Love never flourishes in a day
It's like buds and leaves
Nourishment and faith grows it into beautiful roses;
Indifference and distrust
Wilts it into ashes
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I wonder what's wrong with Tazwar. He hasn't replied in two days like that's really rude. Like hello celebrity, can you give some attention? Where are your manners brother? I know it's a fake account that I am chatting with him with. It's not my real account but still. Even back then when I used to talk with him with my real account he used to reply very late, Or the next day. I shouldn't be so invested in a nonsense douchebag but I am. I re-read our conversations.
Hello! (Me)
What's up?(he texts.)
I'm Good. What
About you? ( Me)
I'm Good too
Whatchu doing? (he texts)
Just scrolling through the feed. What about You? [Me]
lying on my bed and chatting. (He texts)
How's life Dude? (Me)
Going well. What about you? [Him]
Very lame. But kind of surviving. (I text)
Why lame?[Him]
I am living the same day in repeat for 9 months now. I'm bored. And I miss the wedding invitations so I can't even enjoy the delicious food there and I'm pretty bored. ( I text back)
Well that's all the students๐ (Him)
I like the peace and quiet though. (Him)
Don't have to travel through traffic jams. (Him)
sleep when you want..wake when you want. (Him)
No fights no nothing. (Him)
It feels good. (Him)
I am guessing you have quite the private life to relax alone self-peace? (Me)
Agreed I love the fact that I can go on and off hibernation. ( Me)
I stay in my room the whole day..no one disturbs me..so yeah I have quite the privacy. (him)
My parents are happy as long as I stay at home. (him)
I can sleep for as long as I want. Do whatever I want but just stay at home. And I do just that. (him)
And novels and fantasy is keeping me alive. (Me)
Wow, so what books did you read? (Him)
A lot almost 40+books (Me)
I have no privacy the last I tried to write a journal to keep my mental health good that journal was later read by my mom and dad and they even asked my aunt to translate it. Can you believe them? (Me)
That sucks. (Him)
You're having quite the luxury life for now ain't you? (Me)
Yeah..I think I'm having the best time..๐คฃyes I'm living the best of my life, this peace will never come again. (Him)
About the books though. That's a lot that's amazing . Best one yet? (Him)
I guess I binged on The Vampire Diaries book series. It was kinda good although a whole different concept from the television series. (Me)
Oh nice..never watched the series though..not my type๐ (Him)
Yeah, what's your type then? Which genre? (Me)
Tv series? (Him)
Both book series and T.V. series? (Me)
Ummm..well I watch a wide range of stuff... and also read a wide variety of stuff. (Him)
Top tv series would be - Fleabag, Black Mirror, The Game of Thrones, Sherlock, The Office, Bojack horseman.(Him)
Impressive. (Me)
Top books would be - all John Green books...Sherlock Holmes again...Rabindranath written stories...Harry Potter is basically what I grew up reading (Him)
So yeah like there's no specific genre. (Him)
Thanks, I guess(Him)
I do take pride in my tv series and movie choices๐๐...although i've shit taste in music๐คฃ. (Him)
I read a couple of John Green books but I guess as much as his plots and stories are amazing they quite lack the emotions. (Me)
Whaaaaaaaat???? (Him)
Lack emotion? (Him)
Which one did you read? (Him)
The fault in our stars is the only book that could make me cry to this day. (Him)
The same book made me wonder why the girl could not mourn properly if her love was so true when she found her beloved boyfriend was no more. I mean all she felt was shattered, I guess the guy deserved better. (Me)
The story was great. The characters were great but the movie did better than the book for me. (Me)
๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ(Him)
Can't say much cause I read it a long time before..but yeah it did make me cry....give me some suggestions? (Him)
Did you read Kafka on the shore? (Him)
it went right over my head :3(Him)
Nah I didn't...might as well read it now that you mention it. (Me)
I am patiently waiting for the day I again can go to the bookstore and inhale the smell of books and buy them. (Me)
Same๐๐(Him)
don't inhale books at a bookstore any time soon though๐ช๐ช. (Him)
Mind explaining to me Kafka on the shore some time? (Me)
Sure. (Me)
Physical books have a whole different vibe altogether, virtual reading doesn't give that vibe. (Me)
Get a kindle...I know it's nothing like a real book but it's much better than a phone or tablet. (Him)
The price of a kindle is reading seven hadith books. [Here I meant that if I wanted to get a kindle then I'll have to read 7 religious books because my dad has cracked a deal with me that unless I read 7 hadith books he wouldn't buy me a novel or an app but he thought I was actually talking about the price๐๐]
True...But try to get it from abroad...It's pretty cheap there and cheaper on black Friday's[ it was nothing romantic that he said here but still I liked him a little more at this gesture.](Him)
And how's everything going? (Him)
How's love life? (Him)
๐๐๐ Who are you kidding with? My love life is non-existent. (Me)
Why? (Him)
Because if my parents get any air of me dating they'll practically disown me...Also never found someone I could click with. (Me)
They won't disown you chill..parents just say that..the most they will do is scold you...And you're a girl..so they won't hit you.. (Him)
[Yeah, meet mine, maybe then you'll have to change your opinion but fine I'll let you get away with that statement for now]
So what is your type....๐ ๐ (Him)
I don't know really (Me)
LOL (Him)
I guess since I never dated so idk my type but might as well stay single for life.[except if you're willing to date, I wanted to add. But then again, no, I would have turned him down in a heartbeat.]
