White. All is white...
Snowflakes falling from the sky covering the grass and freshly dug ground..covering wooden casket... covering her name graved on a metal plate.
She died.... my mom died.
Why is everything white now? I hate white!
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The buzzing sound of my phone woke me up. It was a message from YunRea: "HyeMin wake up!!"
I smiled and text back: " I'm awake!"
Sliding in my warm slippers I headed to the bathroom taking off my pajama on the way. I had an exam that day and it was my final exam, so YunRea was worried I might not get up in time.
Hot water touched my skin and I lifted my head. The warmth and gentle touches reminded me of Jun's kisses. I missed him so much but we haven't seen each other for almost a week. His hectic schedule took all his time. But I can't complain, he was sending me messages whenever he could and most of them were selcas. My laugh echoed through the bathroom when I remembered that
- My narcissistic love, my handsome boy! Wrapping my body in a big towel I returned to my room opening the closet - Maybe I should wear jeans today?
With light steps, I left the apartment looking at the sky. It was a cold but sunny day and I felt great
- Isn't this life beautiful!!
Hours passed and I finished my exam with good results. I took my phone to text Jun this happy news. He answered right away: "Baby I'm so proud! I wish I could be with you now and celebrate.."
"But you are with me and I'm the happiest girl in the world!" - I answered smiling wide.
"Don't get mad at me but I will not be able to get back a few days more...we have some photo shooting and stuff.."
I sigh "I understand all but... I was hoping to see you.." He sent a sad emoticon " I promise I will make it up to you"
"Don't worry about it...it's ok really"
After putting the phone back in my bag I headed to the bus stop and then I thought why not celebrate my good results with YunRea?! We haven't spent much time together since I was working and studying for my exams. I texted her: "Let's meet at cafe near the apartment. I passed the exam!!
"She replied with a smiling emoticon and a lot of hearts "Sooo happy for ya !! I'm coming right away!!"
I arrived first and sat near the window ordering coffee late. She came after five minutes smiling wide
- HyeMin-ah I'm so happy you passed because you worked so hard for it! Now you can relax a little and enjoy with your boyfriend- She looked at me emphasizing words
- Don't tease me! You know how everything is complicated.. - She nodded
- Yes, but that doesn't mean you two can't have fun and you know I already told you how much I'm happy for you two being together- She laughed
- When I just remember how he asked me not to tell you about that blue-purple dress he bought for you. He was sure if you knew that was from him you would've thrown it or burn it! - we both laughed
- Yeah he was drawing me crazy all the time with his comments and attitude. Always teasing me and provoking.
The sound of a message on my phone cut me"You two probably talking about me I just know it!"
I turned around -Can he see us? Omg, this boy really!!-YunRea chuckle
-He knows us too well that's all.-Then she leaned closer
- Let's go somewhere and have fun, just the two of us! What do you say?- I nodded
-Good idea!
We went to the mall because hey what is more fun the shopping and trying clothes!? First, we were trying sunglasses making fun of each other then she brought the wigs too. I laughed so hard my stomach hurt.
- Hey I have an idea let's go!- She pulled my hand, dragging me to the store with costumes. Pushed me on the chair and turned to make up artist
-Draw something on her face!-I wanted to protest getting up but she pushed me down- Just sit still it would be fun.
The girl took her brush and started to draw something on my cheek and I chuckle-YunRea you are going to pay for this later!- She crossed her arms
-Yeah, Yeah just be quiet you will love it when you see it.
After a few minutes girl took the mirror showing me my face. It was a red rose all across my face. Weird but beautiful at the same time and YunRea took a picture
-I'm going to send him that...
- Omg YunRea don't embarrass me! - She wasn't listening to my protests and send it anyway. My phone buzzed. Jun send a picture of him lying on the floor with the text"This red rose knocked me down!" - I was laughing
- Sometimes I really don't know who is more insane from you two!
Then I pushed her on the chair
-Now draw something on her face too-She protested
- C,c,c you better sit there and be quiet!- I warned crossing my arms. The makeup artist took her brush again. Soon YunRea had sunflower on her face
-Ah this is cute I like it!
- Now let's go for a coffee but with this on our faces-I took her had dragged her as she dragged me
-HyeMin it's embarrassing stop! Let's go back and take this off first.- I laughed
- No! You started this now bear with it.
Everybody was looking at us with smiles while we were sitting at the cafe. One little girl came
-You are so pretty can I take a picture with you?- She asked me and I nodded
- Sure .- After her, all children gathered around us wanting pictures too.
- Ah HyeMin look what you did - YunRea was embarrassed but still smiling
- Well it's fun to be a celebrity- I was teasing.
We had so much fun and it was already dark when we returned home. Our feet were killing us from all walking but it was worth it. She went to shower right away and I sat in the living room looking at pictures we took together and smiling. Somebody was ringing at the door. I opened and a bouquet of red roses greeted me
-Ah they are so beautiful! Where should I sign?-I asked the courier
- How about on my lips?- Behind roses was Jun, not the courier as I thought!
- Jun! - I jumped hugging him tight- Ah you surprised me! You said you will stay in Japan a few days more?- He was smiling wide
-Well we finished all today and returned...so here I am to see my beautiful girl!- Then he pulled the bottle behind his back
- Red roses, red wine, and red lips....-he leaned to kiss me.
- Let's go on a rooftop I brought blankets too- I shook my head
-You thought of all, just wait 'till I write a note to YunRea.
