I pushed him away and looked at him. this shouldn't be done like this. this isn't right. I felt remorse for my work. He is looking at me with a strange look also it was a little scary. I was breathing heavily. my heart is in my mouth. I don't know how to explain or how to react. the rate of my beats is increasing. I was so nervous. this is so awkward. I'm looking into his eyes straightaway without blinking them. he was also doing the same. holy crap- what have I done? what am I gonna do now? it was like my brain stopped working. I was the one who wanted to be kissed. how can I think of him like this? why is this so weird. embarrassing! maybe the most embarrassing situation in my whole damn life. He was looking at me saying nothing. it was getting more and more awkward. say something Christian. say! so that I can think about how can I reply to you. he wasn't doing anything but staring at me. after a while, he stood up. Why is he not saying anything? Why he has no response? What's going on? What's the matter? I was so confused. I don't even get this much confusion in my math test. as expected he didn't say anything and got into the car. Zoey was standing in front of it waiting for me, I also went in with nervous signs. Christian wasn't even looking at me. he was doing something on his phone. it was like his all attention was captured by the phone. maybe he's angry for what I just did and ignoring me. I was feeling sorry for what I did. maybe I shouldn't have behaved like this.
the car starts and I'm on my guilt. Christian is still into his phone, maybe texting someone. who is he texting? maybe someone from work. I don't know why but somehow I was curious to know who was the person. but I'm unable, I have no right to ask him who is he texting. especially in this situation. after a while I manage to say sorry and was about to do it but then I notice he was smiling at his phone. why is he smiling? maybe for the person he's texting with. I didn't say anything but I was feeling irritated. what makes him smiling like this? I guess he's talking with some girl. how can he do this when he's with me. I was being furious but then I realized maybe I'm someone who's at fault. I made him like this. this is how I was talking with myself for the whole time, yelling at myself and then we reached the party, the car stops. he went out first his expressions are still the same, so cold! If there holds any competition to have a sullen face, I think he will definitely win. such a problematic person is also so much puzzled. although he's angry with me when I was coming out he gradually hold my hand and helped me. it seems he cares about me. it is cute. he is cute but still, his face is the same. he's a dark horse with coldness inside. Some journalists were standing there taking pictures, they started taking pictures of us when we arrived. I've butterflies in my tummy, this is maybe the first time I'm being photographed like this. suddenly Christian holds my hand gently, he seems to understand my situation. After standing there for a while he led me inside. he's still a gentleman even when he's angry. When I went inside, I saw a huge hall and many people were standing there in lavish clothes. they were looking so fancy. even the waiters there were also looking expensive. For so few people, such a big place has become a little more luxurious, right? nevertheless, there is nothing mine so I shouldn't care. I started minding my own business. suddenly a girl from nowhere appeared near to us and hugged Christian. what the hell, Christian also hugged her back tightly. the girl was looking very beautiful and also hot, her appearance is like glitters. but why is she hugging Christian like this when his girlfriend is in front. on the other hand, this bastard is also doing the same. No one seems to think that I am here. my blood flow is increasing. I started getting furious but somehow I controlled myself. though I'm not his that girlfriend- girlfriend so I should regulate myself. the girl said to Christian, "I missed you, finally, we are together" Christian, " yeah, I missed you too." these so-called affectionate lines made me more furious, ah! edisha maybe today you are going to explode. what do they mean by they are together? what the hell is going on. Christian, " I never thought you would come today and meet me like this" that girl, " same here, I also never imagined, it was a sudden plan. I wanted to surprise you" I don't know why their relationship seems a little deeper. Who is this girl? isn't she seeing I'm standing here? after that, the girl stands next to Christian holding his hand tightly and Christian's hand is also in her waist. what a lovely scene! oh god, I can't stand it anymore. the girl was smiling looking at Christian so as he then she noticed me and asked Christian, " who is she? do I know her? " Christian, " she is Edisha, I've already told you about her did you forget?" " Ohh, she's the one?" Christian," yes! Edisha she is Cassandra, Cassandra Monroe my best friend, she's someone I grew up with but then she went abroad to study and now she's back again, giving me a marvellous surprise."
Cassandra," I know you love surprises so it was just obvious. anyway nice to meet you Edisha!" nice to meet you too! then she started drinking with Christian and they were chatting. Christian was ignoring me like I'm not even present here. if your intention was about to ignore me then why'd you led me here? and that girl Cassandra, she's behaving like his girlfriend as if I'm a stranger. I want to divide that girl into two. Christian is my boyfriend no other girl is allowed to talk with him. i don't know how i was feeling jealous and the more they were being close the more i was furious. but Christian said to Cassandra that he have already told her about me, what did he say about me? as Christian already mentioned me to her she should have known that im his girlfriend. why she still behaving like a bitch? i started drinking with myself cursing Cassandra. suddenly another woman came, Christian and Cassandra both hugged him. Christian introduced her to me, she's Christians mother. i greeted her. Christian said her i was his girlfriend. ah finally he remembers that I'm his girlfriend. then Christian and his mother introduced me with his father. Christian is their only son. we talked for sometime. after a while There was music playing, some of the people started dancing with it. Christian was talking with somone. i was standing with his mother. then Christian started coming towards us. i think he's about to ask me to dance with him. i felt a little happy. but Christian passed us and asked Cassandra to dance with him, she was standing behind me. i don't know how can Christian do this. how can he ask for dance to another girl when his girlfriend around. Christian took Cassandra's hand and led her to the stage. he's looking at her gently. he never looks at me in this way. he always behaves rough with me and now see how he's treating Cassandra. I'm feeling like a trash left by him. Christian starts dancing with Cassandra. both of them looking at each others eyes. they are looking like a couple so in love. Christian is holding Cassandra's waist. why are they doing this? why Christian is doing this? it is breaking me hard. i want to cry.