I woke up with Roy lying next to me, his perfect handsome face sleeping peacefully. I stared at his perfect face wishing in my heart,if time would just stand still and things would all go well with us.
Not for the first time, I said my silent prayers,"Dear God, please help us stay together. I already consider him my husband and have vowed to love him till death to us part in front of you and him. Please, help Lord". A tear fell down my eyes.
My mind knew I got it all wrong but my heart had already taken him as my husband. They say,'love is blind', and I can second to that. It truly turns a blind eye to all the hurts that you've gone through,just for momentary pleasures like I was having right now, in his arms.
"Good morning Wifey", Roy whispered into my ears and on seeing my eyes wet with tears, he kissed them away. "That good huh", he joked,"Issy, I love you. I do, but you have to give me my space. The things I do on social media is just that,fooling around. You are the one I love", he reassured me on seeing my sad expression.
"Roy, I love you,so very much it hurts. I just wish you understood my feelings with regards to your behavior in social media..",I tried to reason.
"Issy,lets not go back there k?",he simply replied and I knew the conversation was over. He hugged me and checked the time,4:00am, which was cue for me to freshen up and get dressed as well,to head back to the campus and be there in my room before anyone noticed my absence the night before.
He dropped me to my dorms and reminded me to take the morning after pills. It was always my responsibility to take care of those matters because he just didn't like wearing condoms. I nodded and went off to my room. Luckily, no one was awake, so I quietly headed to my room.
I checked my phone to find five missed calls, all from my project partner Zeke. I quickly typed in a message to him," Sorry Zeke, I had my assignments and an early night and kept my phone in silent mode. Anything wrong?". I maintained the lie which I had told Gabby and Aurora.
I only wondered if Gabby and Aurora believed me,but they had their own assignments and quizes to appear so I assumed they bought it. I did not expect Zeke to reply back, but a ping from my phone indicated an incoming message from Zeke. Curious, I opened the message, wondering how on earth he was still awake,considering the calls he made last night were all timed around 12:30am.
"Issy, I have almost done my part of the project and we need to meet up soon before our presentation the day after tomorrow". I was momentarily shocked as I had completely forgotten about the presentation we were supposed to give on Thursday, and I hadn't even started with my part of the project.
"Umm,about that," I texted back,"Can we meet up today after class?". I quickly opened my laptop and browsed the materials that I had downloaded for the project. I got his reply quick enough ,"Sure. lets do that".
Around 8 am, Gabby and Aurora came to my room with breakfast and they both gaped at me as though they had seen a Zombie in my room. My hair was all messed up, and books were all over my table and my bed and I was furiously typing in to my laptop to prepare the presentation.
"Issy, did you pull an all nighter? We thought you were just making up excuses to be alone for sometime and seriously ponder about your life and make the best decision to dump Roy",Gabby, ever so straight forward and not hiding her dislike for Roy, told me.
At that, Aurora started laughing,out loud, and added," Yeah right,like that would happen. No matter how much we advice her, she would still go running into his arms once he wants her back". It hurt,but what she said was the truth, and I had only myself to blame.
These two girls were only voicing out the obvious truth cause they cared for me,but I couldn't bring myself to have the courage to accept the truth. It just was too painful and the fear of the unknown future,of what would happen if he left me, my self doubts, just kept on letting me crawl back to my only known place, Roy. It was as if he had become my whole life ,my whole reason for survival.
"I love you too guys," I brushed them off. It was always better to brush them off rather than making them understand what I couldn't even comprehend."I completely forgot about my project with Zeke for Mr. Harrison's class", I told them."I had to pull an all nighter to complete my project", I lied,it was a half lie anyways and I had already lied to them about last night so it didn't prick my conscience,much.
"Ok now, wrap it up and lets have breakfast", Aurora told them both. I was almost done with my works, so I gathered the books and made room for the three of us.
"So, I hear you and Mark are together huh", I nudged at Gabby while having the pancakes they had brought over. "We aren't together, we just went out on a date. Gosh, the rumour mill here sure does run quite fast huh", she replied.
"A date in one of the most romantic spots at that", Aurora retorted back,"and a whole bunch of 21 roses for all 21 years of her life. If that's not the most romantic thing any guy has ever done, I don't know what is".
Gabby blushed furiously at that."I guess he is cute and it was a nice gesture. He is a real sweet man",she said. "Awwww..", Aurora and I both joined in to tease her. We laughed our hearts out and ended our breakfast date, and hurried off to get dressed and run off to attend our classes.