Its all silent and I'm enjoying my time alone doodling on my notebook because I don't have anything to do when a sudden shortness of breath attacked me. I thought I'll be okay after a little inhale and exhale but I was wrong. It become worse that made me gasping for a breath but in a matter of seconds I collapsed on the floor.
I woke up and gasp for a breath. A gleaming light hit my eye; my hands are sweating bullets as my body quiver. I don't even know what's happening to me but I feared about what happened earlier. This is what I'm terrified about, once my illness attack in unexpected time sure it'll be 50-50.
My face softened. After seeing my father's face made me calm down. So, I guess this isn't the end for me.
"Dad…"
He smiled gently the heat from his palm gives me warmth when dad caressed my cheeks. "I'm glad that you're awake now."
I didn't respond, I stayed in silence. My doctor entered and checked me with my dad. When Mom entered, they went out to talk something and I know what's going on with that move, I shouldn't hear anything. Well, I always understand those and through observations-- somethings abnormal is happening to my body again. They don't want me to hear anything that can hurt me but they're already hurting me cuz they didn't even tell me about what's happening and cope up with the words that "You're getting better." Even though it's not.
The door opened and my mother entered. She went to me and took a place on my side. My tears suddenly roll down. I feel so bad. You can even see that she's sleepless because of the wrinkles and tired eyes she has and I know it's because of me. They're tired because of what happened to me as always but I never heard them complain.
"I-'im sorry…"
Mom smiled. "Stop crying. It's not good for you. I don't want you to see just like before." She gently stroke my hair.
"What happened to me?" I asked. "I mean...I know that I collapsed but how all of you know? I didn't press anything."
"It was Kaios." She replied with a smile. I gave my mom a look of confusion. How come it was because of him if he can't even move because he's laying on the bed with a lot of whatsoever on his body all the time. "An hour before you collapsed. We remove everything on his body because his medication is unexpectedly fast."
"Oh wow, so he can move now?"
She nodded. "Yeah, but not too much, he's still laying and supported by Nurse Kim. He pressed his his emergency button. We thought something happened to him but there's none, when we arrive, he commanded us to check you and that's the time that we found out that you collapsed. You're too pale and cold, I thought I'm going to lose you. I feared losing you, Reina."
I smiled and couldn't speak anything.
"Mom." I raised my hand with IV. She held my hand. "Remove…it hurts."
She wiped my tears. "If you're better we're going to remove that, for now, you should rest. Don't sneak outside. Your brother will take a good care of you after a day or two."
My eyes grew bigger, not being able to process what did Mom said. My brother and I are not in good terms and it's because of his jealousy towards me since I'm a kid. He hated me for getting our parents attention, well, he only gets scolded every time he's wrong and our parents can't see how he tried his best a lot of times because they always focused their eyes on me. I realized those when I grow as a teen but back when I was a child, I'm always confused why my brother doesn't like me.
"M-my b…brother?" I pouted. "He doesn't like me. He hates me Mama."
She just smiled at me. "I'll go outside. I'll check you later. I love you."
I nodded like a turtle. "O-okay, Love you."
When Mom leave, I'm now bothered. I don't even know what to react in front of him. Sure, it'll be awkward since he doesn't like me and we don't even have a communication for twelve years. Yes, we're siblings but when we're together sure we'll act like a stranger, a total stranger!
I did not even know what it feels like to have a brother cause he's missing for a decade, when I'm a tiny potato he didn't even carry me, he's distancing himself to me like I have a disease that would affect me. We only have one photo and that's when Mom forced him to take a photo with me when he graduated highschool and that's the first time he carries me.
I no longer left with a thought about our memories together because we didn't' have anything. It looks like Mom just give a life to me to be hated by my brother.
I wonder how he looks like.
Anyways, I couldn't compose myself anymore. I got up from the bed and almost fell on the floor because of the sudden dizziness. I held on the bed to balance my body. After a second of dizziness, I feel okay now.
The door suddenly open after I step my foot once. Nana Mia entered the room with a tray on her hands.
"N-nana..."
She sighed. "Where do you wanna go?"
I scratched my head. "T-to h...him."
"Alright, let's go." she said and opened the door widely. I'm not getting used to it. What's happening?
With a puzzled mind and a dumb look, I followed my Nurse's step.
"Do what you want, you can't do this when your brother is here." Nurse Mia said. "He's strict."
I twitched my lips. I hope he won't meddle with me that much cause in the first place, he never let himself accept me as his sister.
Nurse Mia placed the tray on the table and left us.
"Why are you here?" He asked. He's leaning on the headboard.
"Thank you." I told him.
"Whatever."
I shook my head out of disbelief. When do he will give me a proper answer.
He's really showing how much he dislike me and I never expected that it has affect on me like he was...sort of, most important to me.
Maybe no one really likes me just like how my brother do.
Am I too ashamed to be friends with?
I pursed my lips to compose myself not to cry. It's hurting me knowing that everyone must've been hating me.
I went to the table and grab my tray, his food is always here too.
I'm about to open the door when I hear him speak.
"Where are you going?"
I cleared my throat. "T-to my room."
"You're thanking me, right?"
"Yeah, I just did but you just replied with nonsense word." I replied bitterly.
The side of his lips rose. "Feed me."
I looked at him with confusion.
