Every chat with Alex unveils old feelings, I so miss this human and for the past two weekends I've been contemplating on what to do to make it go away cause I'm not liking this feeling at all.
It's been two years with Fame and this old feeling still hasn't left,It's supposed to have. Alex isn't helping either, he just never stops sending the I love you sticker.
I just can't put all this together, it all has to stop.I most definitely Can't go back to Alex for reasons best known to me.
Fame is getting irritated with my recent frequent brooding when I'm with him. I know he knows it's about Alex but I don't want to talk about it. I'm still wondering how we lasted this long. I resolved on having an open conversation with Alex.
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'Hi'.
'Hello'.
How are you doing?
Fine and you Alex?
Of course I'm great.
OK.I would like for us to talk about something.
OK.
I know it's going to sound weird cause we've talked about it a million times. I promise this is the last time.
Ok. Hope I'm safe?
Of course you are, I just want to do this once and for all.
Ok. Go ahead, I'm listening.
Alex, what do you want from me?
As how? I don't understand.
Why did you come back?
Oh! I Miss you that's why I came back.
Alex I'm serious, why did you come back?
And I just answered you. I said I miss you.
Well I miss you too but you know you can't just come in and out of my life like that.
What do you mean?
I know we have history but it's in the past now.Look,I hold no grudge against you I'm just asking for space abeg no fight.
You sending me countless love stickers made me have mixed feelings. Yes, I used to have an attachment like I had this entanglement thing for you but now it exists no more and you've been around. It is frustrating . Just leave me alone please.
Hmmm.Daula you sound like it's deeper than this I'm just asking for us to Be friends again that's it.Yes I was attached and still attached to you. I've tried to control it no matter how busy I want to distract myself somehow,somewhere you are there in my head. I know I hurt you and I'm still asking for forgiveness but if I'm becoming a pest in your life then I will distance myself but always remember I love you no matter what. I wish I could correct something's but it's OK.
Forgiveness! I've forgiven you long ago and try to understand it's for the best.Thanks for understanding.
OK.bye.
I feel so relieved now..
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The buzzing sounds from cars and commercial vehicles on the road of Lagos will make you think there is a prize for the vehicle with the loudest horn. They just won't allow me think straight.Fame brought up marriage again and at this point I am speechless because he has waited for two good years even though I'm not still ready. I possibly can't tell him to wait again cause I myself don't know when I will be ready. I will need to speak with Fame.
Fame POV.
It's funny how life goes on without a stop. It's been two years since I divorced my wife. Even with our issues I still miss her. I've loved her from the start and even now just that something's ain't meant to be. Daula is the perfect definition of the woman of my dreams though she doesn't like talking about marriage which I'm yet to understand why. I've been working hard to make sure I don't lose her to anyone because I can't and won't let her go.Never.
Though she's got some attitude issues.If anger was seen or felt hers would have burnt me and my house she's got a real anger issue but I know how to handle it.
It's been two years of ups,downs,fights,quarrels,arguments, beautiful moments and attitudes, damn it worth staying. These past few weeks she has been behaving strangely and distracted a lot. Two weeks ago I was having a discussion with her about renovating my office and what she thinks about it. She was just so concentrated on her phone and absent mindedly tapping her feet. From her recent actions I know Alex is back and that guy won't just leave my woman alone. Well I don't blame him if you spent a day with Daula. I swear you would want to make it a lifetime and that's why I brought up the issue of marriage again. At least I've waited. I pray she says yes this time.