"ignorance,they say is bliss"
The next morning, as Megan woke up while she slowly stretching on the bed, she wince feeling the migraine cause by the large intake of alcohol she took the previous night trying to numb the pain she was feeling.
She had flashes of images from what happened the night before especially Melissa call, her telling her that Jared tried to commit suicide several times and she became sad again because now she knows why she has not been able to get close to him this past 3months despite all she has tried.
She stood up slowly , gingerly went into the bathroom took her bath, dressed up and went downstairs to take a medication for her migraine.
She had just dropped the glass cup containing water when TJ just walked in putting on just a very low waist black trousers his pecs and abs was on full display with tiny droplets of sweat on them which shows that he was just coming back from doing his exercises.
She flushes on sighting him with her face turning red from the view and her thoughts.
" Good morning", she said lowly as she walked pass him only for him to stop her from moving by holding her elbow.
" The stunt you pulled yesterday", he said as he held her chin with his hand to face himself. " Don't you ever do that again", he warned her then let go of her then began to make his way to the coffee maker.
" I am sorry", she apologize to him as she watched him grind the coffee beans . " Would you ever forgive me ?", she asked him as tears welled up her eyes.
Her word made him paused, then he continues making his coffee like he didn't hear her while she stood there fidgeting waiting for his answer.
" TJ, please forgive me", she said as she walked close to him after mustering courage.
She had decided to start apologizing because he has refused to let her explain so she decided to let go of tell her own part and seek peace with him.
What she heard yesterday fueled her reasoning the more to just apologize.
She wants him too much to allow the past get in the way of her happiness.
She wrapped her arms around him and said " I am sorry TJ, please ", she pleaded as her tears fell on his bare back.
He was stunned when she held him because for the past eight years he had never felt her warmth around him.
He put his coffee which he had made down and gently detach her from himself.
" Please refrain from touching me next time except I asked you", he said as he slowly push her away from him.
" You hurt me, you broke me and I will never forgive you ", he told her picking up his coffee and taking a sip of it while he lean on the kitchen counter watching her.
He found it funny when she tries to act all innocent and without guilt like what she was doing now.
" I know I hurt you, I am sorry but I have been paying that price for eight years of my life, please TJ ", she said tears dripping down her face her hands clench together.
" You don't tell who you hurt when to forgive, why are you trying to guilty trip me about you already paying the price?", He asked her. He do wonder what was wrong with her to think everything will just go away when she wants.
" I am not trying to do that, I am sorry I won't bring that up again please ", she told him.
" Just forgive me please ".
He knew what she wanted a forgiveness, then to be part of his life fully as his wife then access to his wealth and he wasn't going to give her that satisfaction .
Never ever .
" We signed an agreement that will end whenever I wanted and after ward you go your way. I already paid you for it and you agreed ", he told her as a matter of fact.
" I thought, I thought", she stamered knowing the words to say but finding it difficult on how to say them.
" Oh ! You thought things will change after our marriage?", He asked her in mockery. " Megan, you are that woman most parents warn their sons against, the one who is only for the money and not love. Tell me do you think, you deserve me ", he mocked her.
He saw her flinched from his words and he felt satisfaction from it " Do you think I am stupid and I don't know that you are not just a two timer but a gold digger?", He asked her.
She found herself reeling from his words.
JT have been harsh to her since they got together but he has never called her a two timer or gold digger.
She ran out of the kitchen crying to her room cos his words where just too much for her to bear.
She slumped on her bed and let out a cry of agony which she tried to muffle by fisting her right hand into her mouth as she cried.
She has tried all she can to settle with him to no avail. He just didn't want to listen to her or give her a chance.
His words made her know that he will never forgive her no matter what.
He had mocked her of not deserving him and he was so right about that because of everything so far that has happened between them.
She was just nothing, a bloody nothing who thought that she can win back her love after all that has taken place.
She wasn't financial stable and depends on paycheck to paycheck before they got married.
Hell! She couldn't even hold down a job for long before she gets fired.
As she wallowed in her thoughts crying, she suddenly felt so small.
She cried for her losses, her lost of love, family even her life had never been the same after that day.
Ever since the accident, everyone has turned against her ... Even her family has disowned her .
Her marriage to him recently has made them to be on the talking term to her a bit but the conversation was usually awkward.
Life had really been hard on her for the past eight years.
She won't have even been here married to him after what happened between them if she had a choice .