I always had a million things to say to him. But I would never ever find the words. I wanted to hide it all in my heart and wished if someone could read from my heart. I always wanted the silences to speak. But neither of that happened. I can understand how important it was to talk. That day when I got 5 months of leave to return back to my country, India I never thought I'd be so vulnerable. I packed my things and bought some cloths and sweets for mom and dad and headed for the airport. I had the company of another Indian lady beside my cabin. She was busy with her two little kids who were sleepy. She gave me a smile as we arrived at the airport. Mom and my cousin brother were waiting for me.
By noon we reached home and the constructive works for building a new corridor was progressing. There was a need of a few house plants and decorative plants as I always wished. The next day we went to the city to buy some of them which included a blue potted plant, a few bamboos, and a few jacaranda seeds. A few days spent at home went too fast as there were a lot happening with the construction works. Then it was during the month of a March that I got the marriage invitation of my childhood bestie from Katmandu. It was so unexpected that she is already getting married. I think it was a ritual rule that they should get married before a certain age. I wanted to go but it was years since we said goodbyes. Never did I maintain the contacts. I'm too bad at it. But this time, I truly wished if I could go. I haven't attended a family gathering ever since I left home for job. Her marriage was important to me. I was mentally preparing for the same for days from then.
It was a hot summer day that we went out for a trip to enjoy the beach vibes with my family and younger cousin brothers. We couldn't spend much time there because it was burning hot in the afternoon. So we went for shopping in Marine. We collected few decorants for the house that's being work in progress. I also loved the sea shells we picked up while walking in the beach. My younger cousins were enjoying the holidays more. They joked around and played more. I missed that teenage vigor at that time and felt like a tedious old lady. We spent some time until the sunset and they were busy capturing the scenes in their phone. I was trying to capture the sunset but what interested me more was two kids in cute little frocks with some side buns playing with waves without bothering about anything around. I clicked the picture and it was the best shot I've ever captured. At that moment the most beautiful thing I've ever seen was that sunset. The joy within my heart when I'm with my beloved ones is truly unexplainable within few words.
That night we came home with a fresh head that everything in that place felt new to me. I forwarded the picture I captured to Ryan, to ask if it's good as I thought! He complimented me with some emojis though. We had a few talk and slept late than usual. It was always been good when it comes to have a talk with him. He would talk without a break about everything what's been happening in his voyages. He met with a girl in Paris and now they are a couple. And they are on a travelling around the world mission for 50 weeks. He seemed happy than usual. And I felt the need of someone around, more than anything at that moment.