Hey. I uh...
Just got back home from Zian's place.
I was hesitant to but Annaliese told me that she won't go to work if I don't go with her. And it will leave a red mark on her attendance that can result to her being unemployed this summer. I hate it that she knows how to make me feel guilty and agitated.
Going back to Zian and I, I plan to act okay and all but Annaliese seriously gave me away last night already. While I was writing on you, she wasn't even asleep. She messaged him using my own phone saying those stupid things I told her. She even stated on the message that they both know me too well, that I'll definitely not say anything at all if ever I'm in front of him already. So when I arrived at his place, he's already waiting for me outside. I felt guilty for making him wait for too long but I don't wanna let him know.
It was all natural in the beginning and we were talking like normal. And then Zian suddenly apologized so I asked why.
He said that he's sorry for lying to me. He said that he was scared that I might find out that he's been having a crush on me ever since. So he used Annaliese to be a cover up. And Anna knows it. That he also purposely kept asking me what Anna likes because when he first come to her, she said that to simply know more about me is to ask her what she likes and it'll come out eventually which really happened.
I was very stupid that I didn't realize that.
He told me that when he asks about Anna, I look very happy talking about her at first and then I'll end up talking about our common interests. And as it flows, things that I like will be known. And he did pay attention to them. I feel shy just by remembering it all.
He also told me that Anna did not really find him attractive. That she was more interested on how our relationship will go that's why she said she planned out everything from the start of April until his birthday. She didn't know about my idea but he said that if it didn't happen, what she'll do is that she'll lie to me that Zian rejected her and then show me their conversation saying that I'm the one he likes. then others will follow.
I can't even believe how wicked she was at that time. But I also can't believe how lucky I am to have a friend like her beside me. Zian said the same thing. And that thanks to her, he got to be with me.
She might be our bridge but we both don't plan on leaving her out of the group. Out of enthusiasm, I told Zian that we should end up marrying each other to pay her efforts. Very embarrassing!!! Right!!! Sounding like a stupid proposal!! Oh my God Three Shae Moone!!!
He laughed it off so I kinda felt upset. But he suddenly said that it's been his plan all along. I so hate him for making me feel a bit sad at that time!!
Your friend,
TSM