Sae called me out for another lunch date at her place. This time she was thinking of cooking a proper home cook meal rather than a lunch box. Of course, I was thrilled by it and headed over as soon as I could.
Sae and I had been dating for almost half a year. Since then we had furthered our relationship a lot and plenty of events had happened around us.
Well, ignoring the fact that Sae gave me another set of 'yandere imouto' ASMR during my birthday, our parents eventually found out about our relationship. It was around the fourth month into our relationship when Sae went to Taiwan for a harmonica competition. She came back from the trip with a gift for me that caught me by surprise.
How Sae gave me the gift was also a heart-pounding experience. When I was about to head home from spending some time at her house, she told me to wait for her in front of her front door. After a few minutes, she came back with her hands behind her back.
She told me to turn around and lean forward a bit while keeping my eyes close. I was a little worried as I thought she was either going to prank me or do something about my sensitive ears again. Instead, I felt something crawling around my neck. As she told me to open my eyes, I realized that she had put on a necklace around my neck.
The chain was silver in colour. As for the pendant, it was two intertwined rings, each with a different colour. The rings were black and silver in colour while being fused together crisscrossed as if they had become one. There were wordings on the rings which were 'Forever' and 'Must in one'. On both ends of the rings that were fused together, there were small diamond-like gems as if they were acting as screws for the rings.
The first thing that popped into my mind was how expensive these necklaces were despite not being the kinds you see in jewellery shops. However, it was still bugging me as we were only a few months into our relationship. Sae refused to tell me the price of the necklace. She even presented me with another one for herself as she wanted us to have matching necklaces.
I was really happy about the gift but I also realized that this was Sae's way of monopolizing me. I could tell she was very in love with me from the way she acted these past few months. Seeing that we had sealed the deal, she would want to get me something as if she was claiming her property. And as if she had my life in her hands, a necklace was the perfect item for a girl like her. Not that I mind, as I was very much into her possessive nature given that I was a 'yandere' freak after all.
Anyways as I went home with the necklace around my neck, both my parents took notice of it and realized that my relationship with my childhood friend had advanced further than how childhood friends would act. With the hard evidence shown to them already, I decided to spill the beans to my family. Thankfully they were very supportive of me as they knew Sae since young.
Because of the little incident with my parents, I went and told Sae about it. Sae also told her mother about our relationship and things were more than fine on her side as her mother also noticed our 'more than childhood friend' relationship. With that out of the way, we both agreed to share our relationship status openly through our social media connections.
It caught us by surprise how much support we had gotten from our peers. My friends were happy for me as they believed she was the right one for me. Her friends teased her and said that it finally had happened as if it was obvious how much Sae was into me. We even had a small group of friends who celebrated our relationship as they had already silently shipped us behind our backs. Even our friends from cram school were surprised it took us so long to be in a relationship. I guess a bit of our closeness was shown to them before we officially dated. Nevertheless, we were loved by our friends.
Speaking of possessiveness, I learned that Sae wasn't just acting the 'yandere' troupe but as she was very much the troupe itself. However, I eventually learned the reason as to why she had such a personality after spending more time with her.
Five months into our relationship, I learned about Sae's past and God was I horrified by it.
They say that the personality of a person can be influenced by the environment where you grow up in. And with how little love and affection Sae has gotten from her early childhood, I started to understand the nature of her possessive nature. She was craving for it as it was absent in all her life. As soon as she had found a person that she could share that love and affection with, she would do whatever she can to prevent it from slipping out of her grasp. Hence, her mildly obsessive and jealousy induced personality.
Sae would get very angry when I got close with other girls. However, she wasn't the type to put the blame on me, rather she would put the blame on the girls around me. She didn't like the fact that some girls would try to get on the good side of a boy in a relationship. The way she thought of them was as if they were spiteful bitches trying to lure their next prey and would treat them as if they were the worst scums ever breed on the planet Earth.
She was also very protective of me in the sense where she would fight my battles. She knew I was a boy who can be easily bullied and would ignore the situation despite its escalation. Sae on the other hand would do whatever she could to get rid of them.
There was one time when one of my artworks was being framed as their own and refused to admit it was stolen from me. I decided to approach the person who stole my artwork but he immediately closed off all contacts with me while also blocking me on social media. When Sae found out, she went on a witch hunt.
She created multiple accounts online and attacked the thief with a bombard of hateful messages. When the thief blocked her, she would create a new one and even approached the thief's friends. The way she stalked him was something beyond my comprehension. And while I had already given up on the situation, I wasn't aware of the things she had done. When I was about to forget about it, Sae came to me and told me that the thief had given up and apologized for his mistakes. I did not know what she did at that time but I praised her for helping me.
Going back to our earlier relationship days, I also realized she had two fetishes of her own. One being a 'hand' fetish. It's not as if she had a collection of severed hands, she just had a collection of hand photos in her phone. She liked the way where the veins are visible and the bones structure peaked out from the back of the hands.
