-Shadow Cat's POV-
The following days were amazing. Marie and I got along great just like I always knew we would. This girl takes my breath away every single time. Right when I thought I couldn't fall for her even more she proved me wrong. She has shown me there is more to her than I thought.
She is funny but also sensitive, she is fun and playful, but also serious and depended, she is a great cook, an amazing singer, she is creative and many more things. God I am really in love with this girl. My father always said love was a weakness, but I feel stronger. If it is a weakness then it's one I can't live without.
Marie makes me feel special. She makes me feel loved and cared for. She no longer treats me like a criminal. In fact she makes me feel like I can change like I can be good. I have taken on less and less jobs now that I am close to her. I hate the look of disappointment. I hate to see her face full of worry every time I come back and I am hurt. I have caught her looking at the news when I arrive. I want to be good for her but I feel like I will never be. But last night Marie said she believed I could be.
Flashback
"Ring, Ring*
Hello
Yes, wait what?
I'll be right there!
I run to change my clothes to my usual black attire and grab my weapons from the hiding spots. As I turn to leave my room I find Marie standing in front of the door, blocking my path.
Marie- "Shadow please don't do this"
SC- "Marie I have to, I need to protect them. My friends and my brother are in danger."
Marie- "You could get hurt, you could die, you almost did before! Please stay here with me"
SC- "Marie as much as I want that. They are in danger. You know this is what I do. Please understand."
Marie- "What about me?"
SC- "I-I"
Marie- "You said you cared about me yet you leave me. I don't like it when you do this. Please stay."
"I can't I am sorry"
With that I moved her slowly away from the door and left the house. The look in her face really hurt but I needed to protect my family. I wanted to stay. She doesn't even know how badly I much rather stay with her cuddling, watching a movie enjoying our time together but I really can't. This was not just some job this was more than that. We were being attacked and my brother my leader needed me and I couldn't let him die. After all he is the only family I have left.
It was a long fight leaving a lot of men dead from both sides. 17 of those men were by my own hand. I knew because I made sure to send my signature cat stamp in each body. This was a war between gangs and I wanted them to get the message. I know Marie would watch soon, I know she is going to be disappointed in me but I am an assassin that is who I was raised to be.
I rested a few hours before heading home. As I walked in I was greeted with something unexpected. Marie threw herself in my arms sobbing. She waited for me? Why is she crying? Is she ok?
Marie- "Omg you're here! I thought you were hurt or worse dead. Are you ok?"
SC- *She was worried about me? Omg she was crying for me?* "Hey I'm fine see, all good just a few cuts and bruises I'm ok I promise."
Marie- "Do y-you have any idea h-how worried I was?"
SC- "You were?"
Marie- "Of course you dumb Cat I though u were dead. I couldn't handle it if something happened to you."
SC- "I am so sorry Marie I don't want to worry you."
Marie- "Cat is it true? 17 dead by your hand?"
She heard. I knew that she would be upset with me for it. There was no point in lying not that I ever wanted to lie to her. So I nodded shamefully. Usually I would be so proud of the job well done but ever since Marie came to my life I only felt ashamed. I wanted to quit the gang I wanted to make her proud but I was in way to deep. I was supposed to be leader, my father trusted me, I can't let him down plus I doubt they would allow me to leave. Marie was different she was good and I wanted to be good for her.
Marie- "Why? You don't have to do this! This doesn't have to be you."
SC-"Marie I am a monster you said so once yourself" my voice was now a whisper
Marie- "Maybe you were once but you are not anymore. At least you don't have to be. You can change; I know you are good; you just have to stop this. Please at least try. Try for me."
SC- "I promise to try. For you"
End of flashback
I never thought that I would love Marie more than I did before but I was wrong. I am completely and totally in love with this woman. She was my heart, she has all of me. Sometimes I feel guilty for not revealing myself to her but if I did both of our safety would be at risk. I am not worried about myself but I can't put her life in danger. I can't put her safety at risk. I would be nothing without her. But I know that no matter what I would never let her get hurt. I would make sure she is safe by my side. At the end there is another thing that scares me besides her safety. "If she knew who I was will she still chose to stay?"