I thought I had already lost everything; my family, my friends, my career and the one person who I couldn't live without. But it also turns out I had also lost my dignity when the people 'my husband' had invited over for us to host…were none other than Ashar and Khirad of all people! The past 2 months had been completely low for me after my…little breakdown at the wedding where I had fully alienated myself in front of everyone on national tv! But it wasn't my fault! If only that bitch hadn't shown up last minute in an outfit that was far more expensive than my own! She looked…so beautiful compared to me on my own wedding day! I had been bottling up my own emotions so far so well all this time just so I could kill Khizar when I had the chance and then regain the life that he and that lowly bitch had stolen from me…but when I saw her looking the way she did…and then Ashar of all people showed up by her side!
I thought my heart was going to fall out of my chest at that moment. I hadn't seen him for almost 2-3 months, it was by far the longest time that we hadn't kept in touch and it was killing me every day. The fact that I didn't have him by my side as I watched him eat to his heart's content, take his coffee as black as they came without sugar in it, secretly take his shoes off in the office when he got uncomfortable and lose his temper pretty quickly when things didn't go his way…I literally got out of my wedding seat when I saw him. I wanted to make my way to him but that stupid bitch Khirad made her way to us first and…congratulated Khizar? Wait…what? What the hell was going on? I thought she would rip his face off if she ever saw him again but…here she was…congratulating us? And then Ashar came up behind her and started talking to Khizar as well…he always acted like he was going to kill him the next time he saw him…
The look on Khirad's face told me everything I needed to know; both Khizar and Khirad had somehow gotten their revenge on me by making me live through my worst nightmare. But when i realised that Ashar hadn't looked at me even once and was just focused on her the whole time, that was when I had no choice but to let out everything that I had been holding in for so long…and I lunged at Khirad in front of everybody. I honestly couldn't help it anymore, I was sick of her typical sickly sweet smile, her innocent act…and the fact that she had everything I wanted without even asking for it. So I had one of the biggest breakdowns of my life as I literally tore apart her dress, I tried to rip her heavy earring out of her ears and I tried to take down her scarf from her precious little head before my father had to pull me away from her. The disgusted look he and everybody else were giving me at the time was just way too much to bear as I…I lost my senses momentarily and I started screaming about everything, I…I confessed to the world what i did, how i essentially broke up a newlywed couple and how far I went to do it. I had a mental breakdown in front of everyone as I left Khirad bleeding and scarred on the floor where everybody had flocked around her out of sympathy and it was making me angry. So I tried to lunge for her again…only to have Ashar throw me off of her this time.
I was completely frozen onto the floor, how could he…how could he dare to…how could he even think about hurting me at all? I was still in shock, so much so that I had drowned out my father's rampage, my mother's cries, and the press taking pictures while their lights kept flashing. All I could do was stare at Ashar in horror; I had never even been shoved or pushed in my entire life, but to have someone…him actually throw me off of that lowlife rat and everyone once again run to her like she was the most precious thing on earth. I seriously felt as if I had been violated by the one man on this planet that I trusted with everything in me. But by the time i had looked up again I barely saw Asher…pick up Khirad in his arms? They had just passed through the door when all of a sudden I ran to them, totally disrupting the whole ceremony and embarrassing my family as I tried my best to catch up to them. I ran after Ashar in high heels as I kept screaming his name and still hoping that he would turn around and look at me at least once for old time's sake. But instead he…he slapped me. He really, honest to god…he raised his hand to me with the intent to hurt me…and he did. In front of everyone. And in front of the whole world he…shouted at me…screamed at me…and even got onto his knees and…begged me to leave him alone. He actually told me to my face…words I had never heard from anybody in my life. I never thought I would be sending in front of anybody that I revered so much who would have the nerve to throw me away like this. He told me that still, to this day that i cannot compete with his precious Khirad and I needed to move on with my life for good. He might as well have beaten me up on the street and left me for dead. I even…ran after them while they both drove away in a fancy car that wasn't unlike the one my father had taken away from me after my suicide attempt.