I certainly hope it's not what I think it is .....
MONDAY
This weekend actually went faster than expected. I never look forward to school especially on a Monday but today was different. I really wanted to see him as soon as possible and I did not want to see him. I was confused.
In my world Mondays are a curse but today was different.The sun was out and the sky was very clear. It's a BLUE MONDAY!
School proceeded like normal and to ruin my day we had a surprise quiz first lesson early in the morning.Our math teacher thought it was best and it was just the start. Math wasn't just my least favourite subject but I failed each and every quiz including tests. I had given up and accepted that I'll never be part of the students who are credited with an A or B.
I had also been in an argument with Rosa, such a selfish person. I think she gets her character from her mom since she fired the headmaster last year and I don't know what happened but Rosa was involved. For me to the best way to deal with people like her was to ignore their whole existence but she had come up to me to lend a calculator and I gave it to her and when I asked for it back she said " I think I misplaced it but I'll try looking for it " after hearing her say that I just looked at her in disbelief "so what I'm I supposed to do now huh multiply and divide using my toes and fingers "
She said in an unapologetic manner "I don't know you figure it out besides it was an accident surely we all make mistakes " and by then I was fed up and said in an angry tone "if it were a mistake you would have said sorry and maybe offered to pay it back but no no no your just a spoilt little girl who is used to getting away with everything and you've messed with the wrong one . By Wednesday my CALCULATOR should be back or ...." by now the whole class had focused their attention on us making me shy.
Instead of going to Melanie during the class break I decided to talk to go and talk to John who was alone .
John:ey whassup. That was brave of you to talk to Rosa like that . I never thought you had it in you surely she'll return it .
Brit:I hope so otherwise if my mom notices it's missing you guys might never see me again and that's not the reason why here I actually have to discuss something with you
John: wait let me guess you ready to go out on a date with me
Brit: No what makes you think that I'm asexual bro
*And we both laughed *
So the reason I'm here is because Melanie wants to be your friend and you know she's shy so it would mean a lot to me if you just said hi even if it's not now but some other time when you see her
John:who's Melanie
*looking at me straight in the eyes *
Brit:My friend the one I'm always with everytime
John:please describe her for me maybe I know her but I can't see her so please describe her for me
*I took deep breaths and started to describe her*
Brit:She's shorter than me ,chocolate skin ,has small lips,blue Puma backpack and always has her hair in cornrows and.....what else
John:okay I see her but if she's not willing to negotiate a chat with me then I'm out
*The school alarm went off and everyone went back to class*
I was very happy that John agreed to talk to Melanie and all I had to do was to talk her during lunch time.
As soon as the alarm went off I ran to the park to share the good news with Melanie who I could clearly see that she was not the mood but I knew that John's name would cheer her up .
Brit:guess what!
Melanie:what ,you told Rosa where to get off ? I heard that everyone's talking about it
Brit:oh I guess that's cool but this one is much better
Melanie :yup and get ready to be expelled because nobody talks to her in that way
Brit:can we not talk about her now I have bigger things to deal with and I talked to John
Melanie:whaaat .....so what did he say
Brit:he said he loves you and wants 6 kids
Melanie :your lying and please stop joking so Bri what did he say
Brit: speak of the devil here he comes ,I guess I better go and finish writing tomorrow's assignment
Melanie:please don't go please please please
John:hey ladies
*Melanie doesn't respond and starts eating an apple *
Hey you must be Melanie (John starring right into Melanie's eyes)do you mind if I sit beside you
*Melanie stutters and excuses herself to go to the bathroom once again *
Brit:she's just nervous she'll comeback
John: I think I better go before things start to get more weirder and tell her I would like to talk to her after school
After John left tons of things were going through my mind and that's when I picked up a familiar scent and I started to look around but nobody was there . I think my mind was playing tricks on me.
"WhereishedidIscarehimoff" Melanie asked
"I don't know I haven't seen him ...."I said blankly starring at a tree.
"What are you talking about I mean John ,hello earth to Bri"and I quickly snapped out of my thoughts "so what were you saying" I asked .
" are you okay "looking at me with concerned eyes "nothing I was looking at that tree over there and wondering how would it feel if it had another tree besides it"
Melanie said "haven't you learnt anything in Bio class and please stop talking like that you sound lonely and that side of you scares me "
We went back to class after lunch and I found myself counting the pages of my book during a Biology lesson and that's when he came in. I wanted to know why he was in my class but he wasn't there for me but to talk to Miss Billard who instantly said to us "I have been informed here by Tony that on Friday all Grade 11's and 12's will be going on a school trip " my eyes lit up when Miss Billard said his name and our eyes met while he was walking out. My heart was beating so fast it felt like it could jump right out in front of me.
