although we are friend , we still have something difrem way of thinking. you know alex even he is a man he still struggling until now about the dump thing.
beside cindy just a girl who like alex, alex still dont know about his feeling about love. he just know cindy is a good friend, no one know about this feeling.
sometimes this feeling said she just like my mom friend and family. i dont think she will be my girl friend.
i dont know the kind of this feeling i really have to tell her , i cant be she boy friend. i mean it.
but i dont guys to tell her about my feeling so better not talk to her now. i am really like a man, you know there something struggling on it.
i like toni he, ans i want hin to be my girl friend, but i cant tell her about this. oh cindy forgive me, i do the best in the office cause of toni.
toni is the person that i want to be a boy friend, he always hear my problem and he just like cinderella in my mind. i am the prince and he is a cinderella.
i feel like i love him and cindy doesnt know about it, cindy still see me as a man so she feel like and love me. i dont know anything without cindy that she love me. i wanted to tell her but i dont want brake her hearth by telling the truth of me.
i have something different on me i love a man, and the telling of people is trutg that i am a women who like man.
this secret of me is no one know about it just my mom know it that i love the same gender. i really like a man. sometimes i feel this is the way i am to find someone that i love.
i dont have feeling anything about cindy, but with tony i feel like i love him. many people in the office call me missia alexa cause of cindy the first person who call me like that.
she just think that i am feminin but not only feminin i like a man.there is a different of feminin and being a women. a man cant be feminin but a man cannot being a women.
i feel like being a women. sometimes it just wrong but i cant lie about my feeling i dont want lie myself about it.
ohhh.... cindy forgive me although you say i am a man but my feeling is a women and i am lie about me, this is the real me cindy and i hope you cam accept me as a women not man.
i know is time will answer my question and i believe that cindy will accept that and i dont want brake her hearth cause of it.