We went on a rooftop and June spread a blanket, putting one on my shoulders and one on his. He gave me glasses and opened a wine bottle pouring some in both.
- Let's have a toast for this awesome man of yours
-Jun!- He was smiling winking
- You sassy boy!
He lowered his head closer to mine
- I missed you...
His velvet lips touched mine brushing against them, then the kiss becomes deeper. His palms couped my face pulling me closer. Hot tongue lit the fire in my body. I was eager for his touches, his kisses...what kind of power he had over me? He runs fingers through my hair
- Baby... -whispering in my ear, nibbling my neck. My eyes closed and tears started rolling
- Hey why are you crying?- He brushed them with a worried look in his eyes
- Did I hurt you?- I shook my head
-No...it's just...it's just I love you so much...
He hugged me tight
- I love you too you silly girl, you made me worried...You know I hate to see you crying.- I nodded
- I'm sorry....-his lips covered mine
- Do you know how much I love you?! These few days without you were like hell...I wanted you near me all the time.- My eyes met his
- I wish we could be together all the time...- He rested his forehead on mine
- I will make your wish come true I promise you, baby!... Just be patient a little more ok?- I nodded again because I trusted his words and I wanted to believe in them. He put his arm around my waist and I rested my head on his chest. His long fingers were playing with my hair
- Look baby how this night sky is beautiful but you are the brightest star among them all for me! - I chuckled
- Jun you sound so cheesy! Omg, should I reconsider my decision bein with you after all?- He frowned
- What now? I was romantic here and you laugh?
- You could've thought of something more original- I rolled my eyes
- So cheesy... I think I have a mouth full of sticky cheese here.... - He pushed me down covering my body with his. Lips crushed on mine biting them. His hands holding mine above my head so I was not able to move an inch. My heart thumped hard in my chest, hitting my rib cage so hard. I was breathless, lost in time and space. All I could feel was his kisses and touches. Then he looked at me
- I sucked all cheese from your mouth so now I think you would be fine!- My look was blurry and I breather heavily
- What kind of storm fall over me? My whole body was shaking and his chest was moving up and down fast
- This is crazy... I can't ...I can't breathe- my voice was a whisper. He hugged me gently
- I'm sorry if I scared you like this but you were teasing me...and I... I just saw your lips and I losted ... I'm sorry baby...- My hand covered his mouth
-Don't say sorry and I'm not scared of you but of myself. A smile broke unto his face showing his white teeth
- Told ya I'm an awesome guy...- I covered his mouth again
- Ah sassy monster Jun again! Somebody help me!- I was pretending I want to run. He hugged me again entwining our fingers
- I'll behave! Just don't go...- I hugged him back both looking at the night sky full of stars
- I'm happy I found you on that train- his voice was a sweet whisper and his lips even sweeter...
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The bird was singing under my window. How strange.. do birds sing in the wintertime? I opened my eyes slowly while my heart was pounding like I was running. What is this strange feeling? I must've dreamt something. Looking around all seemed in its place, nothing strange, nothing scary but I was uneasy. That strange feeling didn't disappear even after I dressed up. Knocking on the door startled me. YunRea came in
-HyeMin...she took my both hands and made me sit back on my bed
- I have to tell you something....it's about your mom.-She started to cry
-They called from the clinic...she passed away...- I looked at her blankly
- HyeMin I'm so sorry..-She hugged me still crying. My mind was confused. I wasn't able to think and to understand her words
- What are you saying YunRea?- I get up then the meaning of her words hit me and I fell on my knees
-That is not true...tell me you are joking.- She kneeled before me
- I'm sorry HyeMin....- I shook my head
- It must've been some mistake...that is not true...
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Why does snow have to be white? I hate white! It reminds me of death...
My eyes landed on a wooden casket laid on the ground. Snowflakes were covering the metal plate with her name graved on it. That is all that has left of her..she is gone and I'm alone in this world. My feelings were mixed. I hated her all my life, I hated her being week...I hated her for many reasons. But now when she was gone I missed her, wanting to hug her just once. We didn't even say goodbye to each other. How could she leave me like that?
Heart attack- the doctor said. The second one and the fatal one.
The nurse gave me one letter
- She received this right before she passed away....- Pictures of that day started to roll before my eyes.
I opened the letter, it was written in English: " Mrs. Kim we are sorry to inform you that Giordano Maretti has passed away after a long battle for his life. It was his dying wish to contact you after his death. You and your daughter HyeMin are now legal inheritors for half of his property in Italy. Please contact us for further explanations" Letter was signed by the law firm.
The name of that man confused me the most. Who was he? And why he named my mom and me for his inheritors?
My eyes landed again at her casket- I hope you will find peace now...
Walking slowly I entered the car.YunRea was holding my hand. I've lost all my tears and I felt empty. All my life I thought I hate her, judging her decisions, judging her attitude towards me... but I was sure she was even worse to herself...
We came back to our apartment and Jun was there waiting for me. I entered softly in his hug leaning my head on his chest. He kissed my forehead
- I'm sorry baby... - he was rocking me slowly stroking my hair- I wish I was there with you and I hate this stupid hiding- My hand touched his face, his eyes were sad. We looked at each other without words, he gave me strength pouring love through his looks
- I love you so much baby and you are not alone.. you have me.- I kissed him wrapping my arms around his neck
- You are my black angel... just hold me like this your warmth comfort me...
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A/N: New chapter is here! Tell me do you like it I would like to hear your opinion...