One of hardest thing for a person who truly love someone is to let go of that person they give their whole heart, soul, body and mind but the painful part about my situation, the man I love will be also going to be the husband of one of the most dearest people in my life.

I both love those person deeply but they decided to betray my heart and trust, but the saddest part of my life, I have to let go, for the happiness and most importantly i have to forgive them but sadly I can't and I never could.

It's truly painful and almost I can't breathe, It's too painful to see my former Fiance will be my little precious sister's husband, all because of the stupid reason of "one night stand" after the drinking session with our friends.

Yes, I, my ex-fiance and little sister have the same set of friends, I allowed this things to happen, to let my little sister to be close with my friends but in reality she only wanted to be close with Julian, my former lover.

I don't know why I close my eyes to the things have been happening or just wanted blindly to believe they treated each other as brother and sister but I know there are so many "red flags" with the closeness they have.

All of our friends keep telling me that "to keep eye on them" because the closeness of Julian and Bella was not normal never at all, it reach the limits of being brother and sister relationship they have but wanted to ignore because I trust them.

But instead I wanted to ignore everything that people keep telling because when you truly love someone, you should learn to trust and other factor that my little sister Belle was raised by me since I was 7 year child and she was 7 months old baby.

I was not an irresponsible, I've been matured and hard working for a 7 year old child. I cook our daily meals and feed her, clean the house from bottom to top and took care Bella with great care and give her all my love but everything went down the drain.

So, what now? Bella is going to get married to the first man I ever love besides my beloved father and brother but I decided not to be there for them, I could not give my blessing for their happiness because of the bitterness I felt in my heart.

I decided to fled on the day of their wedding and go to a faraway place, where I cannot feel the pain and bitterness, where I can think for myself and where I can feel free from my unstable and unpredictable emotions.

I know my dad will be worried, he was torn between his two daughters, one will be married with a child to come and his other daughter is missing since the confession of Bella's pregnancy and Julian being the father of her baby.

Julian told once me, "I will be his first and last love", we will get married when he became a stable man but all the sudden I become "the one that got away" all the promises become he made empty and his words are just meaningless.

In one simple night of mistake and it ended everything us. The love, warmth and everything we been through together are just a fading memory for me, I felt numbness and emptiness inside and just feel dying but it seems I cannot.

Julian always valued family more than anything even for his rough personality, it's all because his own biological father left him and his mother. When he found out that Bella was pregnant with his child, he broke up with me.

He promise himself that he would not let his child go fatherless, he have to be good father for his child, he have to accept and face the responsible from his mistake he made and the only way to marry Bella, my baby sister.