I did not understand it at the time but when Sae showed me her collection, it did creep me out a bit. It wasn't because she had an immense collection of hand photos, it was because more than half of those photos were my hands. Some even in angles I did not know was possible and how she got the chance to take them. I was genuinely spooked by it but her cute smile as she showed her collection was enough for me to forgo her actions.
At least it was only me she was daring to go to such lengths. I'll only stop her when she becomes a problem for someone else.
The other fetish she had was 'smell'. For some reason, my childhood friend turned girlfriend, Sae was into my smell. Whenever we met, she would fall in my embrace and breathe in my odour. Sae couldn't properly explain the reason to me why she liked my smell. She said it's a bit sweet but all in all, she explained it as she just liked my smell for no reason. It made me a bit self-conscious of my smell since because of her sensitive nose, I knew I had to keep my stench women-free.
I got curious about her 'smell' fetish once so I asked Sae if I could get a sniff off of her too. After getting consent from her, I went ahead and get a sniff out of her as I hugged her belly. The smell I have gotten out of her was… very very lewd.
It was very stuffy. I once described her room as her love den but her smell was even more severe than that. It was as if she had another basement below her room that was used for emergencies if I had become too comfortable with more girls. It was as if I was trapped in her love dungeon, alienated from society and forced to elope for all eternity. It was very dangerous and it wasn't a smell I want to be fully accustomed to.
Because of those traits of her, I was starting to develop an educational curiosity in her yandere-like personality. I decided to do a bit of research on that personality troupe I was so fascinated with. There were lots of different types of yandere and some were tamer than the others. I went ahead and looked through the known troupes and after doing a bit of tick-boxing, I realized Sae was a mix-match between 'shuuchaku-gata', the obsession type and 'dokusen-gata', the monopoly type.
'Shuuchaku-gata' yandere wants to learn everything about their love interests. This includes their personal information, hobbies and routines. They were the type to constantly keep in contact with them and tried to indulge themselves in their hobbies. They would want to make sure they will always be by their love interest's side no matter where you go and what you do. A bit of the stalk-ish type.
Which checks out.
'Dokusen-gata' yandere wants to monopolize their love interest. They are interested in the people they talk to and hang out with. If there was someone they don't like, they would do their best to stop them from ever contacting them regardless if they were a mutual friend. And when push comes to shove, they would alienate your existence from the outside world and keep their love interest for themselves.
Which not as serious, but checks out.
It would seem that the nature of these traits came from insecurities and lack of trust. And due to Sae's past, I knew that those incidents were contributions to the development of her insecurities. As for her lack of trust, I believed it stemmed from the fact I was her first love and that she wasn't willing to let go of it at all. Overall, her condition made sense to me.
I was glad to know that both of these traits aren't in the extreme cases of ex-communication and danger but they were still not entirely harmless either. Sae's condition was obviously a mental sickness caused by her terrible childhood upbringing.
It may seem attractive and cute at first but given some time in the future, it was definitely going to haunt me. I want to do what I can to help her go through them and introduce her to what a normal life would be.
Even if she was going to lose those yandere traits that I was so attracted to.
Sae had a rough life and she had been going through a lot. Her dark past made her who she was then and I as her boyfriend only used her mental illness to my advantage. I starting to feel like scum for mistreating her.
We were 6 months into our relationship and I had yet to tell her my honest feelings. Because she had given me so much, I was afraid of breaking her feelings. I didn't want to tell her my feelings for her were only obligatory and not as genuine as she thought it to be.
Even though I was enjoying my time with her and our 'special' times were fun, I had still yet to confirm for sure if I truly share those feelings with her or not. We were too deep into our relationship and I can't bring myself to tell her the truth.
Then there was also her situation as a possessive girl. There was no telling what would happen if I told her about it. I was worried she would bring harm to me or the people around her. But most importantly, I don't want her to bring harm to herself.
I decided that if I ever want to tell her my honest feelings, I should at least help her go through the struggles she was facing.
At least that way…
If things don't work out...
I was at least able to help her.
However, those days were still far ahead and I want to continue enjoying the moment.
Eventually, my trip was near its end as I reached Sae's neighbourhood. I parked my car at the nearest parking lot and walked towards her house. While I was walking, I was thinking about the surprise meal she was about to give me since her cooking had only improved since we started dating.
As I reached in front of her gate, I rang the doorbell and waited for Sae to open up the gate for me. I could hear Mirai barking from behind the door and was greeted by his presence.
I waited for quite a while and for some reason, Sae was nowhere to be seen. I assumed that Sae might have fallen asleep somewhere as she was a quick and heavy sleeper. I peeked through the window and her translucent curtain to only see Mirai jumping up and down. I decided that maybe I should just drop her a message that I had arrived and was waiting for her in the car.
However, something wasn't right.
Mirai was still barking. Usually, he would only bark for a few seconds after seeing that it was me in front of the gate. And even if Sae was a heavy sleeper, she would be awake from his barking by now.
I took a closer peek through the window and noticed that there was a fog coming out from the back of her house. As I noticed that the direction it was coming out of was from the kitchen, I quickly understood two things. That the fog was black smoke coming from her kitchen…
And that Mirai was barking for help.