Julian and I were only 16 when we met and we were together ever since then, until our wedding plans but instead, it become the wedding of: Julian and Bella, My little baby sister become Mrs. Ysabella Jane Franco Hernandez.
But it doesn't matter now, my children were the most important priority to me right now and I'm entering my 8th month of pregnancy to a place where no one knows me, not my friends, father and especially the Hernandez couple.
On the brighter side of my life, Dr. Al-Zhad, my handsome doctor was with me this past 4 months in this small hospital in this country and I become friends with the nurses and other patients and I was truly happy surrounded by these happy people in life.
It might be too soon to think but I'm falling in love with this wonderful man, Dr. Shainill Al-Zhad, the guy whom I just met 4 months ago but I was scared because he might only care for me and my unborn child because I'm his patient at the moment.
He is my attending physician at this very moment but he always brings my daily vitamins, food that he personally he cooks for me and he always brings my most favorite flower in the world, Sunflowers which made me smile a lot.
His bright smile makes my heart flutter, his wonderful piercing blue eyes brings me joy and world of wonders, his deep charming voice filled with sweet words that makes me melt and my body ache for him and which I never experience with Julian.
I fell in love so quickly, to man name Shainill Al-Zhad, an Arabian Doctor with piercing blue eyes and such a warm smile, what's more unexpected that I love him more than I ever love Julian, but I am too scared that he would reject me.
It was unexpected that I would love again after the traumatizing experience with Julian but right now I long for his touch, I want him to be mine, him to love me more than his own life but how can I? When I am still afraid to give my love to others.
Would he accept my feelings?
Can he love me despite my past?
Would he love my children as his own?
The questions in my head that I wanted to ask when I decided to confess about feelings for him and when would be the right time to admit my true feelings for the man I just met 4 month ago because of my accident I had.
It's overwhelming to think about emotions I had for him but the same time I feel happy by the little things he did for me. I was never this happy and I never felt this kind of warmth with Julian and Shainill was rainbows and smiles around him.
Everyone in this small hospital love the sweet handsome Doctor Shainill and more than his smile was genuinely true, it took me a lot of courage to love again and I was thinking that Julian and I are not meant to be after all.
Maybe Julian was just only meant to be part of my life and to give me experience of happiness and sorrow but left me with a departing wonderful gift that we once love each other and it's a proof we once been together.
A gift that I would not expect to receive from him and it's such a beautiful wonderful give that could ever receive in my life. I swear as long as I live, my most precious will be love, protected and will be cherish forever.
The two precious and beautiful life growing inside of me is my gift that no one could take away but I always thought before that and besides my dizziness and the unusual upset stomach I had, that I'm only gaining weight.