Saddiquecca's point of view (P.O.V)
My brain felt like I was slowly loosing oxygen as a result of the stifling silence
It was quiet just as expected and I was stifling.
The car ride felt longer than usual probably because I wanted it to be over. Not once did I feel her turn her gaze on me, instead her eyes were set train on the journey ahead; I've never seen someone so focused. It's odd seeing her like this; normally she would glance in my direction with a reassuring smile or just to check up on me
And sadly she has yet to do either.
Honestly I feel very alone,
Like an outcast,
This is exactly what I'm running from.
Can't believe she would do this to me, what could Dixon have done now?
He better have a good reason for her to be giving me the dead cold shoulder.
I glance at her through the side of my eye and realized she was in the same position from she started driving. I mentally sigh and curled my body into ball and found comfort as I drew my sweater closer to my body and over my head.
My body jerked a bit forward without my permission causing me to open my eyes, a bit startled but gained control after I realized we were at the towering walls of Harvard.
Kara showed her identification card to the security guard, he must've not realized me and Kara didn't either, that felt like a thousand bricks on my heart.
I ignore the act and focused on the fact that I was finally home
What am I saying? I mean I am finally away from people.
The car came to a halt and I watched as she got out without hesitation not even casting a look my way, I shook my head and followed in hot pursuit, I'm not tryna be left behind.
I didn't recognize where we were going until I saw them.
Her "guys" I almost rolled my eyes instead I kept a bit of a distance covering my head with my hoody.
'Hey babe' that immediately caught my attention, I looked up and saw Kara embracing Dixon
My expression is confused as heck I don't understand
She should be mad at him
I couldn't hide my expression anymore
Kara is mad, but at who? And why is she directing all her hatred at me?
'So I have an idea ' a blonde guy spoke
'Hello?' he insisted looking at Kara and Dixon hoping to get their attention
'We're all ears' they break apart
'Let's go out tonight…' Mr. Blonde spoke
Complete silence
'I mean it makes sense now'
'How' a pale one voiced
'Cause this will probably be the only free time we'll have.
Classes start Monday and we have to be focused and all that,' blonde doesn't stop there he went on to say
'Dixon you have football and not to mention you study medicine... Let's make the most of tonight '
'You have a point'
And slowly they all agreed while Kara stared at me for a moment.
I felt acknowledged, for the first time today but she said something I didn't think would come from her mouth
EVER
'Yeah we should' then she looked at me
I gave her the look heck nah,
I don't know these people. I see her almost rolled her eyes, attitude much.
'I'll be there in a sec she told them
'Don't keep me waiting' Dixon said and they head off.
She held her position for a moment I didn't know what to expect
Then slowly, she walked towards me and stood 4 feet apart. Her eyes were captivating in a very uncomfortable way. Her eyes felt like a laser burning my body. She held me in position and I felt afraid if I breathed
I couldn't help it
I shift on my feet, uncomfortably I couldn't take this, why is she behaving like this towards me?
She didn't take her eyes off me almost as if she intentionally wanted me to feel uncomfortable, I felt like I killed someone
I hated this, I took my eyes off her and ever so often I would check to see if she was still glaring at me and every time she didn't prove me wrong.
She opened her mouth in hesitation
'I want you to come with us tonight' She spoke reluctantly almost scared for my answer.
I shook my head
She hissed her teeth and flipped walking up closer to me like I was her prey
'Like for real? I don't understand…
I try to be perfect for you, I really do, and I do everything you ask' she stopped in her steps 1 foot away from me
'I make sure you're ok, I make sure that you're comfortable I put you first every freaking time!' At this point she was screaming. I just raised my eyebrows in confusion
'And you do nothing in return for me; you don't even ask if I'm fine what about me? Have I become nonexistent? What? I don't matter anymore just because my parents aren't dead huh? Does something have to happen for you to care about me?!
I give you my best always and at this point I don't know what to do anymore.
I mean I try to make you respond to me, I do everything and you think that little forced smile makes my day? You think I'm pleased with it.
It's been 5 years saddiquecca how do you think that makes me feel?
Oh right' she paused
'You don't even think about what or how I feel.' Her mood shift to pleading
'I want my friend back I want to do the cheesy things college friends do, I want us to go shopping and eat junk food, binge watch movies and maybe make new friends, stay up late, study together I mean even disagreements too.
I was bursting in tears inside, my eyes felt wet
'For the past few weeks I've been thinking a lot,
I've been thinking about you and Dixon.
I mean we've been long distancing for a year and I finally have the opportunity for our relationship to grow to another level
For it to mature but it can't.
When I'm with him I feel my best
He makes me so happy
But then I look around and you're not there with me, it breaks my heart every time and then when I'm with you I feel so drained cause I feel like I have to be perfect,
I don't feel like myself with you and you're slowly drifting from me.
I feel helpless because it's not like I can come to you and talk about it... I don't know what to say to you anymore.
I can't live like this, so for once'
The tears kept running from her eyes, she didn't even bother to wipe them
'I love you' she continued
'You're my best friend but I just want you to do one thing for me.
I'm asking
I'm begging you please just come with me for one night; just make a sacrifice I promise I'll be there for you
I'll be by your side the whole time I'll make sure you're fine, they won't even exist'
She held out her hands for me to take
And I…