Episode 8.
Countless times when having a nice conversation you always bring him up. It's always Alex this or Alex that and you are telling me there are no still strings attached.
No! No! You are hiding something from me and you know it.
Alex's call infuriated the already lying issue.Fame was never comfortable with me still keeping contact with Alex but I insisted he was now my friend nothing more. How do I go on to tell him Alex wants me back,it's like putting fuel to the already burning fire.
Fame calm down, you have the right to be angry. I get that but try to understand me too.
'OK yes he wasn't just checking on me.
He was saying he misses me and all.
I wasn't ready to spill the beans yet. I managed to maneuver Fame into calming down by making him Egusi and semo as they say" the way to a man's heart is through his stomach".
We ate in silence after Fame had complimented me on the meal. It's already 6pm and I have to be home. I bid Fame goodbye and left for my house.
There was no traffic jam today thanks to the public holiday.I rushed to the bathroom to shower immediately I got home. I needed to cool off. There was already a lot in my head and mind.As the cool water from the shower mouth touched my skin I felt a little relieved it's been a long day. I retired to my bed after drying my body.
The sound of my beeping phone woke me up. I had forgotten to turn off my data before I got off the bus. I wasn't feeling sleepy anymore so the thought of Alex's request flashed into my mind.
Yes no doubt I used to love Alex but not anymore.It's all in the past now but his request is making me perplexed.
I haven't promised Fame the future but he is taking it like I have. Any time I try reminding him he says "then you've been deceiving me all along ".'You only came for the money's.
How do I explain to him that I don't see myself being neither a second wife nor a step mom?After watching him break down during his divorce process, that would be the height of brutality to say that to him.
Maybe I would have said it before his divorce just maybe it wouldn't have held.
'I feel terribly guilty right now'.
'I am confused'.
I can't go back to Alex because he is my past and I also can't continue with Fame cause I don't know if I will ever promise him a future… .