she was at her mother's house for the last 6 months memories seemed to haunt her at her marital home.
her mother knew most of the arguments they had and was very unhappy at how simon treated her daughter, but she also knew somewhere deep down he was a good man.
today was the day she needed to discuss something important with him.
she hesitated to pick up the phone, Noah was out with his grandparents so this was a perfect moment.
the dial tone made her uneasy ,the gravity of this talk would determine their future.
it took all her motivation to punch in those numbers.
it rang and for the first time in 9 months she heard his voice.
"assalamu alaycom amy,how are you darling? I've missed you "
she held the reciever tight and squeezed her eyes closed,unable to awnser right away.
after a full minute her voice very croakly came out "I missed you also,I wish this could all be over si,I'm so tired"
he felt pain particularly as he was the source of her distress.
"amy tell me why you called, I know something is wrong, I can take anything you want to say"
she cried out "why si?you know I love you so why did you do this to us?"
he thought hard about it because he cant understand himself.
"honestly I think I saw things in a twisted way but I'm working hard to change...I cant promise anything but that"
she calmed herself and just went right for it.
"si I want to sell the house, I cant live there surrounded by memories that I'd never want to remember.....can I do that?"
he with no hesitation agreed,I mean how was he ever going to compensate her....she could have anything she wanted now he wouldn't object even if she wanted his heart on a plate he'd do it.
"amy please take 5000 and get yourself anything you want, take a trip on your own to a day spa and completely relax .you deserve it and dr Langford said I will be home in a month inshallah "
they finished up with I love you and a promise of a fresh start.
she replaced the reciever and sat back somewhat relieved, at least now she could truly move forward.
memories of Graham clouded her thoughts.
it was thier first pregnancy and excitement and expectations were high they'd just announced it in thier family gathering.
he was helping her tidy up she was 5 months pregnant.
but sadly just before 6 months she lost it and Graham was there for her as he always was.
skip a few years it happened again but little did she know the grief was only just beginning.
Graham had a incurable tumor which he kept from her,that's why he slept so much.
she always assumed he was tired from work.
how she wished she knew....but then life isnt for us to choose.
oh how he loved her make no mistake even their disagreements were perfect, so gentle with her so patient....thier passion for each other not measurable even in mundane jobs they had a party.
but now she had simon and when he was there it was great ...opposite of Graham he never allowed anyone to look at her,to upset her .Graham was softer he'd reason with people.
simon on the other hand would knock literal sense into people.
she loved him and that's why his transgression was so hard.
it made no sense he'd hurt her but wouldn't allow even a look from anyone that upset her.
that's why things had to change.