At the age of 10 everything you experienced below that age are full with cupcakes and rainbows.

Family

Reputation

Pure love

The Pertasies or what we call perfect fantasies that you once have in your life.

Simple pain you got from tripping down on your knees and honest mistakes from being innocent.

Most of them have this but other people wasn't able to have this in their life.

I guess thats true luck in my opinion I rather choose to be born without experiencing Pertasies than hunted by human's conscience.

At the age of 12 through maturity those glasses you have in your hands, breaks into piece by piece making you regret through blood.

You realized that the Pertasies you know are actually sugar coated.

It was created to make you feel better which leads to Lies.

Anger, Pain, Sadness & Truth are the real struggles you need to encounter in life.

Why do I think this way? I actually don't know why I am turning to be like this.

Maybe because I pity them, I pity life and I pity myself.

Is that even the right words to use?

I don't know...

I actually don't feel anything at all.

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"Sue its over I don't want to talk to you ever again."

"Hello to earth Sue?!" I've been talking for minutes already but your not even listening!" Pear said snapping me out of my deep thoughts.

"I'm sorry what was that again?" I asked while putting the books back at the shelves.

"I told you to step out of the library for once you are reading yourself to death!" Pear said.

She was currently nagging at me while the librarian was already killing her at the back.

"Minimize your voice Pear and I didn't heard someone died because of reading books on her free time." I replied and turned my back at her.

"Here you go again with that alibi are you going to let yourself eaten up by those hatreds? I may not understand what you feel but can you try to look at yourself in the mirror for once?" Pear said in a worried voice.

I look at the full body mirror in the library and saw my reflection.

I could even see my large eye bugs, thin body and messy hair.

She's right I look awful with my current appearance no wonder I've also once mistook as an old woman.

For Pete's sake I'm just 14 and looking at my body I actually loose a lot of weight too.

At that moment I wanted to cry again but it won't be helpful at all.

Not because of anyone but because I pity myself for being like this.

I let them stepped into my life when I shouldn't have let them at all.

My hatred grew a lot upon seeing how pitiful and powerless I am.

Nobody can ever understand what I feel, they thought I'm the one whose at fault.

But all of them are hypocrites they judge through their eyes and ears.

I thought this was a democratic country but I guess it was just a fake share of the word fair.

"How could they enjoy their life while I'm suffering? They doesn't deserved to be happy at all." I said while gritting my teeth in anger.

I heard Pear sighed while rubbing my back she's my one and only trusted friend.

She may not be a noble but she didn't cursed nor betrayed me unlike those people whom I once called Home.

"Why don't you take a rest at home?" Pear said while giving me a warm smile.

I followed her advice and took a rest at our small flat the two of us are living together.

From the daughter of the nobles I became an outcast of the family after running from my engagement.

I lived in a low-class apartment who has some holes in the ceiling where some water were dripping when rain comes.

The windows are broken and the only thing attached them was the masking tape we covered. The floor has a lot of damaged steps that sometimes I accidentally falls every time I step on it.

Lights are also flashing on and off due to the old light bulbs. I sighed and turned it off I'll be using the oil lamp later.

I noticed that it was already running out of oil, it was pretty expensive tho so I'll be using the candles.

"Is there any worst than this?" I shouted in annoyance.

Loud bang of thunders were heard in the sky made me cover my mouth.

"I'm just kidding!" I blurted.

For how long will I be suffering with this? Should I just follow my parents and asked for forgiveness? Or should I just go on and save some dignity for myself instead turning into shameless.

I stared at the window and look at those people walking on the streets with joy in their faces.

It makes me feel envy I just wanted to have a happy and harmonious life.

"Is that too much to ask for?" I thought.

I woke up from the call of the newspaper man.

This dream again.

"A letter for Ms. Isvicht!" The mailman shouted.

I ran out of the building and opened the door I grabbed the envelope and tore it.

"Due to the canceled deal we the Isvicht will no longer have half of the property we owned and our debts will be back in line. You need to come back isosisko our isä is at the hospital right now he needs you." From Eino.

I dropped the letter in my hands by surprise and laughed so hard. I felt some tears in my eyes while holding my stomach in pain.

"How interesting and naive young brother! That old man doesn't even care about me at all how could you say such thing are you also lying to me now?" I said in a sad voice while looking at the envelope.

I pick it up and throws it in the trashcan they don't need me what they need is money.

The Isvicht's one of the aristocrat family in the kingdom of Philopia. The head of the family is the son of a Viscount Sir Isvicht he married Lady Esme the daughter of a Grand cordon and has two children Sir Eino and Lady Sue which is me.

They owned some pieces of land and a hat business at the Capital.

Everything was fine until Lord Isvicht suddenly changes after his business trip to the city of Rogue. He began to start gambling and some debt collectors were starting to approached us.

Lady Esme became anxious and depressed thinking how come a huge crisis suddenly appeared.

My father become furious after knowing that we have a lot of debts. They decided to seal everything off by marriage.

Marriage.

I stared at my hand it was no longer soft and delicate like before. It became rough and already has calluses.

