I hurried to my room and quickly logged into my facebook to search for Alyssa's profile. There she was, her unmistakable red head and her distinct features.
I felt like someone stabbed my heart with a knife and was piercing it to torture me. I took out my phone and dialled Roy's number.
"Hello, who is it?",a croaky female voice answered the phone. She seemed to have been woken up by the call.
I was shocked and checked my phone screen to make sure I had dialled the right number,which undoubtedly was Roy's own private number, the number he only gave out to his family and me,at least that's what he had said to me.
"Is Roy there with you? Please tell him Issy needs to talk with him",I asked,praying and hoping that I was wrong,but to my utter disappointment, I heard her say,"Roy babe, some Issy wants to talk to you".
I could feel her eye roll with how she took my name as "Some Issy". "Issy?",I heard him call my name,but that was all the confirmation I needed. I hung up the call before he had a chance to make up more lies.
"Enough is enough",I thought. I blocked all his numbers from my phone and blocked him on all my social media accounts. I wasn't going to be his bedsheet anymore.
I cried out till no tears seem to fall from my eyes. I felt cheap and used and pathetic. No words could describe how humiliated I felt.
I had always prided myself on being a strong woman,but just a year and a half of being with Roy had destroyed all my confidence and my self esteem.
Roy would always be my first love,my first boyfriend,the first guy I had given myself to and the first guy to cheat on me and break my heart into a thousand pieces.
Gabby and Aurora came to my room as though sensing I needed them. Bless those girls, they always knew whenever I needed them,but tonight, I didn't have the strength to listen to their, "Roy is such a jerk", or "You'll do much better without him. There are plenty of good men out there who'll love you like you so deserve".
All I needed was my alone time to process everything, so though they knocked on my door and urged me to open the door, I told them that I was fine and would meet them tomorrow. They gave up trying and left me alone to nurse my broken heart,just as I wanted them to.
When someone cheats on you, you try to look back and somehow even blame yourself thinking you weren't good enough or you didn't do enough to keep him committed.
I was doing just that and blamed myself for not being with him and out with Zeke,but who was I kidding. They probably had been dating even before publically updating their relationship status on facebook. Come to think of it, I was the one who looked like the mistress trying to be the home wrecker.
"No more crying over you Roy", I muttered between my sobs and hiccups, and deleted every single picture of us together. He never gave me anything much, so the handful of souvenirs he gave me, I took them out and dumped them into the dumpster.
But nothing I did was easing me from the pain I felt,or the hurt I was going through. A ping sounded and I saw Zeke's message, "I had a really good time today with you Issy. If you haven't been reminded lately of how beautiful,smart and a good and kind person you are, consider yourself reminded", he wrote, alongside a blush and smile emoji.
I thanked Zeke for his kind words and I meant it cause that was just the reminder that I needed now, to help me go through this difficult time.
Just as I was about to toss away the phone, I saw my notification which showed that one of my blocked contacts had tried to call me. I laughed out bitterly thinking, what act Roy was trying to pull, and without a second glance, I left the phone and went ahead with journalling my feelings,which had always been my only source of true solace.