i never go out into public or out of my house without some sort of coverup on my head. Its just where i have been with this whole hair loss thing.
My emotions came into my head when i woke up and looked up in the mirror. My hair on my head has been out for months, my eyebrows were shedding and eye lashes were hanging on by just a thread. who is this? who am i? what had cancer done to me?
it was very hard to be there. i am incredibly relieved that my journey has ended and after all the side effects i am healing. There have been plenty of moments during the process that i had felt so low and vulnerable I was not sure i would make it back.
How incredible, how reselient bodies are, my hair is growing. i can't wait! this cancer diagnosis has broken me down in many ways, but only to build me stronger. i am a fighter, a warrior human.
sometimes it feels like a movie i am watching of someone else's life. But, its not, its mine. A challenging part of my beautiful story. I am proud of myself. I have smiled way more than i have
cried. I have had more amazing days than bad.
i had a choice when i was faced with second stage cancer. I could have let it define me, be completely miserable and feel sorry for myself or i could take experience and turn it into a life lesson for myself. Ofcourse i was angry and upset but after i was finished grieving, i feel like i had an awakening. Having learned that, in an instant my whole life drastically changed; I wanted to move forward after cancer with a different outlook on life. I learned first hand that life is a way too short and can be taken away form you anytime. Cancer reminds me everyday to live my life to the fullest, to not sweat the small stuff and to find happiness daily. I am so grateful for my struggle because i truly believe I'm living a beautiful life.