APRIL'S POV.
Nathan guided me upstairs to the other end of the yacht. He inserts a key card and opens the door to a room. It is a huge room with a piano, sofa set and television screen but all that was nothing in comparison to the view the room had.
"Oh my God." I almost gasped at the beautiful view in front of me. I could see the city lights and them being reflected off the water, "It's gorgeous." I move closer to the window which covers the entire wall.
"Nothing compared to you." Nathan snuck up on me from behind, "Hey..." He leaned into my neck.
"Hey..." I smiled as he kissed my neck, "I thought-"
"You thought wrong." He moved my hair aside so that he would get more access and intensified his kisses. I feel butterflies in my stomach. "I like you more than you can imagine. I never thought I'd ever feel this way for anyone. You are so different from all the other girls I have dated." He turned me around to face him and opened the lace of my gown. "You think I don't want you?" He grabbed my palm and kept it on his hammering heart, "This is how I feel when I am around you, ever since you kissed me with your alcohol-dripping lips." Before I could respond he connected his lips to my skin again.
I didn't even realise when we moved back into the bedroom. Nathan gently pushed me on the bed, letting my gown fall down my shoulders and exposing me to him. My heart rate increased as he took off his own shirt.
"I..."
"Shh...Time for talking is over." He kissed me again, slowly moving down my body. I let a loud moan as he went down on me. As I came undone, we heard the loud cheer of the countdown. Nathan kissed me again. Before I could suggest going back to his friends, Nathan pushed us further up the bed. His fingers traced my cheeks and he looked at me like I was precious treasure. "I want all of you tonight, baby." He whispered against my lips. I was too dumbfounded to say anything so I just nodded. I pulled him closer to my body until I felt him hard against my thigh. There is a new excitement inside me as I feel him so close to my body. Nathan kisses my neck leaving his mark on me. I moan out loud and run my fingers through his hair.
"Are you ready?" He looks me in the eye. My breath hitched my throat before I could answer. This time it wasn't him hesitating, it was me. I look into his eyes again and all I see is genuine affection for me.
"I am ready," I say before overthinking it. No matter what the history has been, his eyes can't lie. He enters me slowly and devourers me like nobody ever has. It feels like my very first time. As Nathan and I lose ourselves in each other, the fireworks hit the sky.
"Happy New Year, baby." Nathan rests his forehead on mine, as he catches his breath.
"Happy New Year." I rested my head on Nathan's chest as he lay next to me. I close my eyes and let myself fall asleep peacefully for the first time in a long time.
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Next morning when I woke up, I am alone in the room. I furrow my eyebrowes as I don't find Nathan in the shower. I grab a robe from the bathroom and open the door into the collidor of the yatch. We are into the ocean and the view is breathtaking. I smile as I run my hand along the glass window of the yatch as I remember the events of last night. It was such an amazing start to this New Year. I climb up the stairs, into the front of the yatch where Nathan and his friends are laughing over the breakfast table. I see him looking so happy there with them, he looks like himself after a really long time.
But his smiling face isn't all I notice, I also notice his hands and remember where they were last night. I blush as I remember the events of last night.
"Good morning, Madame," I jump out of my thoughts as a maid greats me from behind.
"Hey, good morning." I give her a small smile. She really snuck up on me.
"April?" I hear Nathan's voice from the table, "Good morning." He walks closer to me and places a kiss on my forehead.
"Happy new year, April!" All the boys chirp from behind us.
"Happy new year guys." I cheer, "Hell of a party Lucas."
"Thank you. Come join us for breakfast, I don't know if you had a chance to eat last night."
"Yeah, I didn't." I admit as I settle down on the table next to Nathan who keeps an arm around me. The butler serves me with breakfast and we discuss about the party. After breakfast we go back to our room. As Nathan closes the door behind him, he found me smiling at the ocean.
"You like it here?" He keeps his chin on my shoulder and holds me against him.
"Yes. I don't want to go back home. Not that I have any.." I mutter, rolling my eyes.
"What are you saying? You have a home." He pulls back a little. I think about the words that I say and regret saying them. This is not the time to start this conversation.
