I am still in shock.. for hearing this news.. I mean seriously.. how can he do this.. to train someone and give my name.. how dare he do that.. and he wants me that fight with shadow.. no in a hell.. is Max know about this.. I have to talk to him.. how can he do that.. do with me.. I mean I know for him I am dead. But why he using my name. how can I talk to Max.. what will he do. Fuck I can't trust anyone.. and how can I face this.. what will happen. When Justin know this that I am here... what if he know that I am live.. I am again back were I comes to.. I have to leave this behind or go with him. No I will not going with him. No matter what. I will kill that bastrd if he come to get me. Or play games with me. is that denial know about this.. if he dose.. why didn't he tell me.. is Dan and Justin both are playing games with us. Is it all Justin plan. If it is.. than I have to more careful about this. And if they both are still together.. than I will not think once I kill both of them.. I want my freedom. And I will do anything live my life. If I have to kill them for this. I will..
" are you listening Ava.." my brother said to me.. broke my thoughts.. I didn't know that I am still in phone with James.
" yeahh.. I mean yes.. I don't know " I said to him.. I shuttered. And I rubbed my hand in my temple. Didn't know how to digest this news.
" I can't believe this its happening.. what I have to do.. I am scared.. James.. please tell me its dream. I don't wanted to wake up" I literally cry.. my mind stop to think. Thinking about Justin my body had goosebumps.
" relax.. no one know that you are there.. but if you think it's hard for you to stay there.. you can come home.. I will come to get you.. please dont worry I am here.." he said to me.. I know I will go to James.. but it's not good idea. Max will fight with her. And he think that it's me.. if I gone.. I don't wanted to runway to my problems. Today or tomorrow I have to face this in one day. If I want my future with happiness I have to change my today.
I don't care whatever he said or think.. for now it's for me.. I have to get out this I have to think about this.. I have to talk with Dan and Max.. I have to think this. How to get out this. I have to make plan strong that all are going to according to me. Talk with Max not going to happen. But Dan. I have to talk with him. To conform this news. Is he know anything about this.
" I will think about this.. and than told you.. for now. It's all that confusing me.. I can't get decisions like now.. give me a time for this.. I will let you know.." I said to him.. he know that I will just can't take decision like on the time.. when things are worse to face..
" oky.. but doll dont worry oky.. you dont have to scared.. I am with you oky.. just called me whenever you made decisions.. I love you doll... and take care yourself" he said to me.. how can I am going to be relax.. after hearing this news.. I am not going to be relax.
" I love you too.. good night" I said to him and cut the call.. ohh damn.. he's coming here.. fuck.. and what he want now he's bad news... again he started to play games.. why he come here again.. why he want to match with Max.. what he want now.. what is going on with Max. Is something that I am missing here.
I turned around I see that Max already there.. and he seen me like this.. or I don't know that when I am started to cried.. it's not good.. what's is happening it's all just to dangerous.. how can I will face this.. I have to do something.. what to do.. who can help me.
" who's you talking with?" He said and come near me and wiped my tears.. it's strange..
" are you oky.." he said with concern. I am not oky. But I can't tell him that. Its not good time to talk with.
" It's look like I am feeling oky.." I said to him angrily.. and tears can't stop.. I still crying.. oohh fuck.. I hate this when someone see me like this. I don't like to broke down to front of unknown people most importantly he's my enemy. It's all not good.
" No.." he said to me.. and hug me.. and I didn't thing anything.. and hug him back tightly.. I want this now. I feel so lonely.. I always want someone who care me.. who pamper me.. I have James but for now not here.. he's been there to clean he's messes.. ray.. he's not here. I even cant talk to him about this. I don't wanted to know Dan about me and ray.
We both still in this like hugging each other. he didn't said a word.. or didn't i.. I don't know but I like it this one he's caring mood.. I Don't know I feel little bit oky.. I didn't let him go.. I still hugging him tightly.. my tears finally stop.. I have to broke this hug.. he's not what I am thinking..
I back off.. and he didn't question me about this.. I didn't look him.. I looked at my foot.. I don't know.. first kiss now hugging things.. with Max.. it's not good. It's all wrong. What happening to me. And why always him.
" come on dinner is ready" he said to me.. and I nodded. Still didn't looking at him.. it's good that he didn't said anything about this.. or asked me about it. He give my privacy. It's really appreciate to me. I followed him to the kitchen and than sitting in dining table.. we eat dinner silently..
After eating one spoon I forgot that how hungry I am... I forget all worry. And eat my dinner.. no matter what.. food is always help for change the mood. He didn't still asked anything.. After eating three or fourth spoon.. I thinking about Max.
I don't know why he doing this.. after knowing that I killed he's brother.. last time I checked he hate me.. but he still care for me.. and about this kiss.. I never kissed anyone like that.. can I count this kiss to my first kiss..
