After chat with Janna I didn't go for P.T. I stay in my dorm..
I also thought to Change my dorm. I just can't face her. Looking her crying face.. I feel ashamed.. I feel guilty. I can't just look at her anymore.. it's killing me..
Should I told her. Who I am.. Should I said her what I did with her.. Should I tell her I am that girl..
What happened Next. She will stop talking me.. she will hate me. She never look at my face. For her eyes I am a murderer..
What if she tell my secrets to everyone.. I don't know what to do. Should I stop her to talking with. Whatever happened. Whatever she said. I never think about that. I never thought that because of me Max and Janna hurt that much. There life change because of me..
I keep thinking about them. It's hurting damn to much.. how selfish I was that time.. am I cruel that time. Thinking about I close my eye's I did know that... Think about my past life..
Flash back. One year ago
" LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.. TODAY'S IS ARE MATCH GOING TO LIVE OR DIE. YEAAH.. YOU HEARD ME RIGHT.. IN THIS ARENA THERE IS ONE PERSON WHO GOING TO LIVE AND WIN THIS FIGHT.. BECAUSE OF THAT YOU HAVE THAT PERSON TO FIGHT FOR THIS.. TO FACE THERE APPOINT." They announcement. I looking at in mirror. And ready to myself for fight. To win this.
I don't know why Justin want fight with them. I asked her lots of time but he didn't say anything to me.. he just ordered me to kill that guy. Even that guy told us they not interested to fight..why Justin forced us to fight.
I don't know what business had in there both of them.. but I have to do what he said. If I don't I know what he do.. he will punish me. And hurt me. Or what he destroy my brothers life. I am in mess. How to get out of this mess.. it's all my fault I involved myself to in this mess.. now I don't have idea how to clean this.. run away this.. god.. help me.. thank god he didn't know about Ava. What if know.. I know he will try to kill her. no I don't want to know him.
" WE ALL KNOW THAT THEY BOTH FIGHTERS.. THEY ARE POPULAR IN THERE WAY. THEY ARE STRONG AND THEY ARE DANGEROUS IN THERE OWN WAY.. LET'S WE HAVE SEE WHO'S GOING TO DIE AND WHO'S GOING TO WIN THIS.. AND GET OUT THIS ARENA LIVE. " I listing to them. I don't like to fight with him. Or kill him. Should I told him to back of I don't wants to fight. Also I don't want to kill more people.. I feel ridicules.. frustrated.
" WE HAVE TO WELCOME TO THE OUR FIRST APPOINT HIS NAME IS SAM THE BREAST.. HE IS GOING TO FIGHT AGAINST THE ONE AND ONLY GIRL WHO IS THE FIGHT LOTS OF PEOPLE AND CHAMPION IN HER OWN WAY. THE RED.. RED ROSE. SHE'S GIRL. BUT DONT UNDERESTIMATE.. AND YOU ALL KNOW HER WELL. SO LET'S START THE MATCH.." they announced I left the room and I come to arena. I wear mask. I always wear mask. I don't like to people see me.. when I am in fighting. I don't want distraction. And I don't want to know anyone about my identity.
That boy come toward me and we both are looking at each other. He's strong and he's to big. I am just nothing to comparison to him. But what can I said. I fight with like lots of people. And I also won the fight. So it's nothing to me.. and I know this one also I will won this.. by hook or by crook.. I know I will murder this guy in front of thousands people.. I will be a murderer.. but that what I do.. and this work. Justin give me money.. I always save he's back.. I know in this match lots of people had take money on who's win this.. this all game for them . They only know how to earn Money.. after that here person die or not.. they don't care about that . They only care about there money.. fucking billionaires.. I hate that business man's.. they are piss of shit..
We both looking at each other. He's to smart. Handsome.. and attractive no matter what. He's eyes.. He's lips.. He's strong muscles..He's body language.. he feeel like little uncomfortable.. I feel sorry for him that this handsome man I never see after I fight with him. Maybe I will or he will die. So there is no point to lusting in him. or think towards him..
Stop think about rubbish Red.. focus on match.. you have to win this match.. its do or die match.. there is no knock out match.. concentrate your fight..
" Ready.." he said to me..
" always.. ready to die.." I said to me..
" I never had fight with girl.." he said to me in low voice. Little uncomfortably..
We both are standing in arena. Lots of people cheering us. And this guy telling me that he never fight with girl.
" well your bad. Because I fight with lots of man. And I never lose" I said to him with smirking . I don't know what he think. He take deep breaths and than said.
" than you will win this one also. Because I never fight with girl I respect them so I already give up.. come to me and just kill me already.." he said. I stunned what he just said. He already give up. Without fighting. Than why he accept this to fight with me..
" are you mad. You have to fight. Than why did you agree to fight with me" I argue with him. My blood boiling and when I was getting agree.. no one control me. And he will already in hell.