"Nothing." I give him a fake smile and try not to remember that I don't know where I belong anymore. I sign internally thinking how will I ever get out this mess. Will I ever find my birth parents.
"Look if this about you birth parents..."
"I don't wanna talk about that right now." I cut him off before he could say anuthing else. I turn around and hug him. We stand by the window and watch the beautiful view in front of us. My mind drifts off to how I wanted to find my birth parents, I remember how ambitious I was. I know Nathan found something on them but let's face it, I will never be able to find them. I will never be able to get closure. My life will never be the same. Tears threaten to spill out of my eyes and Nathan notices it. He turns me around and holds me against his chest. I cry my heart out to him, remembering how this is the first time I am alone without my parents. Nathan lets me pour my heart out. He makes us sit on the giant sofa in the living room with me on his lap. How did my life ever come to this? I was never this weak.
After some time, I calm down and even my breathing. I do not look up at Nathan, I just press my cheek against his chest, listening to his heartbeat. His heart is beating rhythmically. He runs his fingers through my hair, gently massaging my sclap. I close my eyes for a moment, then I kiss his chest.
"April..."
"Yeah?"
"Call them." He orders me. I pull back and look him. He is looking at me sincerely.
"No. Not yet." I shake my head. He sighs and nods his head in agreement.
"We were thinking about going to Asterid. You guys wanna join?"
"Umm, no Zayn." Nathan gets up, "We have plans to do something." I look at him with furrowed eyebrows, confused why would he say that. Zayn and Nathan exchange looks and then Zayn leaves after saying goodbye to me.
"What's going on?" I ask after closing the door.
"April, its New Year. It's time to put the past behind us." He says firmly but I still don;t understand what he means, "You and I going to spend the day searching for your birth mother. You remember the picture you found in my car, behind the couple there was women with a baby and I think the baby is you. I had someone enlarge the picture and now we have something to work. I promised you that I will help and I will. But after this, you will talk to your parents, period."
"Excuse me?"
"April, you are avoiding talking to them and it has been eating away at you. I will not let this happen."
"Nathan I am not ready!" I yell but tears spring in my eyes, "I am not ready for any of this." I drop down to my knees. I thought Nathan would come rushing by my side but instead I hear him calling someone.
"Hello?" I hear a familiar sweet voice on the other hand, "Happy New Year, Nathan." I hear my mothers dull voice wish him.
"Mrs Grey, talk to her."
"April? Are you there?" her desparate voice reaches my ears and more tears spill from my eyes. I hear her sniff from the other end, "Honey, I miss you so much." A sob escapes my mouth and I cover my mouth. I feel Nathan's hand on my shoulder, "Honey, please talk to us. I know you are hurt but.." I cut the call before she could complete. I get up and lock myself in the bathroom not able to control my emotions. I am so mad at Nathan for doing this to me.
"April," He knocks "Please open the door." I run the shower to block out all the voices in my head as well as Nathan's. I take a long refreshing shower and change into my evening gown. Nathan tries to talk to me but I ignore him and walk into the deck. I find Zayn standing by the railing looking into distance at the ocean. As my heals click on the deck he turns to face me.
"Hey, you okay?" He looks at me with concern.
"Yeah..." I avoid his question.
"April what is it?"
"I said it was nothing."
"Come on, I know you have a lot going on but keeping it all in isn't going to help."
"And what good is talking going to do? Just so that he can stab me in the back?" Zayn flinches a little as he knows who I am talking about.
"What happened?"
"He forced me to talk to my mother."
"April..." He opens his mouth but closes it. "I think he was right in doing that."
"I am sorry?"
"April, you need closure. For that you need to take some step forward, not stay in the same position."
"I don't think I do that."
"And that's why you have him." He nods at someone behind me. I turn to find Nathan standing there, letting us talk, giving me my space.
"I..."
"Do you trust him?" I look back and forth between the two men. Nathan is still standing at a considerable distance. I remember the events of last night. I trusted him then, but do I now?
"Yes I do." Zayn smiles at me.
"Then go figure it out with him. I promise you this, my friend will stick to your side. Even when it doesn't seem like it." He winks. I pass him a small smile and walk back to Nathan. I hug him and apologise. He kisses me indicating his forgiveness.