Yeaa I can.. my heart said to me..
After that why he again temp me to said me to say that I wanted to kiss you.. why... wait.. what he wanted to kiss me.. no way in hell.. I don't think so.. why he wants me to that..
Maybe he like the kiss what we share had.. my head always know the answer
But why he didn't pulled away when you kiss him.. maybe he wants to or maybe it's just game for him.. but I kissed him.. I also do any other things to ignore those conversation why kiss him..
Maybe I like him.. no this time you wrong.. I didn't like him..
I kissed him because this is one think first come in my mind..
Why because you wanted to kissed him.. that's why.. and you kiss him because you like him..
No no I am not like him.. I know he's good kisser and he's handsome Greek god but I just cant..
I also forget that I killed he's bothered.. I punched him twice.. no it's not going to happen..
Every love story start with fight hate . After end of that they are in love each other.. my head said to me..
Bullshit.. it's all rubbish.. I can't beloved this.. it's not going to happen.. what if i like him.. after that what . He didn't feel that same thing.. in end I will ended up in hurt.. it's not going to happen.. no ways.. I don't wanted to hurt.. I hate love.. my present ended up in divorce.. no way in hell.. me and James ended in live without mom dad.. I don't want that.. what we see in life.. I don't want that in future happen with me same.. no..
" Ava.." Max said to me...
" huh.. sorry you said somethin" I said to him.. oohh damn what I an thinking all this..
" I said that if you finish..." he said to me.. and look at my plate.. sudden I know that I didn't eat anything.. ohh know what going on with me .
" yeaa... I am done.." I said to him.. ignore he's glears.
" but you didn't eat much.." he said to me.. so he saw that I didn't eat.. or thinking about him.. how he's fucking gorgeous ... and I unfortunately liking him..
See you accept this you like him.. my head said to me..
Fuck off for now.. I yelled.
" I am not hungry anymore.. " I said and get up to my site..
" why I am here.." I asked him.. why I am here.. I forget..
" you are here for to explain me that why you lied to Janna" he said to me.. yea right.. I am lied to Janna. About our dating thing.. why I am lied to her..
" if you think that you lied her about us and this thinking denial come for you looking at us. Than I am not going to help this.. she's myself friend.. more than sister to me. I don't wanted to be hurt.." he said to me. Wait.. seriously..
" Janna is your sister. since when.. I never see you ever with friends.. or sister" I said to him.. and that's the true..
" than you don't know about me.." he said to me.. really..
" than I like to know you.. whenever I see you you always insulates people.. I never seen this you talk with any one with proper conversation and friendly.." I said with smirk.. And little bit irritated.
" don't change the topic.. Why you did this answer the question.." he said with little bit angry.. damn it. He finally catch that I try to ignore this conversation. now he want to fight.. what can I do.. I tell him truth or I will play with him games..
" I didn't lied them.. I like you Max " I Brun out to him.. and stand front of him.. I have to do this.. I don't know but this is what I wanted to do.. it's best.. if he think that I was lying order anything than it's he's probably not mine.
" don't lied to me.. I am not trusting you.." he said to me.. he didn't trust me.. and it's good that he didn't . Because I am not trustworthy..
" good.. because I am not trustworthy.. I like you it's not going to change it you trust me or not. And I don't want that you like me back or anything. but one thing I want to tell you that never ever fall for my charm.. Because if you fall it's mean you had you death wish" I said to him.. and ready to walk away.. because there is nothing I have to say more.. and the conversation is over.
I didn't lied.. I really like him.. and it's just know that when I kissed him.. but it's oky if he don't like him.. because I know I am enemy.. I will anytime broke him or play him.. and I don't wants to hurt because of me. I am not right person.
He sudden grab me.. and pull me closer to him.. and he see that tears coming down to my eye's.. yeaa it's hurt.. that I like him.. but I can't prove him.. he looked me and he's all angry gone.. and he wiped my tears.. I don't like when he see me like this.. I am strong.. not weak.. not in font of him.
He's looking at me.. looking at my eye's.. and searching somethin.. I know what he doing.. but you whatever is search.. I am saying truth.. and I can't denying that.. and than I also shock what he did after that.. I frizz..
He's lips connected to mind... he kissed me.. why.. I am not right person.. why you kissing me Max.. I like you but I don't want that you play me.. I didn't kiss him back.. he push me to the wall and kiss me.. with aggressive passionately... but I have to much ego... I did kiss him back... I wanted to kiss him back so desperately but I didn't. No it's not good for me for him. For us..
" kiss me.." he said to me.. continue kissing me.. but I didn't kissed him back.. I don't wanted to.. no he will use me.. and I ended up in broken heart..
" kiss me Ava..." he demanded.. why he want to me to kiss him..
" no" I said to him.. and push him.. and run away.. I can't do that... its all wrong..