Nova P.O.V
I sat at my desk, almost sick to my stomach. Today we got back our test, I shook uncontrollably, my mind racing. I closed my eyes, breathing deeply but I heard the paper hit my desk. I couldn't look, I didn't want to. I grabbed onto my thigh until it bled. Finally shooting my eyes open only for my heart to drop. A F50%, I gagged, running out of the classroom to the bathroom. I coughed up vomit into the toilet, after I was done all I could think about is what my mother would say to me. Would she call me stupid again? Or a disgrace? Or will I be kicked out? That last thought made me puke. I wiped my mouth and washed my hands, all I want is to see him, have his kind words again. I smiled, drying my hands. I soon heard the bell ring, as I went to get my bag and to apologize to the teacher for leaving. Walking out, I felt for the note in my bag. I smiled as I went looking for me, looking for what can make this day. I felt my burst with happiness when I saw him, I started walking to him, note in hand. But I stopped when I saw her, her red hair blew in the wind, he was smiling, they were smiling. That can't be his girlfriend it just can't be. He kissed her, he kissed her. I throw that stupid note onto the ground and ran up to the roof. I panted grabbing onto the railings, my tears falling, my body shaking. I can't help but scream my heart out, I have no one in my life, I don't have friends, I'm a disappointment to my family, he was everything and now there is nothing but my scream echoing. Slammed on the railing, watching it shake, as I pulled at my hair. My chested hurt so much, I can't handle this at all. "I can't handle life, it's too much" I screamed out, I wanted to jump but no one will stop me and all I want is someone to care about me for just a second. "Will you listen to my damn cries?!" I yelled again. I wanted someone to ask if I was okay, to be my friend, to be something like him cause now he is too far to reach. I yell and cry for a few more minutes before asking to go home. I sat in the back of the car holding my test close to me. "What is that Nova?" My mother asked me, I can feel the paper crumpled under my hands. "It's nothing" I wished for her to leave me alone. But no, her hand comes back, reaching for the paper. "Hand it" I shook hearing her, "M-mom it's really nothing" I told her again. "Hand it over, Nova!" She yelled. My hands shook handing her the paper. "An F, really Nova" I could feel my eyes water, "I- I did my best" I cried out, "If this is your best then you are useless!" She told me, I covered my ears trying not to listen. When we got home she made me sit in the living room and look at my test for hours. Tears covered my paper. I hear a knock on the door and my mom move behind me to the door. "Hi mom" I heard someone say, ``Mom I thought to myself. "My dear Elian" I hear my mom say in a tone. I have never heard before. I soon hear new foot steps. Some go into the kitchen, one coming into the living room, where I am. "Hey" I hear someone say, as I hide my paper in shame. My dull eyes mine the other girl's. She looked nervous, "Um, I'm Soleil, your sister" I didn't say anything I couldn't, I just nodded. "Your name is Nova, right?" I nodded my head again. "Well, I have brought you something" I watched her pull out a black and blue teddy bear. "I have never had a younger sister, and I want to be there for you when you need me, it sucks that I couldn't do that from the start, but I'm starting with this" I watch her get down to my height, "You did your best, So I'm proud of you" I ran over to her, hugging her tightly. Tears getting on her shirt, finally I'm loved.