Two weeks I spent in my town visiting my mom at the hospital every day. She woke up but didn't talk, refusing to eat. The doctor had to give her an infusion and one night she manages to take off the needle from her hand, the result was that she dehydrated because of that. I tried to talk to her begging her to eat but she would just look away refusing to look at me. I was so worried and I didn't know what to do. YunRea called me every day, she was the only person I could talk to.
-Let me talk to my father maybe he can find her place here in some hospital or private care.
-I really don't know what to do with her and I'm afraid if I leave she will do something to herself. She changed a lot and I don't know what is the case of that.
The next day Mr.Park came with YunRea and we drove my mom to a private clinic. They provide full-time care just what she needed. I wanted to take her to live with me but the doctor said she needs professional care, so this clinic was the best solution.
Coming back to our apartment I sat on the chair and started to cry. YunRea hugged me tight stroking my hair.
- She will be ok HyeMin, just give her some time to adjust and you can visit her every day now.- I nodded but I couldn't stop my tears.
Later that day James came to see me, he was worried too.
- You should've called me HyeMin and I would come to be with you...- I just shook my head
- It's ok... I'm fine now the worst is past...- He sat beside me taking my hand but I felt weird. I had questions which I wanted to ask him but I never did 'till now. All of a sudden something got me and I looked straight into his eyes.
- Why do you hide your face from me?- He was confused
- What do you mean? When did I hide my face from you?
- Don't act so naive I know it was you!.. that guy who attacked me was you !!- He stood up
- What are you talking about HyeMin?!- I stood too with hands on my hips
- Why did you attack me? What did you want from me?... He shook his head
- You are wrong it wasn't me.. how could I do something to harm you?!
- Don't lie to me I saw a bandage on your left hand and my attacker fell and hurt his left hand...so don't you dare deny that you are him!!- He was still shaking his head
- No, no !! That was not me! I never did that to you I swear!!- I folded my hands
- Prove it then!- He lowered his head looking at the floor
- I can't ..not yet... - I smirked
- You are a liar and you are not my friend! - I turned my back to him but he turned me to face him
- I was practicing dance that day for the audition and I fell hitting my hand.- He pulled some paper from his pocket and I saw the application form for the audition
- I didn't want anybody to know what I'm trying to do but I can't stand these accusations from you! I might not be tall and handsome like some but I can compose my own songs...
My eyes were wide open- You want to be a singer? - I asked quietly. He nodded
- I'm hoping to be, that is my wish since I was a kid.- I closed my eyes and sat on the bed
- I'm sorry James... I'm so sorry... don't know what got me...- He sighs
- It's ok and I understand why you were suspecting me...and I should've told you what was my plan anyway...- He sat back on the chair and we both remain silent. YunRea came inside looking at us with a question
- What happened to you two? When I left you were chatting with smiles on your faces and now this?
- I think I'm going crazy that is the only explanation I have..- I said looking at the floor. Since the day Jun left me like that I couldn't act normal, adding to that situation with my mom I was sure that I losted. My thoughts and my actions weren't mine like it was some other person.
- Damn you Jun what have you done to me?!
I failed my exam.... but I didn't care. These days I didn't care about anything to be exact. The situation with my mom was the same. The doctor said she's depressed without a will to live. All that got me. I was strong outside doing my routines and all but on the inside, I was scared and lost. I didn't know what to do. YunRea was trying her best to cheer me so in the end, I started to pretend that I'm fine. Did she believed me or not I wasn't sure but we were trying to act normal like all was fine.
I was on my way home when some bad thoughts appeared in my head and made me stop. I didn't want to go home...not yet. Instead, I made a turn heading to the riverside. Some said that water can take away your bad thoughts. Maybe it will take mine who knows? I sat on the bench watching silver reflection on the water surface trying to empty my thought. But my phone started to ring which I tried to ignore- all in vain! The person was persistent so I picked up. It was my boss Mira
- HyeMin come here immediately I need you to assist me!-her demanding voice brought me to reality
- Ok boss.. I'll come. - Letting a sigh I find a cab and went to the main building. She was in her office walking back and forth
- Ah finally you are here!- she said quickly showing me to sit- I'll get straight to the point because we don't have time to waste. Our stylist assistant gets sick and we need someone to take her place. I know you don't have experience with clothes and stuff but you are capable to make orders so I think you should do that.- I opened my mouth to say something but she cut me
- It would be just for a couple of days... a week maybe until she gets back. All this wouldn't be such a big problem if there were not concerts in Japan. Our stylist needs help and you must go with them.
- I will do it.- I said simply and made her look at me with a surprise
- Ah I was expecting you to protest...oh well that's good.. - I stood up wanting to leave
- Thank you...- she said quietly and I nodded leaving the office. Probably that was not the wisest decision in my life but I wanted to do it anyway. Being close to the boys, spending time with them.. seeing Jun every day... A wise and sane person in me told me not to torture myself like that but my heart beat faster. Why Does the heart never listen to the brain and we always end up listening to the heart?
The next day I was in the plain with the stylist talking about new orders. She liked me I could tell and that helped us to understand each other. We were supposed to fly to Tokyo first visiting an exclusive store and pick some pieces from them. They didn't want to send them by couriers before we see them first.
When I first saw Tokyo I was amazed. Coming from a small town I never expected to come this far but there I was in the capital of Japan! I felt proud of myself. Looking at tall buildings, neon signs and crowded streets didn't scare me. Even I was a stranger there I felt great and welcomed.
