Haru's P.O.V
I don't know how many times I tried to talk to him.I don't how many times I feel that my knees are trembling because of nervous...?
I just want to talk to him but my body actions make me confuse.Make me go in trouble because of that freaking question in my mind.I want to know his name but I don't how.
I want to ask to Yuzuru but she may give it a meaning on it.Since that day happen,Yuzuru stop playing guitar in front of me and it's been one week.I don't if I will explain to Yuzuru or not.
Yuzuru may think that she's my friend but it for me...she's not fully my friend.I have a lot of trust issues that's why.
Someone knock at my door without saying.I know who is it...it was Oneechan because she knows that I will not open the door if she will say something.
"What do you want?"I ask her without standing and opening the door.
"Ahmm...can we talk?"she ask making me notice that her voice is trembling.
I sighed...I don't know what I will do with her.She seems want to talk to me.Should I give her a chance to talk to me?Or...should I ignore her without caring about his feelings?
I heard that my phone ring so loud making me look who's calling.It was Yuzuru...should I answer her call?
["Good evening,Haru-chan."]
I answer her call because one thing cross in my mind.I need to know what his name...that red hair boy.
["Uhmmm...Har--Yow!Yuzuru,good evening."]
Someone greet her...someone voice that was familiar to me.It was that red hair boy...?
["I'm talking to som--Who?"]
He sure sound like a bastard.He may look cute,hot and handsome but his voice is different.It was big and manly and send a shiver to my spine.
["It's someone who is important th--It was just Haru-chan?Who's that?It was that blue eyed boy?"]
I can feel the heat in my face all of sudden.I don't why my knees is trembling when I hearing his voice.
["I'm busy,Yuki come ag--Haruka,can I talk to Yuzuru for a minute?"]
H-he's talking me.I don't why but I dropped the pen in the floor.I immediately get it when I realized it.
["Haru-chan,seems scared t--Haruka,I don't bite people,I'm not a dog."]
I feel that smile written in my lips all of sudden.His voice may sound like a cocky person but he is kind.These past two weeks,I saw him how he help some of our classmates when they having a big or small problem.
No wonder there's a lot of girls having crush on him but...someone already taken his heart.It was Anko...one of our classmate.
["Look,Haru-chan is not responding because of your ugly voi--My voice is ugly but I'm handsome."]
I giggle because of what Yuki sai--wait...Yuki?Is that his name?So,that's means he's the one that Yuzuru's talking everytime were having a talk...?
["Haru...are you still there?"]
I want to answer to his question but something stuck in my throat that's why I can't draw any sound just to make it a respond to him.
["Don't be scared to me,Haru.Yuzuru went to her parent's room...so,I will be the one who's gonna talk to you."]
The trembling of my knees become double than usual.I cam feel sweating because I don't know how to respond to what he's saying to me.
["Haru...are you still there?"]
"Y-yeah...."I tried to respond in normal so that he will not notice that I'm trembling right now.
["I thought that you're sleeping that's why you didn't respond to us."]
"I'm d-doing something important,that's why."I answer while wiping the sweats in my forehead.
["You seems so nervous.Did I do something to you that's why you're nervous?"]
I can feel a concern in his tone but...I don't what answer I will respond to him.I can feel that my lips are trembling and my knees.I can feel the sweat in my whole face.And the loud beat of my heart.
"N-nothing...I just remember something."I'm trying to keep my tone in calm.
["You know...Haru,when I first time that I met was in front of a convenience.You may look fine outside but your eyes telling that you're not fine inside.You was trying to keep forward so that you can see what life is.You was trying to keep forward because you're holding something...something you can't lose even your inside will be broken."]
I can feel the heat in the sides of my eyes.I can feel that my lips trembling too much.I'm crying without making any sound.I don't want to get hurt but getting hurt is inevitable.
["Your name is too beautiful for you...but it doesn't reflect what happen to you...that's what you think,right?You're thinking that your name never reflect to you personality and attitude.That your name is for the person who feel happy."]
You're right...Yuki...sometimes I'm thinking to change my name...a name who will suit to me.The name who will reflect who I'm.But...making that kind of decisiok will hurt my Hahaoya.I don't want her to get hurt because of just freaking name.
["You know...Haru...you look like a girl when I saw in first fay of school even in the convience.I never thought that you're boy.You look like your Mom.Your Mom look happy outside but deep inside she's broke like you.She just keeping her smile to her lips so that you will not worried about her."]
I know..I know it all...
["My name is Kamado Yuki.It's nice to meet you..."]
One word...shiver.