Good evening.
It's just the fifth day of my relationship with Zian.
Last night before I went to bed, I had the urge to go through my past pages and I read the ones I wrote in March where Zian told me that he likes Annaliese. I know I shouldn't feel jealous because he's already my boyfriend right? But I can't help it.
I'm feeling jealous and guilty at the same time.
What if he really does like her? What if she's been lying to me? Him? That what if.... I really am in the way? Would it be better if I cut ties with them so that they can openly say what they truly feel?
Is it me that's holding them back? Is it because...of me?
I'm sorry. I'm being too sentimental. I should stop now before these thoughts eat me up. I'm sorry...
TSM