Ace's POV
After that incident, kung saan binago ako ng isang page ng yaoi manga and I became a "Fudanshi", I can't see the world anymore the same way I did before!
Pagkatapos kong mabasa ng buo ang "The Titan's Bride" in just one night, mygahd, hindi ako doon natigil. After ko siyang basahin sa manga, I searched it right away and tried to watch it! My eyes can't unsee it anymore, on how they made it na anime and it was like I was watching something that I never watched before my whole life.
It's giving me the urge of insane excitement na para bang I was looking for more hot scenes! Alam ko sa sarili ko na I'm still straight but I don't know why I'm enjoying seeing two guys doing it with each other!
I even tried to search about being a Fudanshi and other terms na will enlighten me. Like 'yung terms na "Seme" which is the guy that is more dominant and "Uke" which is the submissive one. Then may iba pa like "Yuri" for those GL contents naman. Although Fudanshi and Fujoshi may sound cool, but it's not. It has a bad meaning and I think dahil siguro pag Japanese words dito, sobrang cool na pakinggan but it means a rotten girl or rotten boy.
Dahil I can't control myself now for reading more yaoi manga, I returned to that manga library slash bookstore to check more yaoi manga. Pero this time, I was on a disguise para walang makakakita sa akin. I was wearing a cap with sunglasses kahit na hindi naman maliwanag! Haha!
Nasa yaoi section ako and I feel like I'm in heaven na para bang gusto kong bilhin lahat, but I need to calm down dahil I need to take it slow kahit na para bang sobrang excited ako. So I bought some of the popular ones like Junjuo Romantica, Sick, and many more.
Why is it so hard to be straight and be a Fudanshi at the same time! Hayst!
After ko mabili ang mga yaoi manga, I went back to the dorm as soon as I can and decided to read Junjuo Romantica first and tinago ko ang ibang yaoi manga sa isang cabinet sa room namin na I'm sure na walang gumagalaw and may lock.
After ko itabi ang mga yaoi manga na binili ko sa cabinet, I went straight to my bed holding the Junjuo Romantica and I felt this excitement na I never felt before. While reading through this manga, shoot! May mga explicit scenes na I can't stop my self from imagining things beyond what if this happens in real life, pero hindi sa akin!
I just want to watch, but I don't want to do it myself or with anybody else!
Naiinis ako kasi kinikilig ako and at the same time, I feel like it's giving me this unexplainable happiness inside of me na para bang it's not the norm as of now dito sa Pilipinas but it's so good even though it's bad, in terms of following the norms. How I wish na mas open talaga dito ang contents na ganito because it's so fun or baka ako lang?
Is there someone like me who loves being a Fudanshi? Or better yet, a straight guy like me who is a Fudanshi but I guess bihira lang 'to. Mas marami pa siguro ang Fujoshi more than being a Fudanshi.
Dahil sa kakaisip ko, I tried to check out some of the groups who are straight guys but mga Fudanshi. If there is any, sign me up and ako ang pinakauna sa linya.
While I was trying to check my phone for Fudanshi groups for straight guys like me, biglang bumukas ang pinto ng room namin sa dorm and I forgot to lock the door! Shoot!
"Oh, Ace, andyan ka na pala? Kanina ka pa?" bati sa akin ni Chester while he is sweaty and all dahil sa basketball practice.
"Akala ko mamaya ka pa uuwi, Ace? Sabi mo may pupuntahan ka?" Harry added while pinupunasan niya ang kanyang pawis and hinuhubad niya ang jersey.
Those are my two roommates sa dorm. By the way, Harry and Chester are straight guys, just like me, yes, but they don't know this secret of mine which I've been hiding for a month now. Since I've been a Fudanshi myself, I even shipped the both of them! Haha!
Let's talk about Harry first. I woud say, Harry is the "Uke" guy sa kanila ni Chester. He has this cutesy vibe dahil he's light-skinned, very good looking kahit na may eye glasses siya pero bagay sa kanya. 'Yung katawan niya, slim and he has this "bottom" figure which is by the way one of the stereotypes na kapag slim ka, bottom ka. He also has this plump light pink kissable lips which makes him the best uke. Haha!
Next naman si Chester, which I would say, the Seme. Mayroon siyang tanned skin tone, athletic built, matangkad, good looking, mukhang badboy dahil sa makapal niyang kilay and his piercings, and he has this "Top" aura na para bang he's strong and all and parang perfect fit siya para kay Harry.
As soon as they went in, tinago ko agad ang Junjuo Romantica na manga under my pillow and I went to the C.R. para jumingle.
While I'm doing my business, I suddenly stopped peeing even though it hurts so much na feeling ko mag kaka U.T.I ako, pero ang inisip ko kung na-lock ko ba 'yung cabinet where I'm hiding all the yaoi manga I bought!
"Ace, may tatanong kami ni Harry." sigaw ni Chester.
Shoot! I'm doomed! It's over for me. Parang ayaw ko na lumabas at baka nakita na nila. How will I face them? Mahimatay kaya ako sa harap nila? Magkukunwari na hindi akin 'yun? Or better yet, mag kunwari na baka isa sa kanila ang may-ari?
Huminga ako ng malalim and after I finished my business, I went out of the C.R. and nakatalikod silang dalawa and they are standing in front of the cabinet where I'm hiding my most priced and secret possessions!
Dahan dahan akong naglakad papunta sa kanila and I just freakin saw my cabinet na nakabukas!
My heart is beating so fast na para na siyang nago-overdrive sa bilis and I can even hear the beating so loud na parang may bass! I was sweating so heavily and I can feel this intense emotion na parang gusto kong sumabog.
They were reading something and may tinatawanan sila and when I stood beside them, they looked at me and I'm smiling at them sheepishly and I don't know what to do.
"Ace, sa'yo ba 'to?" tanong ni Harry while he is showing me a page of "The Titan's Bride" kung saan the Titan guy, si brown hulk, is making love with the teenage guy sa isang bed!
Napalunok na lamang ako while Chester and Harry are still looking at me habang nanliliit ang mga mata nila.
"Kaya ba nakalock itong cabinet kasi may tinatago ka dito?" tanong ni Chester while he was showing me another yaoi manga, "Crimson Spell", in front of my face.
"Ano kasi... umm..." I don't know what to say!
"Are you into guys?" Harry asked.
"Are you gay?" Chester added.
End of Chapter 2