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Chapter 21 - Questions and words that hurt

-Marie's POV-

"I should go" he tells me and turns to leave the room. The moment he started to walk away anger filled my heart. I wasn't sure what I was expecting but a face to face apology would be nice, and maybe some help to move. He literally left me bruised and bloody and did not even bother to help me to the bathroom. Did he actually hate me and I had it wrong the whole time? If so then why am I still here? Why look at my body with such want? I just want answers! Before he left I asked him the only thing I could think of at the moment.

"Why?" I watch him come to a halt. "Why what?" He replied his voice coming as a bear whisper. Is he serious, did he really just ask why what? The nerve of this guy, he knows damn right what I mean and pretending not to know is really aggravating. "Why do you keep me here?" my voice raised a bit as frustration built up. I waited for an answer but I got nothing but silence. Somehow I knew he wouldn't answer me and this only aggravated me even more. So I began to yell loudly.

"Answer me! You kidnapped me, lock me in a room, killed 3 men in front of me, handcuffed and raped me yet you can't tell me why?" I yelled at him but he just stood there. He wouldn't even turn to look at me. I was hoping to hear something, anything but all I received was silence and it hurt. His silence hurt badly and so I decided that I would make sure he hurt as well. "I HATE YOU! YOU DISGUST ME!" I yelled hoping now he would hurt as I did. "You are nothing but a criminal, a monster, you are a pig!" I continued to yell I wanted his heart to be just as shattered as mine.

I really expected him to get angry and yell at me. I wanted a reaction, any type of reaction but instead once again I got nothing. Upon my silence he continued walking and began to close the door. Before the door came to a complete close I heard him mumble "I know I am. I know I am" and with that he closed the door but not before I noticed him clutching onto his side.

-Shadow's POV-

Her words were daggers through my heart. No wound I have or ever received hurt as much as this does. I stood there silently as she yelled how much she hated me. I did not react; I forced myself to simply listen. As much as it pained me I listened to her words. I knew damn well I deserve every single extremely painful word. I deserved it all; I deserved her hate, her disgust, and yells. As a matter of fact she was completely right.

I even hated myself. I really did want to reply. I wanted to tell her all the truth from seeing her as a child till now but I didn't. After what I had done I doubted that she would believe me. Also my identity could not be revealed. I decided it was best not to speak.

I couldn't even face her. I felt so ashamed. I was also mad at myself. How could I not she was literally having a mental break down when I was walking by and not only that but her naked bloody body was only a bigger reminder or my crimes. I hurt her, I raped her, I broke her and I don't even have the guts to properly apologize.

After all those years of wishing she would become mine I finally did it but in a fucked up and sick way and worse I couldn't even remember. I wanted her to love me. I wanted to make her my wife and spend eternity with her but now, now that will never happen. She would never love me. But maybe, maybe she won't have to.

After Marie got tired of yelling at me I simply walked away mumbling how I knew I was everything she said I was. I wanted to help her up, I wanted to aide her every need but I was certain she wouldn't let me. Remembering her ankle was hurt I walked to the medical supply room and pulled out some ointment, crutches, and bandage.

She might hate me but I am not going to let her suffer anymore. Grabbing everything I walked up to my room and opened the door. My heart shattered some more upon seeing her still on the ground sobbing. Without saying another word I placed the items beside her and walked away.

"Don't worry princess I will do whatever it takes to make you happy. Even if it means staying away from you forever, I promise" I said before closing the door.

-Marie's POV-

After he left I cried some more what good did it do me to get clothes if I can't get up on my own. I feel like I'm dying, I miss my family, I miss my freedom, and I miss school. As I cried I heard the door open I wanted to look up, to look into his hazel eyes that hypnotize me but I didn't. I felt him lay something on the floor beside me, but once again I fought the urge to look at what him.

That was until I heard his voice. "Don't worry princess I will do whatever it takes to make you happy. Even if it means staying away from you forever, I promise" and soon after he walked back out of the room.

What did that mean? Is he going to let me go? Avoid me? How will that make me happy? I felt oddly disappointed at his words. This is not what I wanted. I really hope I misunderstood him and he did not mean that he would avoid me. I need to know, but why? As he left a second time I look to the side to find a pair of crutches, some ointment, and bandages. I smiled as I saw it. I felt relived. Did this mean he really did care and he doesn't hate me? Why does that thought make me happy? I shouldn't care if he hates me or not but then why do I?