"Why would I do that, huh?" I raised a brow and placed my tray back om the table, I crossed my arm.
"Enough for you to thank me, I guess?" He yawned and even brushed his hair using his fingers.
"Why? don't you have your hand?" I asked. "Or even that Nurse Kim of yours?" I said sarcastically. Geez , I sounded so bitter.
"I'm too hungry, she's not here. It's not even enough to save your life." He stretched his legs. "Besides, you always like to bother me, so I'm bothering you now. So feed me, kid." A smirk plastered on his lips.
If I'm not grateful enough to pay respect because of what he did, I will never do this.
"What are you a baby?" I said irritatingly after he spill some of his foods. "Do you want me to play cocomelon huh?"
His lips twitched. "Sorry, my bad. I'm seeing it clearer than the ocean, you know." He smiled sarcastically as if he's having fun thinking about me who's stupid.
"Don't you ever think of me as stupid. Good thing, I'm feeding you." I said to him.
"I'm not even thinking about those, you chicken mouth." He said. I hit him on his shoulder because he's really getting on my nerves.
"Why are you hitting me?" He complained. I hit his hand after he pulled my hair.
"Why are you pulling my hair?!"
"I don't know!"
"Stupid!" I hit him again, he pulled my hair too.
"Stop! I won't feed your ass anymore!" I said annoyingly since he twirled my hair like I'm a toy doll.
"What? I'm not doing anything to you." He gave me a dumb look.
"Stop twirling my hair, idiot!" I slap his hand. But this idiot twirled it more.
This time, I hit his forehead. His eyes grew bigger as he covered his forehead with his hand after he let go of my hair.
"That's what you get from pestering me." I said and shove my food on my mouth but then my eyes widened after I realized that I freaking used his spoon.
"I neve--"
He didn't finished his words when I hit him too hard on his shoulder. He hold it and give me unbearable look of disbelief.
"Yah! You're bullying me!"
"Y-you stupid..." my eyes almost pop out from my head. "I-i used y-your spoon... and it's all your fault!" I hissed and pulled his hair.
He slapped my hand who's holding his hair. "It's your fault! You used my spoon! why are you blaming me? Ouch! ouch! kid!"
I let go of his hair and elbowed his stomach. "If it's not because of you who want to be feed, I won't take this spoon!"
We can't stop bickering about it and both of us are just pulling each other hair or hitting each others arm or shoulder.
I gasp a breath. "I'm on my limit." I said to him and place my arm on his shoulder.
He rest his head on my arm. "Me too."
We seated normally and became silent. I feed him again and I eat my food without using his spoon, I don't wanna share a saliva with this guy, it's dirty.
"Why are you so quiet?" He elbowed me. "Give me food."
"Your food is already done, you old chicken." I elbowed him back and enjoyed my salad.
"Why?"
"What why?" my eyebrows furrowed. "You're done and I haven't finished mine because you keep bickering and I'm feeding you because you're a demanding motherfucker."
He touched my face and suddenly he caught my cheeks and squished it like it was a marshmallow that needed to be squish before he eats. But I'm hoping he won't cause I'll hit him with my fist.
"I'm stil hungry."
My eyes became chinky as my lips suddenly twitched.
My do he act like this?
I just noticed that this is the first time he talked to me a lot and I think he's cute for that--even before while we're bickering... Wait?! Did I just think that this man is cute?! Oh my God! Curse myself to death! I will never think of those! It was all illusion. I never think of those! Never!
I cleared my throat. "Ask your Nurse Kim for food, sure she have."
"Give me yours. I won't wait for her, she's too slow."
"But I'll be hungry if I'll give you my food." I said to him.
"A little."
I rolled my eyes. I put a spoonful of my salad and offered it to him. "Open your mouth, oldie."
He opened his mouth. I thought he's going to eat a little but no! He finished the spoonful of salad.
I flick his forehead. "Idiot! I said only little!"
"What do you want me to do? Grab a piece of lettuce then you eat the rest?" He asked while munching. "Then what? We're going to share saliva again?"
"But you just did! It's my spoon! I didn't switched it to yours!" I affirmed and irritatingly pulled his ear.
"Ouch!" He slapped my hand again. "Then, we're even now. I've tasted food coming from your spoon and you tasted mine from my spoon."
"B-but....it was--"
"Why do you sound so worried?"
"Because it's indirect kiss! It's disgusting!" I affirmed when I realized those.
He sneered. "It's indirect. It was nothing."
"Yeah, it was nothing." I replied with too much sarcasm.
"I'll go back to my room." I told him and grab my dextrose.
He nodded and didn't utter any words that made me twitch my lips. I thought he will say something but he didn't.
Since when I did expect something from him?
Geez, compose yourself RC, there's nothing special about him.
My heart suddenly felt a loud bang that made me drop my hand that's about to hold the doorknob when I heard him.
"Reina..." calling me.
I turn around. "Y-yeah?"
I saw how his ears become red. He scratched his neck.
"Nothing, just don't forget to close the door properly." He said.
My hopes went lower than the 30 feet deep ocean. And I don't even know why.
"I'm not stupid, I'll do it. Tss."
"You sounded like a chicken whose mad." He chuckled.
His chuckles became music in my ear that left my mind couldn't forget about it as it reflects in my heart that for sure it'll be a memory.
How I wish I'm still fine after sensing butterflies on my stomach.