I watched as the car sped off leaving me breathless
What just happened?
Did I?
Tonight is not my night. I have to get out of here. Who ever that was I hope I don't get to see him again. I can't do this urgh!!! Looks like I should've taken up Kara's offer after all
Dammit
.......
I watch it rise ever so gracefully, it grew from tiny waves to a bold bright light until my eyes shut on accord because they could no longer accommodate it's brightness....
I would stand here and stare all day even if my feet hurt, I would watch it glide across the sky, it's just beautiful..... i'm obsessed!
This is a reminder of how beautiful life can be and that we should be grateful.
We get to wake up to such a sight every morning ....
This is the perfect way to start my day.... this is my only perfection... my only contentment.... something I can look forward to wake up to... something to live for..... what a sight...
Wow this is a new chapter of my life.... new beginnings
'Saddiquecca?' I hear Kara's voice in between pronouncing my name
'How long have you been standing there for?' she continued with her croaky voice
'Not long' I replied
'How're you feeling?' her eyebrows creased in worry
'Let's get today over with' I managed to say
'Okay we have an hour before breakfast then 10 minutes to find our class, so let's go'
I hurried my feet to the bathroom.... I don't like to talk on morning breath
I don't have a specific reason more than it bothers me
I hurried off my bed and head towards the bathroom... I don't like to talk on morning breath I don't have a specific reason more than it just bothers me. My feet carried me to the bathroom to have a cold shower, yep I said it cold shower. Ever since I was little I prefer everything cold no kidding. I hate tea, coffee anything that's warm except my sweaters and pants but everything else reminds me of urine yep urine. It's unbelievable but that's me. I love cold showers and water I feel alive a little I just love it.
I showered, brushed my teeth and grabbed the clothes I brought to wear, and yes I bring my clothes in the bathroom, I'm kinda private with these things not even kara is allowed to see me in my towel, It just makes me uncomfortable I like my privacy and I value others too anyways so I choose to wear a black t shirt with a black hood only because I'm putting my hair in a bun with some dark stretch jeans and my black Nikes oh I almost forgot I'm a food and shoes junkie so watch out for that, and I mean it when I say that you'll see.
I take a moment to stare at myself in the mirror trying to find the beauty my parents always described me to be. I couldn't find it, it's not just today it's been a while now... I know what you are thinking I don't have low self esteem it's just I have now accepted that I am not like girls on magazines and runways.... I'm just saddiquecca.... an adolescent who is herself no matter if society says or labels me to be otherwise. I am me, my own person, I don't know what I may appear to be to others frankly I don't care. I have a lot of potential, to become and be a better version of myself and that's all that matters to me... it's so heartbreaking when I see females like me who try to put up for what the world wants or claims her to become what about you? what do you want? all that energy can be placed into developing and enhancing your talent, skill or passion to make it your dream come true. don't put on a face for people, do you.
Yep that's me.
'Done' I told kara as I enter our shared room
She was sitting before the mirror as usual
I head to the kitchen just to check my reflection from the granite counters ah no just to check out the fridge my second favorite room of course my bed is # 1 no cap. I grabbed my water bottle and drank half of it, gotta stay hydrated after I feel the burn in my throat from the cold water I stopped and was content yep, I love when the cold water burns my throat a little if you know what I mean. I head back to my room I mean our room to recheck if I have everything I need.
After about 30 minutes kara finally was dressed
'We're behind' I reminded her
'Coming' she hurriedly got her stuff in her bag and looked one more time in the mirror
'All done' she cheered.
I gave her the eye, the eye that says make sure you're ready cause we're not coming back in here for something you left
'I'm ready' her melodic voice spoke to me reassuringly
I gather my bags and pull my hat down my face. I'm ready
I checked my bag one last time making sure that I have all the necessary things I need for survival, I'm kidding just for class.
I look up and nod my head signaling to Kara that I'm ready to go.
