i cant sleep damn i am overthinking about them. i really hate it , i feel so lonely and i dont know how about it. in the morning i crying and i cant stop it. i so depression and i kill myself.
i know i want to do something wrong but i just get mad of them. i am really upsate and dispointed . i dont know its really hurt in me and i dont want to work this day.
my mom coming to my room and call me for breakfast. damn i still can forgive them i want to revenge of them. they are that make me like this.
alex yes mom so why your crying loudly. hhhmmmnn.... cindy and tony betrayed me mom. i really hate it i want to kill them. no alex dont do that it just that you just the same as them.
but i cant forgive them i really so depress you know mom the thing that hate is a lie , and they are lie to me. i know i was wrong to cindy i'll do that cause i want to get her mad at me. but they are lie to me. i angry. that motherfucker lie to me why mom why mom i just dont get about it.
ok chill let have a breakfast first and i want you to go to phsyclogist. you know i dont expert of it maybe it will reduce your depression. no mom i dont want to go to a docktor i.cant handle it . i just need to be silence and i want forget it.
sure you ok alex. that my baby girl. oh mom your so kind. your my angel and fuck them. i dont want to talk to them again. i will resign what you resign you tell me that you love your job.
yes i love it but i hate of them. i dont want to see them again. ok is up to you. you know you just making decision of your love.
just chill my.baby girl i know that you can trought it. yeah mom. what cooking.. just as usual fried rice oh that my favorite.
that my girl lets having breakfast together. so what you going to do if you dont work. maybe i just doing what i like. you know i design wedding dress, and other stuff. i want to be designer and i want throw the missis alex become missis alexa.
what do you mean, i mean i want become a real women mom. so that your decision yeah mom. please support me. oh my baby girl i always support you in everything.
but remember the consicuante it if you become alexa, you will have many haters that dont like you. yeah i am ready. i need time to reduce my depression i want to buy some medicine in drug store.
yeah i need Pill. mom oh ok yeah mom i am sory not to tell you before i made a decision i already consul to a doctor. and i just made decision of me.
i really hate it of them, maybe next week i am ready to tell that i want resign on that job. you know alex your like being a women . that the hardess decision.
yeah mom i know it. maybe i will operate surgery to being a women and i still figure it out. i dont care that people say about me . i just say thank you and maybe i wont be like this because of them.