Shadow Cat walks into the living room and grabs his keys from the table and heads towards the door. As I reach the door behind him I see a suitcase and my thoughts start to go crazy. *Is he fucking serious? Is he really leaving me and for how long? Is he that upset with me? Is he kicking me out? What the hell is going on?* I pushed my thoughts aside asked the first question. I needed answers and I needed them now.
"Are you leaving me?" I tried to sound as normal as possible but I knew he noticed the worry in my voice since even I heard it. He then tried calming me down by giving me a smile but it only made it worse since it was obviously a fake one. I would know I have used them all my life. This smile did not reach his eyes.
They were dull, the sparkle in them was gone, deep inside I knew this was not good. "I am not leaving you Marie. Well I am leaving but you are coming with me." He smiled once more this time it was a little more real but it still did not reach his eyes.
I was about to ask another question when he continued "Don't worry so much we are just going on a weekend getaway and maybe a date if you let me." I smiled brightly upon his request. I was so happy I could just jump. He feels the same omg he feels the same. "I would love that." Maybe I was wrong and nothing bad would happen. This could just be the best weekend of my life. But then why do I still have a bad feeling?
-Shadows POV-
After an extremely long night of misery and distress I made up my mind. I know that this is going to hurt like crazy, and maybe neither of us will ever be the same again but this is for the best. This is for her and her happiness. I said this before and I will say it again I would do anything for Marie.
As the sun rose I went to the closet and got out a suitcase. I quickly packed the clothes I had bought for us as well as some present and disguises for the both of us. I really hope she likes the gifts. A few nights ago we were talking about clothing and she was telling me how she had a hard time finding cute plus size clothing not that it ever was for me but I decided to buy her the best plus size clothing Canada offered. Maybe every time she wears them she will think of me.
I finish packing our stuff and place the suitcase by the front door before going back up and knocking on her room door. I tried to be normal. I tried to remain calm and keep myself together so she won't notice how fucking broken I really am but it is more difficult than I thought. "Hey" I say as she opens the door. I can see she did not get any sleep either and it upsets me to know that I am the reason why.
"Come on" I tell her and walk away as quick as I could so she does not notice the tears building in my eyes. I blink quickly trying to dry my tears before they fall. I pick up my keys and walk towards the door. I inhaled deeply before turning around. I see a worried look of her face. "Are you leaving me?" She asks me. If only she knew my plan she would hate me. I smile trying to play it cool."
"I am not leaving you Marie. Well I am leaving but you are coming with me." I knew she was about to ask another question and most likely it would be about where we were going so I continued before she can speak.
"Don't worry so much we are just going on a weekend getaway and maybe a date if you let me." I ask nervously. Technically I did not lie about anything. We are doing that and hopefully we can go on a date but I just did not tell her the whole truth. "I would love that" she responds excitedly making me smile a little.
I can't lie I am so happy that she agreed to go on a date with me. My heart feels warm and my stomach is tingly but at the same time I still feel broken. If only she knew what would happen after. If she knew my plan would she still want to give me the memory of date? If I were to tell her the truth about this weekend would she still want to come?
I keep telling myself that she will be happier after and she just might be but will I? Actually I know I won't be. I will never be. But she does not deserve this hell I call a life. She deserves more and that is why I am doing this. But after all is said and done will she ever find it in her heart to forgive me?