I rushed off to the cafe to meet Roy before he changed his mind as I knew how fickle minded he was and had to brace myself to confront with him cause God knew he would blame me for not taking precautions. But I had to let him know. "Issy, what is so urgent and important that you could not tell it to me over the phone? Or is this just an excuse for you to beg me to get back together", he said smugly. I snorted out,"Dream on Roy. The only reason why I wanted to meet up with you was because I needed to tell you that I'm pregnant,and you need to be aware of that".
He stood there dumbstruck,without any reaction. I feared that he didn't hear me well enough, so I repeated, "Roy, I'm pregnant with your child. I know you expected me to take the morning after pill, but I had my project submission and things happened,I forgot to take the pills. I took the pregnancy test, and all six kits came out positive." On seeing him still unresponsive to whatever I said, I assumed he went into some sort of shock, so I gave him time to process the information.
After what seemed like an eternity, he looked at me and told me,"Issy, I'm sorry but you need to abort it." I had pretty much expected him to say that but to actually hear him say that, broke my heart. "I'm not ready to be a father", he simply said and walked away. I stood there, knowing so well that it was all up for me to decide now whether the fetus in my womb got to see this world or not.
I was messed up and I didn't know who to turn to. I badly needed to talk to someone and just let it all out, but I had to keep up the facade of me being the 'good girl'. The so called 'good girl', who would never have sex before marriage,let alone get pregnant and be dumped and told to abort the baby,by the father. But in the process of maintaining the 'good girl' image, I was crumbling inside.
I was loosing myself bit by bit. I knew Gabby and Aurora would still stand by my side no matter what, but my pride somehow wouldn't allow me to shatter my image in front of my two best friends,after all,that was the only part of me which reminded me of who I was, before I got tangled up with Roy.
"Issy, are you alright?", came the worried voice of Zeke from behind me. Somehow, Zeke always seemed to be there whenever I was going through some not so good moments. "Yeah, I am", I smiled at him, which didn't seem to convince him. "You know, I do seem to know you better than you think I do and this face of yours, isn't exactly your 'doing fine' face", he said, making me smile apologetically at him. "Just some personal stuffs messing my head", I shrugged. "Anything I can help you with? I could just listen while you take some load of your shoulders", he urged.
I looked at him, into his beautiful gray eyes and was contemplating on telling him because he needed to know the truth as well,if I were to work for him, but I just wasn't sure if I could trust him with my dark secret. After much thought, I said, "Zeke, would you still employ me if I told you I was pregnant?"
I looked at his expression, shocked at first,but that lasted only for a few seconds and then back to his regular,kind self. I wondered if he was the type of person who didn't let anything or anyone faze him. He just looked at me and added nonchalantly, "Only if you would still be willing to join my company. You'd still be coding mind boggling programs so I don't care if you were pregnant with a dozen kids".
I was genuinely touched at how much Zeke trusted me and my abilities. "Thank you Zeke, you can't even begin to imagine how much your words mean to me", I told him and a tear fell from my eye. "Ahem, I wasn't fishing for your tears you know. On the contrary, I thought you'd be so happy to give me a big hug", he feigned displeasure and I felt myself smiling up to that. "There now, I hope I've solved half of your life's problems. Did I earn myself a treat now?", he teased me. " Not just any treat but a very big one at that, but first, I'd need my boss to pay me first when I join my new company cause right now, this mommy ain't got much money", I joked with him.
We both laughed and for the first time after I found out about my pregnancy, I found a ray of hope, shining through my very dark abyss and I only had Zeke to thank for.
" Are you my guardian angel Zeke?", I smiled at him,"cause you're always rescuing me from all sorts of my demons." "Something like that", he smiled back at me.