It's been a couple of months since my fallout with my father and well I've been good i guess... Ohh and me and Rhulani kinda sorta broke up. Yeah i know you're probably thinking i messed up Again! But i promise this time it wasn't completely my fault. We both agreed and decided that we made better friends and to romanticize things would ruin a good friendship. It's Friday afterschool and like any another other day I'm walking home to go cook. As I'm making my through the gravel road i find myself at the river bank where me and Thendo first met and had our first kiss. Ohh how simple things were back then, no complications just me and my prince. Nothing else mattered that day, for the first time i felt wanted... loved...appreciated but i guess if it was meant to be he'll come back right...
I look at my reflection in the water and i didn't even recognize the face that stared back at me. I felt like i was slowly losing myself, i had no ambition or drive left in me. I had nothing to live for. My father practically hates my guts, i missed out on my only chance at love and the one person who's arms were supposed to be my refuge passed away before i could even meet her. At this point I'm sobbing loudly and uncontrollably. Where is this God when you need him? What have I done to be punished like this? I looked in the water and took a deep breath.... Was i ready to end it all? I dropped my school bag and took off my shoes. I looked to the sky and said " Mama, I'm coming home, i forgive Dad and I'm letting go of all the anger and pain". I slowly started walking in the water and slowly the water started drawing my body in until i couldn't feel anything anymore
*A few minutes later*
"Ronewa!! Roni stay with me please" a voice yelled out. At first i didn't recognize it because my ears were still clogged with water. I slowly opened my eyes and there he was... My guardian angel. I tried to raise my head up but i couldn't. "Sshhh it's okay I'm here now" he said as he rested his head on mine. We stayed in this position for a couple of minutes until he helped me up and wrapped me around in his hoodie. I looked at him with eyes filled with tears and said " i can explain", he motioned for me to keep quiet and he embraced me in a warm hug and lifted my chin up, leveling it with his face and kissed me passionately. I immediately became weak in the knees, i had no control over my body and gave into his control. Isn't this the same asshole that ghosted me and led me on? The very same douche that i hated a couple of months ago? I guess it's true when they say the heart is a very stupid organ indeed. But i guess it's too late to turn back the hands of time now...