"i don't know but you didn't know that we forced to doing it . And this announcement.. I thought it's just knocked out match. But seems like its my last talk what I am talking with you.." he said with smile.
" you didn't know that I will fight only do or die. Are you duff or what.. I Don't know what GOING to happen next. I want you to fight with me.. Because there is on back of.. you understand.. dont make me angry more." I said to him in frustration.. I mean I know that Justin did this in purposely but I have to do this. This man he's don't seems like dangerous.. He's seem like nice. But It's not in my hand. I have to fight with him.
" AND THIS MATCH GOING TO START IT.. LET'S BELL THE RING" and bell ring.. I am looking at him he didn't do anything. I just start fight with him but he didn't event try or do anything. I don't know what to do.
If he didn't wanted to fight than it's he's fault. Dont west your time Red and close this fight as possible as you can do.. I said my self..
And I come toward to him.. I hate this doing. When I know he didn't fight back to me. I like that types of man who fight back but this one.. I totally love it if he didn't my APPOINT.
" sorry buddy.. but I have to do this.. it's do or die situation.. " I said to him and START punching him.. punch after punch.. he did fight back.. he just heal he's wounds. I hate to seen him like this. It's to bad.. but have to do this.. blood is fall out in he's mouth.. lips.. He's skin is pale little bit.. I feel sorry for him..
After10 minutes I continue fighting with him everyone know that this is one side fight. All are shouting to Sam that get up and fight back. He didn't fight back. And after that I finally killed him..
I win this match. But I didn't feel like win this match. All are cheering. But I didn't like it. I hate it that I kill him. Kill him in front of thousands people. He also told me he not even try to fight back. This guy is something. And I left the arena.. I don't know but some girl and boy run toward him he's life less boddy. And crying and sobbing. I didn't look back. And saw them I just left them.. it'd feel to guilty. But I have my reasons. I am sorry to that man.. and there family.. who lost there family member..
Flash back our .
" I am really sorry Sam" he's somethin THAT's why Janna love him to much. Even I know I also like him when I talk to him. He said me that he not going to fight. It's all just happened. He know that that day was he's last day. And I am last person to he talking with.
Fuck it..
Thinking about this. When I sleep I didn't know. But when I wake up. Dan is sitting in Janna's bed. And looking at me.. what the hell is that. I looking at him with confusion and what to say shocked.
" relaxed I just come to check on you. When I tried to call you.. you didn't pick up. So I thought come here and check on you.." he said and get up on bed. I get up and site in my bed. He come and site beside me.
" seems like you crying.. what happened to you.." he said to me.. what happened to me..
" nothing.. why you called" I changed the subject. Is that Janna is here. I thinking about this.
" no she's not here. She's in practice. I told her that I will go and pick her up. So she didn't here. Relaxed. And we can talk. " he said to me.. I feel relaxed little.
" you wanted to talk with me. Sorry I didn't pick you call I am bussy with some business." He tell me without asking him he tell me everything what I going to asking.
" because I know you what you're next question is.." he again said that. How did he know. Did I said that loud.
" yess you did.." he said with wink.
" oky now stop.. did you tell me that you know that Justin come here.." I said to him. He rise he's eyes. Little bit surprised. And than nodded. Know I think he's hiding me something.. why didn't he tell me this.. I hate secret..
" than why the hell didn't you tell me you tell me that you save my back. than why you hide for me this" I said to him angrily and get up to my bed.
" well I also know that Sunday morning. And I am bussy in that thing. To know why he now coming back here" he explained me without looking at me.. I didn't convince it. Whenever we talk he always said looking at me.. today he's not looking at me.. hes lying.. He's fucking lying to me.. I know he's hiding. fine play your game I will mine. I will never forget you about this Dan.
" he trained some girl. And that girl same as fight like you. And he also give her your name" he said. It get me angry more. I just don't know what to do..
" so what you think.. what to do.. and why the hell he is coming here. What he want now" I said to him.
" I don't know why but he had some unfinished business with Max and that's why he coming here." He said to me. I know that is I also know. But what business.
" what I have to do in this case. I am not right now ready to face him.." I said to him. I know if he know that I an live he going to come and get me. And I have to go with him. Everything taking behind my dreams my freedom all of this.
" why can't you.. it's there somethin that you hiding with me.. " he said to me.. no in hell I will tell him. Than he also drug me my brother in that. I can't do that. I can't lost my one and only hope.. my family.. I can't..
" it's just that. I don't want to do this. I am happy in my life. I told you before.. " I said to him. And that's is true.
" fine than don't be worried I will do something. Somethin that he never know that you are here. You are live." He said to me and get up in he's place. Plying with he's phone. Still doesn't looking at me..
" but one thing you have to assure that when I help you for this you have to help me in my plan" he said to me and hug. I hug him back. And back of.
" trust me I am doing it what you tell me to.. you don't have to worry about it" I said to him with give my fake smiles but show him that it's real one. He smiled back. Kiss me forehead and left me..