-Lights turning off in 3,2,1... - a voice from speakerphone announced and darkness swallowed our faces. I turned on my little lamp to see where I'm stepping, in second hand I was holding clothes for Henry and Bobby to change. Behind the big curtain a lot of screams and voices. I stood there alone waiting for them to come. They had solo songs right after this. I moved the curtain a little to be able to see on stage. Boys were dancing while sweat trickled down their faces. After Henry finished his rap part he moved closer to the exit and Bobby followed him, the song was about to end. The rest of the boys were upfront still dancing.
They both came behind the curtain and I helped them to change their clothes. I gave them towels too and water bottles he nodded and mouth "thank you" then get back on the stage. The intro of his song started to play...
Bobby stood beside me watching me from above. I frowned
- What?- He leaned his head so I can hear him
- You don't look well are you ok?- I nodded avoiding to look into his eyes because I knew he would see through me. He put a hand on my shoulder
- HyeMin you have to stay strong no matter what! - I nodded again but he smirked
- Stubborn girl!!
It was my first day as a stylist helper and it was hell !! I was totally lost and had no idea it would be crazy like this. We were with them from 8 am. First, it was a rehearsal of all clothes we brought for them to check if everything fitting. Then they had a photo shooting for 3 Japanese magazines without a break! There were clothes everywhere, people shouting, buzzing sounds of photograph cameras, make-up, hairstylist...one word-crazy!!
I was trying the best I could to follow all that and at the same time admiring their professionalism. None of them ever mention that he is tired or hungry but I could see they were both. I was worried about them, how could they manage to do all with calm and happy faces?
Finally, the photographer announced the end of the shooting. The boys thanked all and left the studio dropping their tired bodies on lazy bags in the dressing room. I was collecting their shoes and jackets from the floor
- So messy! - I frown but left a sigh
- Oh well, if I was working that much I would've been even messier!
-HyeMin !- Jin called
- Can I ask for some water please?- I smiled bringing them few bottles of water. I opened one for myself drinking in little sips but Jun took the bottle and drank it all!
- This one had a better taste- he winked at my surprised face. I rolled my eyes but secretly I was smiling.
Magazine staff called all of us for lunch treat and boys were applauding and shouting. We all sat on the floor with lunch plates on our laps. Bobby and Charlie were teasing each other but Dan didn't waste his time and started to eat along with Henry. Jun came last, he changed his clothes into sweatpants and a white t-shirt. Jin was sitting next to me but Jun told him to move so he can sit. I felt strange but excited his thigh was touching mine lightly. His hair was still wet from a shower and he smelled so nice. My heart was beating so fast that I was sure everybody in the room could hear it. My cheeks become red and I lowered my head looking at food pretending I was busy eating. Luckily nobody paid attention to me concentrating on their food. My hands were shaking when I was opening a little sauce bag and I spill some of it on my hand. I turned to find a napkin but Jun took my hand and quickly licked the sauce. My jaw dropped so it was everybody else. He continues eating like nothing happen while others were exchanging looks. My cheeks were red as the shirt I was wearing. How will I look in their eyes now? Ah, Jun I could kill you now!!
Remembering that scene, I was standing behind the stage while Bobby was still beside me. He felt all my worries and wanted to encourage me. Henry came and Bobby left in a hurry. I put a towel around his neck giving him a water bottle. He was smiling. I knew he was enjoining the moment with fans. His eyes were shiny and he couldn't stop smiling. Then he looked at me like he was remembering something
- HyeMin... uhm... I just wanted to say something... you know I noticed...well, we all noticed Jun's interest in you so.... ah how should I say this... just be careful with him ok.- I saw the worry in his eyes so I nodded like a good girl should do when her older brother is trying to give her advice. All six of them had that attitude of older brothers towards me and it seemed they all wanted to warn me of something. But I already knew what that was. It was Stella. They were engaged, meaning I had no place to butt in there. I knew that so well, but my heart couldn't stop beating, couldn't stop loving... it was too late for me and I had no turning back. I fell for him so hard...