Single for life?..what about kids? Having a family?.. [ if you're willing to comply...I wish I could say that. But he's not worth it and I don't flirt or at least not with him.]
Well I guess I can adopt and there's still a long way to think about that, might as well find someone I would want to date. (Me)
So you want to date...but your parents won't allow it..and you don't know your type...and you will not marry..but you want kids..so you will adopt kids. (Him)
Wow๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ (Him)
Pretty much. It's complicated (Me)
I know. Well, you'll figure it out hopefully. (Him)
HOPEFULLY(Me)
Tell me about your love life (Me)
Well, I'm single...a little flirting here and there..but nothing serious. [Another pretty fat lie!]
NEVER WANTED TO DATE SOMEONE REAL BAD? (Me)
[Like your ex?]
Real bad? Ummm..I don't think so๐ค๐ค(Me)
Oh okay I guess(Me)
So how many exes do you have?? (Me)
2...you?(Him)
It's a big 0. I never dated as I said. (Me)
That sucks..there should be
A little experience at least. (Him)
Well, I have none I guess. I guess overdosing on romance novels I do know an alternate universe I am dating in. (Me)
So you do fantasize about it๐(Him)
Why not? Course I do. (Me)
That's good๐๐(Him)
But even In my fantasy, it comes out complicated and I fantasize not dating anymore...How dreamy of me. (Me)
A complication in a fantasy.?(Him)
I guess I am afraid of commitments and the whole dating thing because honestly my parents had an arranged marriage and when I look at them it feels like they were never meant for each other but bound my marriage. (Me)
So go for a love marriage...Actually, fuck marriage...go for love and relationships. (Him)
[Why was I talking about this? Like why? It sounds like a lovesick teenage drama lol. Such a lame thing to talk about. You're pretending to be 17 and I am 16, like hello! Why you talking about marriage dude? We're kids dumbass. Don't act out of your character. ]
Still don't want any part of it, I guess I am not the dating type. (Me)
Yeah I guess(Him)
How old are you
Tho? (Me)
17...you?(Him) [If lying was worth money, you would be a trillionaire by now.]
16. (Me)
Nice. (Him)
So you were talking about your BAD taste in music? What's your favorite singer/band? (Me)
Green day(Him)
Yeah, they're good although I only ever heard 21 guns by them. [ I lied. I never knew such a band existed but as soon as he texted Green Day I searched them up and heard that song so I could reply.]
Boulevard of broken dreams? Ever heard it? (Him)
Nah (Me)
Hear that song. (Him)
What you're doing this late at night? (Him) [It was 3 a.m.]
I am reading a novel. (Me)
Which one? (Him)
Isla and the happily ever after. It's a sequel to Anna and the French kiss but not really worth reading. (Me)
Nice(Him)
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I close the messenger and the chats. It's 5 a.m. means I've been reading the texts for at least about a solid two hours staring at the sky and switching sides repeatedly to catch sleep simultaneously and the sun is already making its way to the sky. I call Kashmira and ask her If she wants to go for a walk at 5 p.m later that day since I'm pretty sure she's awake talking to her boyfriend... Course she said yes.