The engagement ring I once wore was no longer seen.

"It doesn't suit me at all." I blurted.

2years have passed ever since the tragedy of the Isvicht Family but it seems like yesterday's.

My feet brought me at the plaza I sat at the bench and sigh.

"I don't want to be like this anymore."

A man suddenly appeared wearing a black coat he seems to be one of the nobles.

"What are you doing here in the low class area." I said.

He turned at me and look at me throughly and spoke.

"You have such a keen eyes by noticing who am I but for a poor noble like me it must be an exemption by the rules right?" He said while giving me a smile.

I didn't mind him and took out my drawing paper and pencil.

Looking at him made me inspired and awoken my ideal self.

I started with the thin lines and slowly created a 2-layer thin chains I styled it as a small squares. It was time for the pendant so I look at the man but he was no longer in front of me.

"Looking for me?" He said near my ear making my eyes widened and stood up.

"H-how did you-" he cut me off and spoke.

"Such a talent what are you planning to do?" He asked but my attention got by his brooch.

A black spiral and it seems to be a rare hell of a stone.

My hands move and created a spiral what if its a broken pieces of stones?

I smile formed in my lips as I look at my creation I look at the man who was a bit surprise and confused at the same time.

"Where did you come from Sir?" I asked.

"I'm from the East Cove." He said.

Great! I'll call this Black spiral cove.

"Thank you so much for being my inspiration today sir." I said and turned my back at him.

"W-wait may I know your name?" He asked.

"S-Olivia its Olivia." I said and walk away.

When I got back at the apartment the rain started to fall.

"I forgot to ask his name." I blurted and walk inside my room.

Days had passed I got busy in weekdays due to my work at the cafe.

I was currently looking at my creation I acknowledge my talent in drawing but I didn't expect it would be accessories.

No wonder I'm not interested in our hat business let me rephrase in that part I have no interest at everything.

It would be great if I could create this for real right?

"Hold on Sue you are a genius!" I exclaimed.

I must be crazy by talking about myself I decided to take a bath and change into a proper outfit.

My face doesn't look bad now that I tidied myself ho ho!

I brought my design and walk around the area.

You can't see any noble around the commoners area people in here are different than the noble's.

Some poor children's were running around and the busy man loaders who were loading and unloading stuffs.

The market could also be seen ahead were the noisy sound of crowd were heard.

She like it here than the noble's area it was too silent and too much to handle.

When she arrived at the market her eyes roamed around and saw the commoners cake. She treats herself in the weekends with a cake to avoid being stressed.

"I shut my self for two years without appreciating the world outside." I thought.

As I was about to go when a young lady accidentally pushed me.

"I'm so sorry." She said and grabbed me up.

"I'm fine you seemed troubled." I said as I notice her tremble and her eyes were also red like she was crying earlier.

"You useless child! Go back at the brothel now!" The old man shouted in anger.

The young lady was more scared hearing what the man said, upon noticing the situation I know something was off.

"Why is he after you are you one of those prostitutes at the brothel?" I asked her.

"My father sold me to him to pay off our debts as a slave but he wanted me to be part of his sinful brothel!" She said while crying.

"Who are you to complain I am your owner get back now!" The old man shouted while holding a whip.

The people's attention are already in our spot making me a bit uncomfortable.

I don't have anything much but the gold clock I have which I treasured the most.

"If he was sold to be a slave then let me buy her then." I said in a calm voice.

"Really? As a mere commoner like you it seems like I am more superior than you young lady." The old man mockingly said at me.

I clenched my fist in anger, just because I'm no longer a noble he can easily mock me.

I was about to spoke when someone appeared in front of me.

"Will you look at that we meet again." He said and smiled at me.

My jaw drop in shock seeing the same man I met weeks ago.

"Why are you both interrupting my business hand that lady now!" He shouted in anger.

The young man in front of me throw a pouch in the ground making the people gasped.

"Pick it up." He said with authority in his voice.

The old man flinch and suddenly trembled while picking up the pouch, his eyes widened as he opened it and saw whats inside.

"Scram." He said in a cold tone.

The old man ran away in fear making me confuse who is this man in front of me.

"How come you found me here?" I asked out of shock.

"Is that your way of saying thank you? I was on an errand when I notice a huge commotion." He answered.

"You shouldn't interfere like that." I said coldly.

He look at me without expressions in his face and spoke.

"How shameless however, its also my fault for interfering so you don't need to worry about that. Everyone has a free will to do what they think is right as long as I didn't break the rules." He said in a different tone and walked away.

"Hold on let me correct your words Sir I promise to repay you the next time we met." I said.

He raised his hand and jumped into the running carriage I saw the grin in his face while raising his hat.

Is he crazy?!

Why would he jump in a running carriage!

"T-thank you my lady I owe you my life so I'll be your servant from now on." She said bowing on her knees at me.

"Please stand up what is your name?" I asked.

"My name is Marina Vault from the northern Caliber." She said.

"Well then marina I'll be in your care from now on." I smiled.