Haru's P.O.V
I don't know how many times I look on the surroundings.This school that I will attend in the start of the class is so fantasizing.For me,this place is my comfort and I can relax here even I need to go every classes.
My eyes were fantasizing the place.There's so many cherry blossom everywhere.And there's so many green grass but it's clean and I think you can take a nap in a clean green grass with a peaceful surroundings.
There's so many tall trees.Oak benches and tables can be seen by everyone.The school has 3 buildings that has only three floors.The first building is for the freshmen,the second is for the second year and the third is for the third year.
I look at my auntie who is the Principal.She's smiling looking her charming to the person's eyes.
"How are you,Haru?"she ask while maintaining the charming smile on his lips.
"I'm fine,aunt."I said in lifeless tone.
She just nod and she look at me direct in my eyes.Auntie looks like my Otousan.But my Otousan older one year than her.
"Haru will transfer here,Hinata because I know you will take him while he's here."my Hahaoya said while smiling that's its not written in his face.
"Well,I can assure that.I will take care Haru even I have a lot to do.I can't let him to feel pain again because of this school."she said while gesturing her hands.
"This are the papers that you need for transferee,right?"Hahaoya ask while giving the papers that is requirement for my transferee.
"Yeah,we will process immediately for the transferee of Haru."
"Thank you."Hahaoya said in thankful tone.
Walking in the street distancing my self from my Hahaoya.I don't want to be near of her because I don't want her to feel pain while with me.
The sun already setting down and the air...I can feel it.Feeling the cold air,tasting the pain and suffering,seeing the past with my blue eyes,hearing how I cry in the past and touching my heart who become stone because of my past...that's my hobby.
Lingering his touch up until now.Hearing how he laughs while looking at me.Seeing how he look at me with a glimpse of happiness in his eyes.Tasting his sweet but passionate lips.That's how I reminiscing my past even until now because I know someday that they will appear in my sight.
They said to overcome my past but...how can I do that if they still here in my mind and heart?How can I do that if I treasure them up until now?How can I do if I'm still suffering?
Sometimes it's easy to say bjt hard to do.Sometimes it's better to be alone than having a friends who can hurt you anytime that you don't know.Sometimes it's to reminiscing the past than force yourself to move on...because no matter what...mouth can lie.
"What do you want,Haru?"Hahaoya ask me while looking at me having a genuine smile but she can't hide the pain in her eyes.
"Pudding."I answer in cold while pointing it.
"Your still favorite this,huh?"she ask while looking the pudding she get.
Yeah...since kid that was my favorite food.I love pudding because it's my comfort food when I'm feeling pain and suffering.Loving the way I watching Television while eating a lot of pudding...with them.
"This food it has a lot of memories for you.But...do you think they still think you,Haru?"Hahaoya ask in pain tone.
I know she's feeling pain because she can't take looking at me.My current state is very hurtful even my family can't take it.
I know they want to avoid me from the pain,suffering and despair.But...they can't avoid it because loving someone there's a consequence...it's pain.
Pain and love are twins.Suffering and despair is just an option.Loving someone is natural.But...feeling and tasting too much pain is someone who can't overcome even he/she can't bear it.
They let me slip by their hands and I let them slip by my hands too.But...our memories will still here in my mind and my feelings for them is still here my heart even it become stone.
"Hahaoya,I let them slip by my hands the way they do it to me.But...my mind is not a memory card that has a delete button.Then,how can I forget them?"I ask her back while looking innocent.
"I'm afraid...Haru.I'm afraid..."Hahaoya state her feelings while letting her tears come out in her blue eyes.
"I'm afraid that what happen to you will let you afraid for everything...even loving someone.Caring someone,hearing someone's opinion,treasuring someone and having friend.I'm afraid that it will happen someday that we don't know."
She's crying like a child right now.I want him to comfort her but...how?I can't even let my self feel comfort.Eating pudding and watching while sitting to the balcony is my comfort.
"I'm not afraid from anything or some things that I can't expect.I'm afraid that I will love someone who...can't love me back."I state while looking in the stars.
I look again in the street and something caught to my eyes.Something that I can read even I don't see it clearly.Something that can tell me something.
Black eyes...Those black eyes are telling me something.Something that I can't understand.
He look at me direct to my eyes.It's like the world is stop when he look back to me.He look so happy.He feel so happy.But...I can't name it.I can't name it.
"Eyes can't lie,huh?"I ask myself in air.