Sekany's P.O.V
I mentally prepare myself for the days,
weeks,
months and of course today the big day I call it, I mean everyday is a big day for me no room for mistakes, I have to be on time to get things done on time and all that shit.
The familiar burning of my eyes got me up. I slowly got out of my small bunk bed and head for the bathroom. I sigh as I let out what I've been holding in for the past 5 hours or so.
Bad dinner, again just bad eating habits you name it.
I brushed out the bad taste out of my mouth
I washed my hands and stopped before the mirror, analyzing my face
The familiar red eyes and small dark circles that surrounded the skin of my small eyes caught my attention they are starting to get obvious everyday
Fricking insomnia I mumble
"GET UP! WAKE UP! GET UP! WAKE UP!"
My alarm goes off reminding me that my day starts now.
I took a cold shower, brushed my teeth again grabbed my grey sweat pants and head to the kitchen. I got out my cold water from my small fridge and took sips while staring at the rising sun.
The cold water keeps me up, I always start my days with it.
I know, you think I'm crazy for starting off my morning with cold water but it actually helps with keeping me up, I can't afford to make up for the sleep I missed out on last night or the nights before that. This is what I do every morning, the same old shit
I can't lie, it's cloying asf but I have goals,
Shit to do, so it'll do until I get what I want.
Yep.. That's my motivational speech, I find myself doing that alot. At this point in my life it's necessary. I lack passion... Love, it's just this one thought that keeps me going
"I don't want to do this anymore"
And that my friend gets me going.
I know I don't want to do this anymore and yet still I do it, the irony.
Well, in order to get out of something you have to do shit you're tired of sometimes
"GET UP! WAKE UP! GET UP! WAKE UP!"
It blares again
and that's my cue
time to get dressed ain't it
I pull my hair down in a low pony
weird for a guy? well not if I have long hair.
I put on a black tshirt, black coat with black Jeans and my regular timbs. Black of course.
I pulled on my regular jewelry, I have tons. I like em that's all
It just makes my hand feel heavy
weird I know.
I stand before the long rectangular looking mirror that stands in front of my ting bed and assessed myself. I didn't even realise how long my hair has gotten. I don't have the time to cut it,
yep I'm that busy. Literally
I untie my hair from the low ponytail I had it in earlier and gathered it in my hands and made a more presentable one
I grabbed my camera equipment and school bag along with my ice cold water bottle and head to my dark girl ranger.
"beep beep" I unlock my door, placed my equipment on the back seat and sped out the forest.
I checked the time on my phone and realised I'm on time as usual.
Let's get today over with.
The towering walls of Harvard came into view, I checked the time on my phone comparing it to yesterday morning. I'm 4 seconds later than yesterday.
Every second matters, every single bit and from my past struggles, for people like me, time should never be taken for granted.
I mean from a very young age I've come to realise that people don't give a damn about you or the little time you have here.
I've been forced to be responsible for myself and to become a man at the age of 14 . So what you see in movies about teachers/professors caring, being kind and looking out for you and thinking oh you're smart and you produce good grades all a lie. If you come to class late or mess up one time and think it's okay is all bullshit!
All they really care about is their money. So I don't want you to think that everything is all bright and sunshine.
Welcome to my shitty world
where rainbows or loving people don't exist not I'm my world
That's why I have to get everything done properly and on time.
I pulled my jeep into the closet parking lot to my department block. I hate walking and at this point in my life I want to make easier ways to get me out of this hellhole they call college.
I opened my backdoor and grabbed my camera, placed in around neck and took my school bag and placed it on my right shoulder and locked my car.
My feet carried me to the only path it is familiar with, I could close my eyes and my body would remember. I've been walking here for one year.
My life is a retinue remember, just different dates, but the same old shit.
My little chill spot before my class starts appears in my line of sight. I followed the path that led to it and sat down. I turn on my camera, placed my school bag on the bench and looked through the lens.
Aaah, the sun
Shinning as bright as ever
She's always on time and never fails to shine, after every storm that comes in it's way at the end it shines just as bright.
If I'm being honest it's where I got the inspiration from, being on time or what most people call it "trying to br perfect"
but they don't understand why....
I snapped a picture
That's the problem I have with people
The assumption,
the judgment, and yet they have no clue of the real reason.
Why do people jump to their own conclusions? without finding out "the why"?
I got up trying to find a better angle to capture her brightness, the sun of course is a her. Well to me anyway.
I checked my phone for the time.
I had another 20 minutes left before my class would start and it only took me about 3 minutes to arrive at my class. I'm normally 5 minutes early why?
To get any seat I want and to review my notes from the last class, I kinda have a bit of amnesia so it's necessary for me to get to class early.
I found myself scanning my surroundings through my camera lens
desperate to find something.....
Something outstanding
beautiful...
Just an inspiration I guess..
I turned my body towards the building behind me, raised my head and brought the camera with me.
I saw something,
I zoomed in a bit trying to get a better view
and
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