My thoughts cut phone ringing it was Mira again
- Are you already at the store?- She asked
- No we are still in the cab...
- Ok when you pick up the clothes please bring me my dress to the Olympic hotel's last floor. I'm at the restaurant with my father.
- Ok I will... - I hang up and get off the cab.
Stuff from the store was so kind and polite. They showed us their new exclusive male collection and our stylist was pleased with that choice. Among all clothes around I saw a beautiful white dress made from the finest delicate fabric with silver threads inside of it. I couldn't take my eyes off of her and one of the sellers notice that
- Why don't you try that dress? - She offered but I shook my head
- No, no it's ok... - She smiled handing me the dress
- Try it, dear, without obligations.- And I did it! It's not enough to say that I fell in love with that dress. It was made for me! But like always happens the best dreams end fast. I took off the dress after I take one last look in the mirror and hand it to the seller with a sad smile
- Maybe some other time... - She nodded and smiled too. They wrapped the clothes that our stylist choose and she gave me one nice black dress for Mira.
Entering the hotel I felt strange like something wasn't right or something will happen. I hated that feeling but it was strong and I couldn't deny it. The restaurant was on the last floor and it had the most beautiful view of the city. A strange combination of green and silver gave luxury but a fresh and profile look. When I entered the inside the waiter showed me the table. Mr.Choi and Mira were drinking wine. I greeted them giving her the dress I was carrying.
- HyeMin come sit with us a little- She offered which surprised me but I sat quietly expecting to take maybe some new task, but she called a waiter asking for another glass
- Let's have a toast. Today we got a report from all our seller places in Japan and it was a great success ! - Then she looked
- And one part of that was thanks to you, you resolve our shipping problem in Osaka so I'm very grateful to you!
- T-t-thank you... my voice was chopped.
-HyeMin is a very capable young woman- Mr.Choi said with a smile and Mira was nodding. My surprise never ends. Who would've thought that this day would come? My boss was praising me! Finally, a smile appeared on my face and I took few sips of that nice red wine.
This day was great and happy and.... - my eyes met Jun's!
He was dressed in a white shirt and black coat looking astonishing but he was not alone! Stella was with him leaning on his arm, smiling from ear to ear like a cat who just swallowed the canary. They sat two tables away without noticing us. He was turned back and she was facing me. Then she saw me. I think her smile become wider if that was even possible. She leaned to Jun probably telling him because he turned and look at me. He was far and I might saw all wrong but it looked like he was sad. Then both stood up and came to greet us
- Come sit with us too- Mr.Choi made a suggestion. Jun wanted to say "No" but Stella already took a seat smiling all innocent. He left a sigh and sat across me. Throughout the whole time, she was talking and the smile never came off of her face. I was looking at my fingers playing with a napkin and I didn't want to look at Jun. The situation was awkward and I think we all felt that. Then he stands up
- I really need to go I got schedule.- Stella widened her eyes
- Oh can't you stay a little longer?
- No- his voice was cold and wipe that stupid smile off her face. He said nodded to us and left without a word.
- Ah he is so busy these days but still, he wants to see me whenever he can... - her voice was honey-sweet. Mr.Choi nodded
- Yes he is such a hard-working boy.- Mira looked at her
- You two are dating?- Stella tried to look shy
- Ah we are engaged since we were kids... - Her one-word stabbed in my heart "engaged" and it echoed in my head. His words "duties and obligations" came to my mind. Maybe that is why he said that.
It hurt. My heart hurt. I didn't know he was so deep in my heart but I felt that strong persistent pain. I can't say I really remember what we were talking about after or when I left the restaurant. It was all blurry to me. I erase those moments from my memory.
Later that night I was returning to my hotel all exhausted. I had so much to do and even when I didn't I was trying to get myself occupied. My feet were hurting and I was sleepy but all that didn't erase the pain in my heart. Getting off from the elevator I enter a long corridor with only one lamp in the middle, massaging my neck with one hand and searching for a key with another. My room was at the end so I didn't notice at first but as I came closer I saw somebody at my door leaving some box on the floor. He was tall and dressed all black with a black snapback on his head. I stopped breathing for a second and walked slowly. He didn't notice me coming because he was writing something on a piece of paper. Attaching that paper on the box he wanted to go
- Jun?!- I called and he stopped without facing me.
- Don't go... -my voice was just a whisper. I was coming closer and back hug him
- You don't have to say anything just let me stay like this for a moment...- His hands covered mine on his chest. Then he turned to me but I couldn't see his face because of the shade from his snapback... only his lips...
He cupped my face looking at me. I felt that look, I felt his hesitation too but something must've snapped in him and his lips crushed on mine. He was kissing me with longing, desire, passion...love?
Hugging me so tight I heard quiet whisper
- Baby...I missed you so much...- Closing my eyes I let myself to him but I felt a sudden cold around my body right where his hands were just a moment ago. He was gone...
Tears started rolling down my face and I looked at the box before my feet. Unlocking the door I entered my room and put the box on the bed. I couldn't believe what I found inside. It was that beautiful white dress I was trying today.
- How did he..?
This scene reminded me of one similar. My purple-blue dress!! I thought that was from YunRea but now I knew it was from him. I looked at the message: "Tomorrow 9 pm at the park across the hotel"
I will have a date with my black angel?! A smile appeared on my face and I spoon screaming happily kissing that piece of paper touched by his hands. I didn't care for anything else. Leaving my concerns, my sadness...leaving thoughts about Stella.- I will have a date with him !!- I shouted through the open window to the whole world to know.