It's been a while, 4 months since they held the small wedding and since I decided to vanished from my own home and still feel a bit depress but I feel better because two someone in my life and they are both special too.
Bella is 6 months along in her pregnancy but I discover something else and it's more shocking that more than I imagine, it's a week after she announce her pregnancy and the week they held the small private wedding.
On the day I fled from my home, I felt dizzy all of the sudden and I just fell into the hot pavement ground of some busy street, people were in distress but luckily a handsome guy come to my aid and help me and bring to a near by hospital.
After 3 days, I woke up and there is nurse checking me "Miss, What happen? Why am I in a hospital?" She told me to wait and call my Doctor. The doctor entered my room and told me some shocking news.
Besides, the dizziness I felt daily and over fatigue due to stress to some recent events that contributed when I lost consciousness, the biggest factor is that "I'm pregnant for almost 4 months" and didn't even notice the signs.
It's been tough and rough year for me, I only thought its stress because for my upset stomach but in fact it was my morning sickness which is uncommon for me since I was young, I started to throw up when I'm overly stress.
One more thing, Dr. Shainill Al-Zhad was the handsome guy who help in the streets, he was the kind man who help a woman who fainted suddenly and if it's Julian he would ignore because he does not know her.
Dr. Al-Zhad visit me twice a day, personally bring me food and flowers and he would check my mental state and my unborn child every day. I never thought there's such thing as a handsome, gorgeous and kind doctor in this world.
Julian Hernandez was not like Dr. Al-Zhad in terms of character, both of them are totally opposite of each other. I cannot imagine how I love Julian Hernandez so much for so long of my life and I can say I was blinded by love or the idea of it.
Although Julian cared and love his family but that's all it ever was and when you are not part of them, he become uncaring, prideful and selfish man. I was never part of his life or one of his priority and Julian always let me down or disappoint me.
When my older brother died suddenly, I called Julian immediately because I needed him and I need someone to comfort me, a shoulder to cry on but he just ignore and said "I cannot be there and I'm with my mother right now."
That stupid man did not care for my family nor I, he did not call to say hello or ask how my family or I was doing in the last few months, during and after my brother's funeral, my family was greatly grieving from my brother Andrew's death.
Four months after funeral of Andrew, Julian called, he apologized for his behaviour and I simply forgave him because he was used "to be the love of my life" but unfortunately it's not the first and last time he did this to me but I choose to forgive him over and over again.
I was there with him through thick and thin of his life and even he was not with me in my own hardship of my life. I understand him because I love him dearly but instead he chose to betray my trust and love for him.
What's worse he chose to betray and hurt me with Bella, my younger sister. I love them so much but I cannot accept the fact they hurt me like this, I feel I was stab so many times in my heart and just bled and left to die.