Saddiquecca P.O.V
Today is the day, can you believe it?
Guess
I actually have to leave the school compound,
my dorm room,
the forest.
I have to leave.
My thoughts were all over the place it's not a big deal right? I'm overthinking aren't I? I was sitting on my bed while starting out the window looking at where I will go. The city or town whatever crappy place it is that I have to go.
Just to get 2 books I almost hissed my teeth but stopped myself from doing so
'Saddiquecca aren't you leaving?' kara spoke as if she wasn't coming with me.
She sounded a bit irritated. I could sense her frustration slowly building up. And I think every time she realizes it she backs off not wanting to sound rude or like something's bothering her.
She's been giving me lazy feedbacks or comments that make me question if everything's fine, her behavior, her attitude..
it's changing and I will have to confirm if she's troubled or not. Today at least.
Kara stopped and I stopped
and soon I realized why
'Hey wassup?' a male spoke
then others..... I didn't look up, trying not to get noticed.
It worked.
'Hey guys I'll be back in a few' Kara spoke
Guys?
when since?
I'm quite behind..
Friends I see. She hasn't even introduced me not that I would care whatever.
Then she did what she never would do. She walked off rather hurriedly.. I find that quite odd because she never walks off without me.
Okay something's up
Wouldn't you agree? It's not just today. It's been going on for a while actually it just seems more obvious today.....
I took my time and head after her. Those thoughts never leaving my mind of course.
The sun was high in the sky not near setting, I could hear a pin drop in the car, I could hear everything and boy I wasn't expecting her silence at all.
I'm use to her ramblings and positive gestures.
I miss her eyes checking on me every once in a while but not once did she even glimpse at me.
Probably she had an argument with Dixon who knows? she'll come around.
I turned my back to her and stared out the car window for the entire ride to the bookstore.
Ding Ding! the bells sounded signaling new customers I didn't bother to look
Kara's voice however caught my attention
'Are you sure this is the right one?'
She hummed after his response I'm assuming it's Dixon,
then she ended the call
without an I love you? ha! I'm right they had an argument!. Well it's not right for her to take it out on me though just saying. It ain't my fault grow up!. I mentally roll my eyes.
I sighed
and now her attitude is rubbing off on me.
I took my tiny feet and ventured off in search of my 2 books.
It's been about 2 weeks since I've been attending classes and my professor said that we needed the books for next week's class. Yes classes are officially starting this upcoming Monday. It's Friday by the way and I couldn't deny going to the bookstore any longer. If I didn't I would be logging behind
can't afford that..
I raised my head looking for the sign that says biology or science hoping it could give me some sort of direction for the books I needed or which section I needed to go. I don't bother telling Kara anything. I don't want to fuel anything.
I hate conflicts.
I try to stay away from them as much as possible even if it includes ignoring my friend or giving the cold shoulder.
Conflicts never end well
I'll ignore her until she's ready to talk. Hopefully she won't turn daggers at me cause I just can't. That's too much energy and a waste of time, I thought while looking through the selves. I tipped a few times for the high ones, I'm not exactly that tall I'm 5'4 the last time I checked.
I found the books feeling satisfied I continued with my line of reasoning.
Is that petty? it doesn't matter I guess.
I found the books and head near the cashier and stood waiting for Kara to appear. She did
But I didn't expect her to go outside. I followed her with my eyes and found that she was lazily sitting in her car tapping her fingers on top of the side of her car door and stared straight ahead.. In waiting mode...
What the heck?
Did she just?
She would never!
For a few moments I was stuck in my thoughts. I must have appeared like I wanted to run off with the books aka shoplift because the cashier man's voice broke my thinking
'Are you buying or not?'
It must have seemed like I couldn't understand him because his eyebrows rose and confusion took over his face.
I slowly placed the books on top of the counter while he registered them by their barcode into the cash register, slowly matching my movements as if he was taming me.
'$200' he said eyeing me carefully.
I gave him the cash and left without a second glance with the books of course. I almost slammed her car door when I got in.
She never allows me to talk to strangers,
she knows how awkward it can be be for me, I overthink a lot and she just left without any acknowledgement or reasoning.
If it's a reaction she wants from me she will never get it. I don't understand why she's behaving like that.
I wanted to ask what the problem was but kept my mouth shut.
The silence was suffocating. I have never felt this way with Kara before.
The silence was always comforting not uncomfortable. This is absurd if you ask me.
What could Dixon have done now?
Kara never is this silent.
She started the car as soon as I turned away from her.. It was almost as if she was waiting on me to.
I felt like I'm a classified unknown organism being observed in a lab. Like highly confidential shit.
Can't believe I have to endure this until we get back. Urgh!
Let's switch places.