I pull my hoody to my body and took a deep breath before I step outside. Kara held my hand as we headed down the steep hall that's being brightened by the lights that scatter across the walls. I could hear the faint chatter of the other students as we turned the corner my heart rate increased I'm not a fan of crowds and being around a lot of people who I don't know does not help.
'Where's the cafeteria again?' I hear kara say as she looks at a paper that was the map. We stood before the garden the last place that leads us from our rooms and the halls we had to walk through to get out. I turn slightly for my head to scan around me for any signs directing us to the cafeteria.
'There' I move my head in the direction that held the sign and an arrow pointing towards the cafeteria.
We both move kara letting go of my hand and placing it around my shoulders. I love these moments I draw her close to me as we both headed to get some food, cause I'm hungry. We were greeted by two tall figures running, almost bumping into us some guy stuff I guess anyway we both shook our heads and headed to the two most intimidating doors ever
To say this was the biggest cafeteria ever was an understatement and soo many people from all sizes and race all fit in one room, it was filling up each passing minute. Kara dragged our bodies towards somewhere not so crowded while twisting and turning searching for something or someone. Once we found a place not so crowded she spoke
'I'm going to call Dixon he has a free food card because he's the captain or whatever and he has good grades. He gets one for 3 months. Free food yeah!! and he can order whatever he wants'
She pulled out her cell and scrolled through until she placed it against her ear
Can't recall the last time I called someone
'Baby where are you I thought you would be here by now?' Kara spoke
Yep they're that cheesy but I must say real
but cheesy
'Okay we're waiting... when you come in I'll signal you or call you just get here'
'I love you kiss kiss' she smiled and hang up
I love that smile Dixon manages to make her
'So what's your first class?' She looked at me
I looked at my timetable in my hand
'Sociology science' I voiced
'Oh sounds intense'
'Nah it's interesting' I said with a little smile
But something else caught her attention as her head looked above mine
'Baby Over here!' but he didn't hear so she took out her phone and dialed him, he picked up
'I'm looking at you' she smiled
'Turn to you left and look straight' she said
I turned around and saw him moving towards us
I looked at kara and saw as her smile grew each time he got closer she reached for him and gave him the biggest hug
'I miss you' she voiced oh and the awful part is they kissed and I turned around focusing my attention somewhere else that's important want to know?
Food, the smell was killing me they must've broke apart as I hear kara saying we haven't ordered anything yet
'This way babe' he held her hand and pull her into his side she reached for my hand and we all went our way.
'What do you want Saddiquecca?' Dixon asked me
'Curly fries, with a donut... I paused
And a cold water and 2 slices of pizza' I pointed towards the one with pepperoni I never know the names I just know it tastes good.
'Quite an appetite today' Dixon said
'That's regular' Kara laughed
I nod in agreement as they placed our orders
'And this is my spot from time to time I come here and talk to you when you were in California'
She smiled and we sat down and dug in. After I was done I started to observe where we were sitting, it was a bench table under a tree that gave us shade and a beautiful view of a river and the bridge, I need to find my own spot somewhere I can go and study I prefer to be around nature I focus more. It's serene.
'What time is it?' I said breaking up whatever moment or whatever that was happening
'Oh crap! We have 3 minutes to find our class let's move' kara said hurriedly getting off Dixon's lap and gave him a quick kiss before turning to me
'Are you forgetting something?' Dixon voiced before we could step any further
She went and kissed him again I almost rolled my eyes, get use to it, it happens a lot.
'No babe you're gonna need me to help you find your class'
'Oh' she laughed grabbing his hand and mine
'Lead the way hot stuff' she winked I almost choked
He smirked moving his eyebrows
'No PDA guys' I said loud enough for everyone to hear
'Sorry sweets' she said kissing my cheek
Might I add kara is so touchy not complaining but she showers us with love in everyway
My heart smiles a little it's going to be a long day.
