the next morning I woke up. I was beside Christian and stunned to see him by my side. I got panicked. what was he doing here? why am I with him in one bed? what happened to me. Thousands of such questions surrounded me. as I was a bit drunk last night I couldn't remember anything. I started waking Christian up. He woke up. I asked him what happened last night between us. He got out of bed without saying anything and started wearing his shirt. I asked him the same question again. He left the room without any response. how can he ignore me like this? we were in the same bed last night and now he's ignoring me? what kind of attitude is this. do I not matter for him? but at least he should explain to me what happened. ugh! he's so annoying but at the same time, I was thinking he was looking cute while sleeping. well, not thinking much I also got up, put on my clothes and went downstairs. He was in the kitchen, cooking something. I freshened up and asked him why he wasn't answering me. He asked me if it was very necessary to give me the answer. I got angrier after hearing it. What does this mean? what kinda reply is this? why is he like a damn bastard? When I was abusing him in my mind he suddenly asked me, " you were with me for the whole night in one bed being like this and now you are asking me what happened last night. are you a goat?" So we did things yesterday that shouldn't be done? Why did you do this to me? you took advantage of me! I got more furious But then I had nothing to do. On the one hand, Avet did that to me and now all this. I was disappointed in myself. Things were feeling so messed up. I broke the promise I made with my mom. I'm so worst. I realized it was me who permitted him In this aspect. abruptly he said to me, " no need to be disheartened. be my girl there will be no worry." who wants to be his girl? he's a pervert. I shut the door on his face and left immediately then. he said nothing or didn't even stop me. I went home called Asami and Rook, told them everything.
" wait, what? did you sleep with Christian? are you serious?" they weren't believing at first but at last, they were forced to believe in. " I guess Christian likes you that's why he did all that. he also proposed you indirectly," said Rook. Asami," yeah I also think so. he must-have followed you and this is how he knows everything." how can he like me? he was behaving like a pervert and also he was ignoring me the whole time. " but he helped you too right? if he wasn't their avet must have done something wrong with you," Rook. how did he help me? he took advantage. I guess it was all his trap. "you can't say anything without knowing the truth," Asami. whatever let's leave him on his own. I don't want to think anything about him. now I'll only focus on my study and nothing more. though I said I'll not focus on him but still I was thinking of him. I was thinking about all the stuff that happened between us. all of sudden I realized as he said he made me forget about avet. I didn't even mention him once and didn't also get upset thinking of him. what is this! After much trouble, I stopped thinking about these things and fell asleep. the next day we went to college and were doing everything normally the way we always do. I saw avet there and ignored him but after a while, he came to me and asked me where was I that day and he was looking for me. Of course, a disgusting boy has to be reprimanded with disgusting behaviour so I aggressively replied to him that he and I are over. he couldn't get it at first but later he realized that yes I've known the whole truth. he was still acting innocent but then as he has no other way he backed off but there was another kind of expression in his eyes. later on, I ignored it. my study was going great also I joined a singing club as I love singing a lot. I also have many other hobbies like painting, writing, dancing and so on.
I was spending my day in the normal way but I couldn't stop my mind from thinking about Christian. it was like he's s locked into my mind. I was always thinking about what happened between him and me. I was kinda missing him. I wanted to stop it but the more I was trying to neglect it the more it got deeper. well, there was going held a college anniversary so why Students from all the departments were preparing to present various types of displays. from our department, we choose to present a singing display and according to the plan we were practising as it was a great event and we'll have to do our best. Every year many big dignitaries are invited to this event so this is an important event for the college. everything was going all right but then I heard that Christian was also invited here as it was so important and I was leading our department I had no choice rather than join it. we were practising very well and every one of us was very excited about this event. everyone was preparing like their own and showing their creativity. I thought there will be a lot of people and busy stuff for Christian to do so he won't be able to focus on me. though I should be happy thinking it, I was desperate somewhere but ignoring my feeling I was going with the flow. The girls here were so excited to see him but I don't get what is here to be excited about? he's not so good as they are thinking. on the day of the event same as before, they started doing makeup for him. They started preparing themselves beautifully to impress him. Christian was admired as the most eligible bachelor here so as obvious girls were crazy about him. people here were preparing themselves backstage. the auditorium here was greatly decorated. the guests, parents and students everyone came as they were invited but there were also so many outsiders. I was preparing also along with others then the event starts. Christian came at the last. when he entered everyone was looking at him as if he's a Crown Prince especially the girls there. they were taking pictures of him as before and were doing the same again. I agree he was looking handsome but this is not something that will make me fall for him. I was looking at him even on the condition of thinking these things. he was looking hot and so as seductive. I lost control of myself as before and was staring at him. I don't know why I feel like that when I see him. he's the man of all your desire. any woman will want him so as I if he was a bit of well mannered. whatever! I started doing my business again by controlling myself. he should not matter to me. so after that, all the programme there begins. students there performed their performances. people there really enjoyed the whole show. our performance also went well. everyone was praising me for such a good song. I was so happy. Rook told me I was excellent. " I think you can be a professional singer if you wish to be," Asami. awww you guys are too sweet. they inspire me a lot. after the performance I was backstage then and suddenly Christian came here. what is he doing here? I asked him. he replied," why? am I not allowed to be here?" " yes, obviously you are not! get fucking out of here," I aggressively replied to him. the headteacher was with him standing out of the door and I didn't notice. he heard what I said and told me scolding that," what kind of behaviour is this? are you out of your mind? what kind of ill word you've said? I thought you were a good student." aaa what have I done? how am I gonna fix this mess? he was about to restrict me. abruptly Christian came to me and told me that he can save me from this mess if I agree with everything he says. as there was no choice left for me I agreed with him. then he went to the headteacher. " this is very normal for me you don't need to be so furious," he said to the headteacher. " how is this normal to you? how she can behave with you like this? she needs to be punished for what she did," headteacher. " no, it is normal to me as I'm familiar with her. she's my girlfriend," Christian. I was shocked. what did he say just? is he stupid? headteacher," oh, I'm sorry to interfere with you both then but Edisha you should not talk this much aggressively with your boyfriend." " This is so usual for us. we always talk in this way, "Christian. I was so embarrassed. how can he do this? what is the headteacher thinking about me? I am stuck in one problem after another. after the headteacher left he looked at me smiling a little and then he also left the place. two students with me saw the whole drama and now they went to tell the whole college about it. I was so trapped.