Finally school was over for the day and I made my way to the park feeling all kinds of emotions. Lucky for me there was no one on the bench and before I could settle in he was already there. One could tell he was in a bad mood "are you good "I asked him "yes I'm fine "he answered in a very deep tone
I said"you don't sound good to me and I'm very good at reading people's minds so I can tell your not good but it's okay if you can't tell me I understand "
"Have you ever woken up early in the morning feeling positive about a day just for it to be the complete opposite ?" He asked while looking down at his book
I could understand how he was feeling but what I said was " everyone has their days and I would understand if you wanted to skip today's sessions ..."he interrupted me while I was still talking "No I meant do you ever feel the same way" he asked again but this time with a smile on his face.
I looked at him confused and he said again "DO YOU EVER FEEL THE SAME WAY"
I started to stutter and my heart was beating very fast "Uhm....No , infact school was great today" but I wasn't being honest .
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I got home knowing very well that I had embarrassed myself in front of him and even though this was not how I had imagined Monday but something came out of it and I finally knew his name, Tony. What a nice name. Maybe we could be the best of friends but who was I joking the Tony guy looked like he had a girlfriend so no girlfriend wants to share their boyfriend with another I know because I've been there.
I sound like some obsessed girl who can't forget about a boy and I pray this week goes by really fast because I can't embarrass myself anymore.
I then went to my parents room and I found my mom lying down and she was on her phone when I asked her if I could go for a school trip and she did not answer me. I was not surprised that she did not answer, I was used to it and all I had to do was to ask my dad and he agreed.
TUESDAY
School will always be school but I was more eager to find out what John and Melanie had talked about after school .
I started to squeal when I saw Melanie "so what did you talk about yesterday "
"Okay he said we could be friends but at a distance which kinda made me feel some type of way so from now I've moved on and I like someone else "
I grinned my teeth at Melanie "so all my efforts were in vain and I won't get to see you guys together?"
She said calmly "No instead today after school I'll award you "
I smiled as we made our way to class.
After school the whole class was assigned to assemble in front of the Maths lab and I knew I failed the quiz so all I had to do was to get my feedback and head straight to history sessions even if I was not happy with my feedback I had to fake a smile to avoid questions from Tony.
"Hey your early like always" with a smile on my face.
"Where were you" looking at me in a serious way
I did not know what to say" uhm...I was ...infact never mind "
"No I mind "
It's really nothing to worry about so let's just continue.
I was a complete mess during the entire session and history was tomorrow but I was not paying attention at all.
As I was about to leave my math quiz paper along with other papers fell on the ground and Tony being nice had to help me pick them up but he realized I had failed "so is that why your down today because you failed Maths "
"Its really nothing to worry about I'll try online classes if I have to "I smiled again
"A D in Maths isn't so bad maybe I could help you if you don't mind "he said still looking at me worried.
"No I'll be good besides I only suck in Maths so I'm good"still smiling at him
But he's a pushover and I agreed which I thought was weired . How could someone who doesn't know me be willing to help. He's truly a godsend.
I had given Tony my number so we could discuss quite a few things and my little imagination about him had disappeared.
FRIDAY
"MOM PLEASE" I started to beg her to let me go on the trip but she kept on refusing. I already had money and food for the trip but I needed her approval and my dad had already left for work . I was in tears. Everybody had left and I was denied to go to the school by my mother. I was very upset .
I switched my phone off and watched grownish on my laptop while I enjoyed the food and snacks I had bought for myself.
The house phone started to ring and I could hear it all the way up from my room. It was Melanie. I had forgotten that I gave Melanie my house phone numbers so she could call everytime there was an emergency .
"Where are you I'm super bored and that "tutor "friend of yours was looking for you"she said in an angry voice "why is your phone off I called you multiple times and left a lot of messages but your not picking up "
"I'll explain everything on Monday and enjoy yourself" I said in a sobby voice.
Tears started coming down as I made way to my room "thanks to my mother I'm missing out on the third trip this year. I wonder how she feels seeing me suffer and in tears. Every time I ask for something she refuses."
I continued talking to myself....maybe she's doing it intentionally. Maybe she regrets having me .why doesn't she want me . I ask for money she refuses, I ask her to buy me shoes and still refuses but she will go ahead and buy my sister and her my little sisters clothes or anything they want. I feel like I'm adopted by very cruel and wicked people. Why can't I be like everyone thats always praising their mother. I really love her but I think she's doesn't like me.
I had fallen asleep while still talking to myself . I woke up a few hours later when someone was banging on the door. It was our next door neighbour coming to check up on me and deliver a message
Do not wait for us we will be back tomorrow evening . Make sure you close the doors and don't go anywhere without my permission . Your mother xxx
After reading that text on my neighbour's phone I felt some sort of excitement and knowing how well mannered I was I knew my neighbour wouldn't check up on me except in the morning.
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