bit dull, there was a small towel on her stomach. He was suddenly startled, looking outside the gate, his eyes were both happy and expectant...