-Lights turning of in 3,2,1...- again that monotonous voice brought me to reality. I was standing in the dark watching the stage. Tears trickled down my cheeks hearing his voice:
" I found music when I find you so hear me when I say ...
I want you baby, you, you.....nobody but you girl"
- then at the end of a song whisper "I want you baby"
I closed my eyes carried away with emotions imagining he was singing that to me. Song ended but I stood there with closed eyes not wanting to get back to reality again. Then I felt warm hands couping my face and soft lips kissing mine
- Don't cry baby... - whisper in my ear, but when I opened my eyes he was gone. Is he really a ghost? I was ready to believe in that. Ghost or angel it doesn't matter my heart was his.
The concert ended and fans left. I was in the dressing room packing clothes. Me and two more girls were the only ones left not including workers who dismantled the stage. It was early evening and I still had plenty of time to get back to the hotel and prepare for my mysterious date. A smile would appear on my face every time I thought about that. Two girls were teasing me "you are in love!!" I denied it but smiled even more. I was imagining myself in that beautiful white dress still not believing he bought it for me.
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Standing in front of the elevator I felt so nervous but excited. The door opened and I looked at my reflection in the mirror inside. Beautiful young woman in a beautiful white dress with a smile on her face- yes that was me!
Before I get used to think of myself as not attractive or even ugly because others kept saying stuff like that, but that night I felt beautiful for the first time and I was beautiful for my black angel.
Once again I took a look at his message. He said park across the hotel so I headed there. I saw many couples, some walking, some sitting. Long in the distance I heard music probably coming from an amusement park. The evening was chill but I didn't felt cold. I stopped in the middle of cross paths. My heart was pounding like crazy.
- Will he come?- On my watch was 9 pm sharp but I couldn't see him. My eyes were looking in all directions when someone pulled my hand. It was some older couple. They put a red rose in my hand smiling, then left without saying a word.
- Ah what is this?- I saw a little note attached to it "At your left side" I looked upon my left side and headed there. Another rose with a message was waiting attached on a tree"find bench"- I left a sigh and kept walking down the path. New rose and the new message was waiting"10 steps more". My heart was pounding while I counted -8,9,10... - I looked up and saw a black limousine. The chauffeur opened the door for me and I get in. On the opposite side of a sit was a big bouquet of red roses.
-Mysterious till the end?- I smiled at that thought and leaned on my seat looking at the night sky through the window. After a while, I notice that we left the town, and after turning right car started to go uphill. Soon we stopped and the chauffeur opened the door.
-Just go straight miss until you see the lights.- he said and sat back in the car. I felt strange and made few steps towards the house but turned around to see the car leaving.
- What is this? Is he going to leave me alone here? I started to run holding my roses but the car was too fast and I fell on my knees crying scared like never before
- Don't leave me here!!
Two hands lifted me up and someone was hugging me
- Don't cry baby it hurts me when you cry.- His lips touched mine gently while he was stroking my hair
- Shhh I'm here don't be scared... I'm sorry I scared you like that...- his voice was quiet but I felt secure.
- I was not able to come on time so I send someone for you... -He was talking to calm me down but I kept crying. Then he lifted me and carried me in the house. I was still hugging him tightly with a buried face on his chest
- Are you still afraid?- he asked and I nodded again not daring to look at him. Like he was reading my mind he smiled
- Are you afraid to see my face? - I nodded again suddenly I didn't want to know. What if he is really James or someone else that I don't know. Then he put me down but I quickly lowered my eyes standing like that before him. I felt he was removing his cap
- Look at me...- he said but I shook my head like a stubborn child
- HyeMin look at me!
Slowly I lifted my eyes...
-I knew it was you ...- my hand touched his face- Jun....you are my black angel?
He smiled - Is that how you call me?
-Yes, you are my savior, my angel in black...
He offered me his hand -Come I want to show you something.
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