It bothered me a lot now that the pages were empty and I missed the chance of predicting the future within the story.
It terrified me.
Everything terrified me.
This world, these people, this place, their way of living, the system.
Everything.
I just wanted to cry.
Let everything out. Being with aunt Sarah, her comforting me.
Tell anyone what I was going through.
But I couldn't.
They think I'm the Lady Zephyra, the daughter of some grand duke in this Empire. Living her everyday life as a spoiled noble lady.
I was sitting in front of the desk. The desk was pretty big, considering the chairs were petite.
At the top right corner of the desk, there was a pen holder. Three different pen. It didn't matter to me which pen I would write with. So I randomly picked one.
I opened the notebook.
I hesitated.
This is ridiculous.
I had every right to have mental breakdown, but I was trying to plan on how I could prevent any danger maybe even my death, either it was within this mansion or outside.
But I couldn't cry.
I had the urge to cry.
I had the space to cry.
I was alone to cry.
I had myself to cry.
But nothing came out.
Just this annoying knot in my throat.
With the pen in my hand, I finally managed to write something.
[ Information from within the world:
-Living in a monarchy, class system, precisely the great Kalindi Empire, western part.
-Apparently a duke's daughter—> Zephyra Newsburgh.
-Family members:
Father—> Barrey Wilhelmson Newsburgh
Siblings—> Older brother Penin Newsburgh, younger brother Zack Newsburgh.
Mother—>???
Maids—> Mina and Marriel.
Characters from the book:
-The second princess Aelia from the Kalindi Empire.
The emperor—> ??? ]
Now that I think about it, the emperor's name never was mentioned in the novel.
The novel began with the tragic past of Aelia.
After the death of her sister, the first princess, the imperial family bullied Aelia a lot, since she was a the daughter of a lowly concubine.
Her older sister Adelaide was a mental supporter who deeply cared for Aelia.
Unfortunately, when Aelia was six years old, the eleven year old Adelaide passed away due to a serious illness.
The emperor and the empress blamed the concubine, the mother of Aelia because of her status and even accused her of being the devil herself, since she came from the streets.
So, she got executed.
Unluckily, Aelia being a part of the imperial family herself , had to witness the execution with the rest of the imperial family.
When I read that part, I was in the same situation as I am right now.
I wanted to cry, because of her past, of her suffering which is still on going.
At that moment I just wanted to comfort her in any possible way.
It was also because I could relate to her. Even though not everything was similar in my life to hers, I wanted to support her.
The death of her mother, the imperial family who doesn't respect her.
Especially the empress.
But Aelia stood straight against what has yet to come.
She was loved by the people of the Empire.
But no one knew, how hard she suffered from the imperial family.
It was also an effect of the first princess.
She was kind, calm and shined like a sun upon the people of the Empire.
To the point that they almost forgot her being a semi-blood.
I was sure, there were more characters in the novel, but since I was not that far in the story, I knew the last person.
The crown prince Darius.
He was one year older than Aelia and one of the main reasons why Aelia suffered. He bullied her a lot because of her half filthy blood.
Not to forget the empress Morrigan.
She detested her.
Now, I felt tired. I was thinking too much about the story itself.
What if it changes?
What if there will be a butterfly effect?
I closed the notebook, and went over to my bed. I was laying down and facing the window, glancing at the shiny stars, as I felt how my eyelids slowly closed.
The next morning, I woke up through the sound of the birds chirping.
I forgot to close the door of the balcony.
Luckily, it wasn't too cold. I straightened.
Nothing changed.
I was still in this world.
Still stuck in this mansion.
A dream, my ass.
I dozed off until I heard two knocks on my door.
Mina.
She's here.
The door opened, as I saw a head peeking out.
I chuckled.
Somehow she resembles a hamster.
"My Lady, you're already awake?", she asked as she stepped in.
"Yes, Mina. I woke up to another unpredictable day.", I said.
She tilted her head and questioned my answer.
In that same moment, another knock was to be heard.
Marriel entered.
"My Lady, you're already awake?", she asked as confused as Mina.
"Normally we would have to wake you up", she smiled.
So I have to pretend I'm sleeping tomorrow. I thought.
"I once again came to announce your daily schedule", she said, changing the topic.
As if Mina saw my questioning and confused face, she said: "My Lady, we have to start the day soon"
Right.
Being a noble Lady has it's weird things such as schedules.
Marriel announced what I should do today in order to keep my body and mentality fit.
But first I had to dress up.
The first time, I would've to go out of this room.
We stepped out of my room, in front of me was Marriel and behind me Mina.
The hallway was half the size of my room, and it lead to many other rooms.
Marriel opened a door which was next to the door of my room.
This dressing room or this walk-in closet was way too big.
It had the same size as the previous room.
Right next to the door, there was a mirror.
Shit.
I never saw myself since I entered this world.
I never saw how Lady Zephyra looks like.
I didn't even take a look at the countless
dresses in the room.
I was scared, to see myself not being me.
But soon I had to.
So, I stepped forward, in front of the mirror.
I widened my eyes.
"What the blazing hells"