Wearing the school uniform while looking myself from the mirror.My face is so cold...it's expressionless.
Today is the day that I need to start my new life from another school again.I've been transfeering every month because every school I attended I always feel pain.
Going home with a wet uniform and bag even my stuff are all wet.They bullying me because of my coldness to them.They called me arrogant because of my attitude to them.
"Are you ready,Haru?"Hahaoya ask me while looking me toe to head.
"Yeah..."I answer.
I don't want Hahaoya feel that I'm not the Haru they know.I don't want them to feel that I'm totally changed.I don't want to be rude at them but... the truth change me.
We go down and my Oneechan caught my blue eyes.She's sitting while typing something in her laptop and sipping coffee.
"Good morning,Haru."Otousan greet me with a wide smile in his lips.
I don't greet him back.I totally lose my control when I saw my Oneechan.It's something that I don't want to remember again.It's something that can hurt me many times.It's something that 'cause me to act like this.
Eating breakfast meal with a silent and awkward surrounding.They don't want to talk even they want because they know my attitude...as of now.
"Let's go,Haru."Hahaoya called me.
I'm ready to step my foot but something stop me...something that I want to laugh.Something I feel so disgust.
"Haru..."Oneechan called my name.
I look back at her.She gulped nervously.I know she wants to talk to me but...I don't give a damn thing that she wants.
"Don't call me like that again...saying that you're the victim.That you are innocent.That you are kind.That you are sympathy me...even you don't."I said in a cold tone giving her a cold stone.
"Let me ex--."I cut her words.
"For what?For everything you do because you care and love me.That you don't want me to experience pain.That you don't want to see me crying.Those are lies...those are lies that you can't cover."
I want to end this conversation before I cry again in front of her.One of the person that I don't want to see.I don't want to see her...I don't want.
"So...don't talk to me again and don't come near to me again or else...I will do anything just to not see you again."I threaten her before leaving her standing dumbfounded.
I ride in passenger seat.Hahaoya was on the shotgun seat...she knows that I don't want her to sit beside of me.Because I just want to be alone and lonely to feel the pain.
We already reached the school that I'm gonna attend this school year.The school that I need to gamble if my new life will start or not.
It's already spring...I can see how cherry blossoms bloom.They way it bloom...it's so beautiful in my eyes.But...I can feel pain in my heart while looking at the cherry blossoms.
"Haru...let's go."
I came back to reality when my Hahaoya called me.Just follow them.Some students were looking at me.
"Is a girl or boy?"
"He looks like a girl."
Another mistake about my gender.I look like a girl because my bangs almost covering my eyes.My face is thin like others girls face.I have a thick eyelashes and thin eyebrows.I have red and thin lips that make me look like a girl.
"Good morning,Oniichan,Oneechan and Haru."Aunt greet us when she saw us in front of her office.
"Good morning,Hinata."Hahaoya and Otousan greet her.
"Good morning,Obaasan."I greet her controlling the coldness of my tone.
We silently followed Obaasan.Some students greet her while running because it's already time for class.The bell ring so loud indicating that class already starting.
Obaasan open the door of the Class 1-C classroom.I don't expect that I will be in the class A.I have good grades but sometimes I don't want to participate.For me...it just a waste of time to say my opinion and in the end they will not consider as correct.
So...Class C is just perfect to me.Nothing more,nothing less.The students stand up and greet Obaasan.
"Good morning,Class 1-C.You have new classmate,he's a transferee."Obaasan announce and she gesture us to go inside.
I go inside of the classroom.And I saw their faces while they looking at me.I bet it's about my gender.Even my teacher look confuse while looking at my face.
"I'm Yoshida Haruka...just call me Haru."I introduce myself having a cold tone.
I don't remove my sight to them.I want to know what they think about me just by looking at their reaction in their faces.
"He's a boy,don't be mistaken."Obaasan said while pointing my face.
But...I feel my world stop when I saw again those black eyes that has a lot emotions and saying something to me.
A boy with a mess red hair.He has white skin.His hair is almost curly.He has pouty,red and thin lips.He look so manly because of his Adam's apple.
"Hello,Haru-chan."a girl with pink hair greet me when I sit on the chair who is next to her.
"Hello."I tried to become cheerful as I greet her.
"Oh my!I forgot to introduce myself.My name is Aiza Yuzuru.Just call me Yuzu."she cheerfully introduce herself.
I accept her shake hands.But that boy with red hair looking at me right now.
"Wow!Your skin is so white.It's white as snow."
Mouth can lie but eyes can't lie.People can believe in mouth than to the person's eyes.