'Okay this is you miss smarty kill em in there, not with silence tho, pun intended' he smirked
I raise my nose in disgust and muttered thanks before walking towards the door of my first class
'Wait!' Kara grabbed my shoulders spinning me around towards her and hugged me
'I'm right with you don't be too shy just be your best I'll call you when our classes are over so keep your phone on' she said letting me let go
I smiled a little 'love you' I muttered
Her smile grew 'I love you more now go '
I sighed and turned around
As I opened the door the bell ring signaling that class should start I opened and entered only to stop
Okay you get it, it's huge I hurriedly took a seat in the middle front it's better here no one will notice teachers normally target the back and front in the middle front I am able to stay hidden and learn better.
"l'Good Morning class I'm Mr. Cashmere Thomas but you can address me as Mr. Thomas' A tall man in full black clothes crisp like there were pressed on him, he looked middle age probably I'm wrong I observed as he strolled down the halls looking at us staring at him. He went on to congratulate us and explained that he doesn't expect us to stop working hard and keep up our grades and that he's not afraid to remove us from his class and that we should be responsible enough to hold our load work you know the drill.
'You're not little kids anymore I expect when I give an assignment I should get it on time and done well, we're over this stage I will not repeat I expect quality work at all times so you better prioritize I don't take excuses we're all adults here so I expect you all to act as such.'
I completely understand I said in my head of course
'However my doors are open to any queries as it relates to what I teach'
'Now I've been speaking for over 30 minutes now I'm getting thirsty so I'm going to write a few things on the board pertaining to correct textbooks we'll need for this semester now in the meantime get to know your classmates you're going to be stuck with each other for a while, makes sense'
I watched as he went to his desk and gulped down half off his water bottle then he turned around and started writing on the board. The chatter was slowly rising but I just took out my book and started writing focusing on the task. Hopefully no group work for now.
As I raised my head to complete my writing the person in front of me turns around oh I forget the getting to know thing, this sucks.
'Hi I'm Alex' she extended her hand towards me
I nod my head and shook her hand I don't like to be rude
I use my hand motioning her head to move out the way so I could continue coping what was on the board
'Oh sorry' she awkwardly chuckled
'Saddiquecca' I said mustering up the courage
'Nice to meet you!' she voiced rather enthusiastically
I didn't expect that
'Class, I won't be seeing you until Thursday evening that's 2 days from now it would be good if you could have the copy of module 1 by then if not I'll bring copies from the library'
Mr. Thomas spoke as he entered my aisle 'class ends in about' he checked his watch
'Approximately 2 minutes so I'll give you an early head out see you Thursday evening do not be late.'
I waited as everyone stood, took their bags and head out before I did.
'I'll see you Thursday Saddiquecca'
I waved at her and took my time packing my pens and book inside my bag
The bell rang after
Hopefully Kara remembers to call me I thought pulling out my phone
I checked my timetable realizing that I have 2 free sessions yeah me. I took a seat deciding to just wait until Kara calls or something.
I let my thoughts wonder, I could use some nature right now I sighed resting my head against the desk and imagined I was. I let my eyes slowly shut as I accepted darkness.
My body was jolted by a loud sound that kept buzzing for 10 seconds, stupid bell
Oh crap I fell asleep how many sessions did I zoned out for?
I checked the time matching it to my timetable to see where I was. I sighed with relief realizing only one session was gone so I have one for myself.
I checked my phone for any miscalls from Kara but saw none, I guess she forgot.
I got my things and head out. The first thing that I realized were the empty corridors, as I walked and tried to remember the turns and steps we took to get to where we sat for breakfast.
I traced my memory with my legs and looked up finally seeing where we sat.
I took a seat and looked around realizing that my surroundings were a bit crowded but not like what I experienced in the lunch room. As I sat, my eyes took me to the exact place I wanted to visit, it was beautiful. It was close to the bridge which connected us to the city. I sat there and just stared for the rest of free time I had left....
Freedom